Its Thanksgiving day and im stuck at work, I left the Turkey marinating overnight and Mum is putting it in the oven at 2 p.m. Haven't had anything to eat yet cuz I have to build up an appetite, gonna smoke a lot today so I get Extra Hungry.
I hope all of you out there enjoy the all the Grubb with your loved ones.

Feliz Dia De Los Muertos!!! I pour some beer on the ground for the fallen ones. In other news, its getting cold in San Diego and I cant wear my sandals anymore. My feets kinda get claustorphopic during cold season but i'll manage. Well Im off, gonna get ready for bed, smoke a lil bowl and watch a movie. Have a Good night/morning out there.

Never thought i could raise above anything, never able to commit to anything, but now its patience that has me in check and this year has just breezed by. I would lie to you if I said it has not been boring and stressful all of this time, and I would keep on lying if I said that I have not slipped not even once, yet I believe in learning from my mistakes, even though i am aware that I would be a Genius by now if I would really enforce that rule in my life, never the less i am still learning as I go, I know what to look for now and i will try to stay on course, and I want to keep on going. Tomorrow is the 30th and my status officially becomes that of a single person. Tomorrow my divorce becomes finalized. Still working through all the details concerning my kids but enough time has passed for her to mellow down and I think my indifference towards her drama driven ways has a lot to do with it.
Cant wait to live another day, cant wait to taste the next rain drop for it has been really dry these last few day's , the sun beats down on my soul and so it craves for some soothing aloe vera so we can let the healing part begin. Need to get back in the Ocean, its on top of my to do list.

How the fuck are you doing out there, I know i tend to ask this a lot but believe me I really do care, or at least i am curious

Have a fucking Great Night/Day out there

Well Peeps, its Ashy as Fuck here in South San Diego, still at work, im in an area were there is a Voluntary Evacuation notice in effect. I just wanna go home smoke a bowl and drink a beer.
How is everyone out there??

as much as life gets me going. This drum beat goes on and on. Nothing is real any more and nothing is fake. All of you thihnk that life keeps going on and on, and some of you keep sleeping through shit. And life goes on and on. We create our laughter and we create depressing songs. La verdad no creo en nada ya......

San Francisco was the Shit!!! We went to Height & Ashbury then headed over to see Rage Against The Machine Kicked who Kicked Atomic Arse, there was so much energy and the Set was better than Coachella's. Sunday we went to Berkley and did a lil shoping. Now we have to regroup and save some money to go to Vegoose. Iggy & The Stooges are playing their album Fun House (one of my personal Faves) on Saturday and Rage will headline on Sunday.
How was your weekend???

Loads of work and 1 full week of being Mr. Mom, but Friday we hit the road up north to see Rage Against The Machine. A Road Trips will cure anything. Hope you have a Kick Arse Weekend

I need drums in my life, I guess drums really bekon change for me, and a feeling of creating is needed for me at this time in my life. I need drums and pounding waves of Ocean. Create and Destroy. Children seem to just sleep over grown up decisions........

We had our 10th Annual Family Reunion this weekend at a small hotel near Lake Arrowhead. It was 3 nights of drinking and eating, I had a lot of fun but come the 3rd day some family members start to annoy the fuck out of you, so I'm glad its just once a year. 2 more weeks till we drive up to San Francisco to see Rage Against The Machine, i am really looking forward to it.

So how the fuck was your weekend???

La verdad, nunca pense que fuera posible perdonarme por todo el daño que inconcientemente me eh ocasionado, por consecuencia me estuve ocasionado mas. Pero llego el punto en donde me di cuenta que no solo se trata de lo que yo siento. Me di cuenta que me la eh pasado siendo un egoista, y con todo el tiempo que eh desperdiciado en silencio me doy cuenta que nada esta bien.
Y no puedo seguir asi. No puedo quedarme callado, tengo cosas que redactar, tengo cosas que finalizar, tengo pensamientos que filtrar y otros que segregar. Aun no me siento capaz de muchas cosas, pero si me siento capaz de vivir un dia mas queriendo sobrepasar todo lo que hice mal. Un dia espero estar bien y conectado con todo mi alrededor, un dia espero tener el valor de confrontar esta fria realidad que me tiene atrapado dentro de mi cabeza. Siempre me senti agusto estar atrapado dentro de las carceles que empapan mis pensamientos. Pero recientemente me siento libre y feliz, en lo que cabe, algo que es extraño en mi, pero es algo que por fin esta con migo.

Apparently I have created bad blood with that one person that was really honest with me and all because I fell in Love with her, and then flaked out on her. All of that left aside, I really learned from her. Yet these are things I should have picked up along the way of LifeÂ…..