I start uni again on Monday, after 3 months off! urk!!! Seems quite surreal - getting back to study and all that. I've been job hunting down there so hopefully something will come off, shame half the shops have closed down!!
Maybe this year will be better....
Maybe this year will be better....
I have far too much to do in the next week! And it's all boring stuff, so I'm not addressing it quickly enough....so now I have even less time and just as much stuff!!
Bugger!
I'm currently making a proper roast dinner, which i dont do enough...and bed hunting! Alas the cheapest doubles are not meant for someone of my stature!
I also have my handicapped twin down today...and he wants more tea....so please excuse me!!
Bugger!
I'm currently making a proper roast dinner, which i dont do enough...and bed hunting! Alas the cheapest doubles are not meant for someone of my stature!
I also have my handicapped twin down today...and he wants more tea....so please excuse me!!
Jesus Lord! I've eaten so damn much this weekend....I swear there must be food in my lungs!
I is a boredy!! I've been up since 6am on my weekend for no reason - I'm toying with going to a tattooist's in Gravesend to have a chat with him about a few ideas...Could be a winner, I've already done everything else I had planned for today! D'oh! And his work does look great. I fancy something a bit unusual.
Another tea first!!
I seriously need to get back to the gym, this whole summer of dong nothing but office/computer work is turning me in to a sack of shite! Though I guess the walk from the car to the desk is technically exercise!
I'm fighting a few things in my head today, and recently really. I'm tired of being alone - not in a romantic sense, just in general. My family don't seem to realise how much they put upon me without taking who I am in to account - the fact I will do everything they need without any regard for myself. The job I just left as a temp I did for 4 years before uni, yet no-one there seems to know me either. Stupid things, like my leaving gift that was lost when I left originally. I worked for years across 3 departments and became senior in all of them - the collection they took bought a customised sheaffer pen that I requested....only they lost it! then never replaced it!! About 70quids worth!! That just kinda says "don't let the door hit you...." splendid!!
Last night I sent texts to 3 friends, just to hear a hello back really. One has asked me to help him move recently, which I accepted. Another wants me to sponsor another run for her big cat sanctuary, which I accepted. Another has been on the phone non stop when her other half decided to end it after 10 years ( then repented!), and I was there......Last night, not one bugger replied! Seriously! At some point I will learn! Unfortunately I have to learn to let go of any hope that there is anyone there who would give a shit if I wasn't!!
I don't like moaning on here, but I gotta do it somewhere!!!
P.S. This song is genius! But i am really not sure the video fits it!
Another tea first!!
I seriously need to get back to the gym, this whole summer of dong nothing but office/computer work is turning me in to a sack of shite! Though I guess the walk from the car to the desk is technically exercise!
I'm fighting a few things in my head today, and recently really. I'm tired of being alone - not in a romantic sense, just in general. My family don't seem to realise how much they put upon me without taking who I am in to account - the fact I will do everything they need without any regard for myself. The job I just left as a temp I did for 4 years before uni, yet no-one there seems to know me either. Stupid things, like my leaving gift that was lost when I left originally. I worked for years across 3 departments and became senior in all of them - the collection they took bought a customised sheaffer pen that I requested....only they lost it! then never replaced it!! About 70quids worth!! That just kinda says "don't let the door hit you...." splendid!!
Last night I sent texts to 3 friends, just to hear a hello back really. One has asked me to help him move recently, which I accepted. Another wants me to sponsor another run for her big cat sanctuary, which I accepted. Another has been on the phone non stop when her other half decided to end it after 10 years ( then repented!), and I was there......Last night, not one bugger replied! Seriously! At some point I will learn! Unfortunately I have to learn to let go of any hope that there is anyone there who would give a shit if I wasn't!!
I don't like moaning on here, but I gotta do it somewhere!!!
P.S. This song is genius! But i am really not sure the video fits it!
Hoorah! I have a new house sorted, and in record time! Barring any stupid goings on I shall be happily ensconced just off the high Street In Canterbury from September!! sweet! I have always lived outside of whatever town I've been local to and I'm really looking forward to being in the middle of it. Shame Canterbury isn't so interesting....but hey!
Found out a nearby town has a massive watersports scene going on so shall be heading back soon for some boat fun and jet skis!! I want to find a team/club to join, something to push me and meet some more peoples. Life seems horrendously insular at the minute - I work, I go home to eat...I try to sleep.....and repeat!! I miss my early twenties!! And judging by the train wreck that was my life that is a bold statement!
This song is stuck in my head - and for once it's a good thing!!...
I made the mistake of downloading guitar hero to my ipod!! IT's fucking amazing!! who knew tapping was so much fun!! I'm debating purchasing monkey island on there too...That game took many years of my teenage life - do I need that again!?!
Who's up to interesting things?? Anyone???....Is anyone even there???.......
Found out a nearby town has a massive watersports scene going on so shall be heading back soon for some boat fun and jet skis!! I want to find a team/club to join, something to push me and meet some more peoples. Life seems horrendously insular at the minute - I work, I go home to eat...I try to sleep.....and repeat!! I miss my early twenties!! And judging by the train wreck that was my life that is a bold statement!
This song is stuck in my head - and for once it's a good thing!!...
I made the mistake of downloading guitar hero to my ipod!! IT's fucking amazing!! who knew tapping was so much fun!! I'm debating purchasing monkey island on there too...That game took many years of my teenage life - do I need that again!?!
