12 days till I go back home...
I got a new look, now I'm a blonde...I've got no pics cuz my camara was stolen...along with my credit cars and my awsome purse...
Oh yeah...and I think I'm single again....

I deleted Mexican Hangover, Fixation and Captured sets. They really didn't have any chance.
I left Please love me up, It has almost 500 votes so I think its the only one that actually has any chance but I'm also gonna take it down in about a month.

28 days till I go back home. I'm so excited, I have so many plans.
These are the things I've got waiting for me in Mexico.
1. I'm finally gonna open my clothing store and my restaurant.
2. A new apartment that I'm moving into in May, which I'm supper excited cuz that means I finally got a place of my own.
3.A new car, which I've seen pics of and is super cool.
4.An Iphone.
5. My super cool friends which I really appriciate 10 times more after being here.
6. My extremely handsome, sexy, sweet boyfriend.
7. My bed.
8. My music, for some strange reason my Iphone didn't work all the time I was here.
9. Lots and lots of smiles and happyness!!!!!!

I'm selling a ticket for the Metalway festiva in zaragoza this 12th of July.
Iron Maiden, Avantasia, Rose Tatto and Slayer are some of the bands.
I can't go cause of some problems that came up.
The ticket cost me 65 euros but I'll take 50.
I just don't wanna loose the money.


Estoy vendiendo un boleto para el Metalway festival en zaragoza este 12 de Julio.
Tocara Iron Maiden, Avantasia, Rose Tattoo, Slayer entre otro.
No voy a poder ir por causas de fuerza mayor.
El boleto me costo 65 euros pero con que me den 50 esta bien.
Nada mas no quiero perder todo ese dinero.

So things are looking up...
40 days till I go back home
I leave to viena for a week tomorrow...it's gonna be fun, specially with spain just winning de eurocup...
So I leave you with some randome pics of my life...
With my baby girl:







A long long time ago:






The last vive latino I went to...two years ago...yeah, I was pregnant:



Kramit:

Last year:





Naky!

I feel so lonely, I need to talk, about everything and nothing.
I feel everyone in my life knows me too much? Is that posible?
For the last few months every conversation I've had is so predictable...
Maybe it's the distance, I know things will change when I'm back home.
I have made some new friends and everything, I just don't feel we have much in common...
I guess I'm just home sick, it was so easy meeting new people back home.
Maybe I'm just not intresting anymore....
Does any of this make sense?

Anyways,
I was bored and missing my guy like crazy so I made a portrait of him (I know i'ts not very good ), and then took naked pics of me...
I thought I'd share with you, even though I know not much people read this.



Yeah, I know I've gained alot of weight...it sucks...

So I haven't updated in a while....
I still have 2 more months to go with out sex...
I really have no idea how I'm doing this...
Mmmmm...I finally finished school so congratulations to me,
I need to eat some tacos and gorditas de chicharron.
Soooo...mmmmm...here are some pics.
These are from a cruise I went on:
Rome:





Florencia:




Monaco:

Corcega:





And these are from a trip to Paris last week:

So I've been here for 4 months...that means 4 months with out sex...
Life with out sex sucks...

Fuck this place...I wanna go back home!
Don't get me wrong, it's a great place, and I'm sure most of you would love to live here...it's just not right for me...
I wanna go back home...
I miss him...

I can't control my feelings, I think I've never been able to, maybe it's time to learn. Maybe I should listen to what is said about me, maybe I'm not who I think I am.
Why can't I be happy, why do I always ruin what I have, why can't I learn to shut up when everything is going good. Why can't I control my actions with my mind, why do I always act with what I feel. Why can't I let people be.
A friend once told me, "When you, learn to take things slow, conform with what you have, and ignore reality, you will be happy." Why can't I do that?
I was happy 4 days ago, I don't know what's going on right now, I don't know what's gonna happen, and that just makes it hurt even more. I just wanna lock my self up and cry. I don't wanna think on how I ruined it, on how I coulnd't stay quiet, I need to learn not to speak.
I've never felt so lonely.
If I know what I need to do to keep things the way the are, i feel like the last thing I wanna do is stay quiet and conform. Maybe what brings me such unpleasent moments is really what makes me happy.
It's just never made me feel like this, a overwhealming pain, pain I don't know how to handle cuz I've never felt before.
I wanna hold on to the memories, I don't want time to pass, I don't want to grow up, I wanna stay in the past for ever.
I know exactly what I want, it's something I can't control.
Call, tell me what I want to hear.



By the way, I'm in spain...have been here for 3 weeks, don't really know anyone, so I'm having a pretty bad time.
5 more months to go....time goes slow when you want it to go fast.

Pics from my b-day party, I had a blast...






















I had so much fun...so in about 2 hours and 45 minutes I'll be 22...and I feel like shit...I'm seriously depressed...
HELP!