WHOO!!! The car is back & running like a champ! So, I can now not return any of my ex's calls. Yes! But besides being callous, I'm happy to be back on the road & into for the DOTM. Work is starting to get tedious & I find myself toying with the idea of opening my own store more & more. I'm nowhere near ready to do it but I'm the place where I can start preparing for it. Who knows? Maybe my unrest with work may be the push I need... Also, I have been going over the idea with my bff about moving up north to the Montclair area but I can't justify moving. 1. She's just moving to be closer to her boyfriend, my other bff, for when he goes back to school. 2. I can't be away from the beach for too long... 3. I'm moving with her & her young son (who I adore & calls me aunt) but can be a complete terror sometimes. It just doesn't seem smart for me to do it.

And for some happiness. I was dragged to Montclair U on Saturday under the lure of buying textbooks.. AND THERE WAS A FESTIVAL!! (I lurve festivals )

& the leader stopped to take a pic & moved on

That is all

Soo yeah. Still no car two weeks later & I'm starting to get like majorly desparate. I need my wheels dammit!! If I don't get my car next week, I will have to figure out how to make it to Six Flags (which I'm sooo not missing!) Also, having the ex drive me to work for the last two weeks is really starting to grate on my nerves. I know I used to be totally in love with him but the more time I spend with him now, the more I realize that I had some damn good reasons for not wanting to go back. And the prospect of him driving me another week is feeling like a swift kick to the uterus. *sigh*

In other news, my friends staged an intervention last week & kidnapped me to VA for some R & R. Which really didn't work b/c it was pretty awkward since two of them starting dating. So, my whole circle is turning into an oval and will eventually be a straight line probably. I have also quit smoking for the time being but w/ the car situation, I may be starting up again in about 5 seconds. The best I can do right now is count my blessings & realize things could be worse. Much, much worse...

SHE CAME HOME!! My sis is now home under our extremely vigiliant eyes. Thank you for the support! It really helped me cope. She's been placed on a transplant list. Me, my bffs, & a few relatives will be starting tests in a few weeks to see who's compatiable to give a kidney. Other than that, she's pretty much back to normal & being bossy again.

I won't be able to make the White Trash BBQ (which makes me a sad panda) but I look forward to all the events happening next month. It's a nice amount of time away for me to prepare for it.

My sister has been in the hospital since Saturday. Her kidneys have shut down and she has been placed on the kidney transplant list. I am just trying to keep myself together and stay strong for my mom but it is so hard when I just feel like crying and cursing. Everyone keeps crying on my shoulder & I can't cry because right now I'm the only one that hasn't in public & I won't in private because I'm sure that I won't stop. I can't afford to lose faith & question her getting better. She will. I KNOW it. This is honestly unfair as all hell but there is a reason this happened and it will be revealed in time. For the meantime, all I can do is keep strong and meditate for her. May the Goddess bless her.

Camping... Dear gods, camping. I took the longest shower of my life when I got back. But besides that, I wish next year would hurry up so I can go again!! I met pretty much everyone I had set out to meet and then some.

Highlights:

The Dark Knight!

Being called Camp NY

The awesomeness that was Camp No Pants

Cafe Patron & Yukon Jack (mmmm)

Finally not wheezing up a hill

Taylor Ham

Seeing my chair in the dead chair pile

Bottom Dollar Food Store (damn 5 cent bags)

Floating in the Potomac

Cornfields, bugs, & lanterns oh my!

Liberating *cough cough* bottles of rum on Sunday from the community table...

Discovering how great Vajaejae, annericefan23, & artemiswerewolf are.

Having the car ride end in Jump by Van Halen hehe.

grilled peaches & brandy apples... nuff said.

So last night was one of my official group events & it think it was a bust. It was to the Cape May Haunted Tour. (which rocked by the way ) I got there late due to having the wrong address and missed the first tour so I caught the later one. I didn't think that little town would have so much history. I wandered around while waiting for the later tour and managed to see the beach. (which looked like the end of the world.

& we took some pics

the boardwalk literally ended

so we stopped at an arcade to kill time. I ♥ skeeball

we finally caught the tour

It took us 2 1/2 hours to get back from the end of the world...

And I will leave you with this parting gift...

Meh. That's how I feel today. My office temp is literally 45 degrees & I'm wearing 2 hoodies & a sweater to maintain body heat. Fourth of July weekend pretty much killed my brain but I did get to set off fireworks so all was not lost. The Musician & I have decided that until he tells the truth, we'll not contact each other (which pretty much means he's screwed). According to all reports, he's either married or has a serious someone & I don't like being a side dish. An appetizer, fine. Side dish, no. An ex gf & I have also made amends & I have to say it's good to have her back as a friend. My BFF has come out to me as bi & she was shocked to know I thought of her no differently & to find that I was bi also. *snicker* So, yeah, I'm glad she finally accepts herself & realizes I'm there for her.

Mini update

1. I'm a group owner now
2. Got my nose repierced (finally!!)
3. Might be falling for a *gasp* musican...
4. car keeps breaking down for some unknown reason
5. cell still off but now I don't have to deal w/ annoying calls
6. said musician may be playing games... will find out soon.