Who's up to interesting things?? Anyone???....Is anyone even there???.......
That boy Bolt can bloody run!! hehe!
I'm hiding from househunting again! I 'll do some more in a minute, I have so many emails and phone messages I can't keep up - plus so many people offering completely ridiculous crap in completely the wrong area! One offered me a room in a totally different town!! That's just lazy!!
Gonna have me some grub first, a nice paella type affair - homemade of course!
Congrats for reading this supremely boring update - say hello! it gets boring here if no-one talks!
I'm hiding from househunting again! I 'll do some more in a minute, I have so many emails and phone messages I can't keep up - plus so many people offering completely ridiculous crap in completely the wrong area! One offered me a room in a totally different town!! That's just lazy!!
Gonna have me some grub first, a nice paella type affair - homemade of course!
Congrats for reading this supremely boring update - say hello! it gets boring here if no-one talks!
yarrrr!
I'm bored!
I haven't done half the things I should;ve this evening!! hehe! fuck it!
Got a few house viewings to do in the next few days, going to see my bro tomorrow too which is always fun...He is a top lad! He's been doing very well recently, largely free of seizures and gets to play in the garden all day long....can't be bad!!!
Work bored my pants clean off today, as ever - helping my older brother with his business seemed a good idea at the time....but FFFFUUUUUCCCCKCKKKKKK is it dull!! I never got these card games as a kid, so spending my adult days sorting them out really doesn't do it for me!!
Aside from this I did a 7k run after work, had a nice salad for dinner and am now annoying randy! Damn single life!
Toodles!
I'm bored!
I haven't done half the things I should;ve this evening!! hehe! fuck it!
Got a few house viewings to do in the next few days, going to see my bro tomorrow too which is always fun...He is a top lad! He's been doing very well recently, largely free of seizures and gets to play in the garden all day long....can't be bad!!!
Work bored my pants clean off today, as ever - helping my older brother with his business seemed a good idea at the time....but FFFFUUUUUCCCCKCKKKKKK is it dull!! I never got these card games as a kid, so spending my adult days sorting them out really doesn't do it for me!!
Aside from this I did a 7k run after work, had a nice salad for dinner and am now annoying randy! Damn single life!
Toodles!
Who likes watching spurs stuff Liverpool!?.....I DO!!! hehe! Who cares if they should've ad two more penalties!!
Anyone else see the Bolt 100m final??....awesome!
Another boring day at work followed by an evening house searching and typing away to myself on here, why I bother - I don't actually know.
Gotta do something I guess.
Anyone else see the Bolt 100m final??....awesome!
Another boring day at work followed by an evening house searching and typing away to myself on here, why I bother - I don't actually know.
Gotta do something I guess.
God damn it...I hate house hunting!!! Especially as a student, such a limited budget and so many shitholes that landlords are trying to fob off as habitable!!
Days like this make me miss being in work full time and having a decent income behind me!!
I'm having a slightly lazy weekend - Caught up with a friend in Canterbury yesterday and had a mooch about - and helped her build her rabbit hutch! Which she is a little too excited about! She and I need to solve our relationship properly, the way things are is no good for anyone. I just wih I knew the best way to go about it, I don;t want what she does - now and in the future, I don't think she realises sometimes. I feel more and more like I am being unfair.
Footy season is back which is coolio, I enjoy my match of the day! I didnt realise but I also get ESPN for no extra charge so I still get some matches - and the UFC more importantly!! I like me some violence!
I've spent an extraordinary number of hours playing "I-copter" on my ipod touch - the most fantastic present I ever got myself! seriously, the things is incredible!
The rest of today is going to be continuing my house hunt, having a run and cooking some dinner. Then probably moping about and feeling shit about things! Like not having a lady friend proper to do some of these things with. Then I'll feel guilty for thinking that as it involves hurting someone else who I care for very deeply.
ooooh look at me pissing my pants!
for now I shall go, I will leave you with this photo of a lion pretending to be clint Eastwood - I chuckled when i saw it on the camera!
bye for now
Days like this make me miss being in work full time and having a decent income behind me!!
I'm having a slightly lazy weekend - Caught up with a friend in Canterbury yesterday and had a mooch about - and helped her build her rabbit hutch! Which she is a little too excited about! She and I need to solve our relationship properly, the way things are is no good for anyone. I just wih I knew the best way to go about it, I don;t want what she does - now and in the future, I don't think she realises sometimes. I feel more and more like I am being unfair.
Footy season is back which is coolio, I enjoy my match of the day! I didnt realise but I also get ESPN for no extra charge so I still get some matches - and the UFC more importantly!! I like me some violence!
I've spent an extraordinary number of hours playing "I-copter" on my ipod touch - the most fantastic present I ever got myself! seriously, the things is incredible!
The rest of today is going to be continuing my house hunt, having a run and cooking some dinner. Then probably moping about and feeling shit about things! Like not having a lady friend proper to do some of these things with. Then I'll feel guilty for thinking that as it involves hurting someone else who I care for very deeply.
ooooh look at me pissing my pants!
for now I shall go, I will leave you with this photo of a lion pretending to be clint Eastwood - I chuckled when i saw it on the camera!
bye for now
I was looking through some old photos this evening and had forgotten completely about some I took earlier this year. A friend of mine works at a big cat sanctuary and let me in for free on her birthday...my fav of the day....
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