After recieving a email invite from Doxie and a phone call from Emily_M I realized "Boy, I've been sucking on my Suicide Girls responsabilities." I haven't checked in for a while and I noticed I've missed some birthdays, gatherings, an engagement, and Real "purdy" ladies. I wish I could have a big update but I don't. I was dating someone for a while, have been talking to a few friends/investors about starting my own place (but that is a far off goal), and just generally hanging out. Ho Hum, so is my tame life.
But mainly I wanted to THANK EVERYONE!! for the Birthday wishes and just general inquiries I have recieved!! This site has some really cool people that despite my absence and non-involvement you all still find time to say nice things! It's really cool of everyone. So now off to the groups page.
Later!

So it's been a while since I updated and well to be honest not much has changed. I have decided to put dating on hold (seeing that the dates I have been on lately have been "eh") and start working on my "craft" I guess. I have a friend that is helping start a "buisness" web site promoting my children, debutante, family, and PR photography. I don't have a whole lot of work that I think are portfolio worthy (at least to me)but I have some things planned for the month that will hopefully build on it. Plus it's better to have a start then to never start at all. After that site is built I will make a site that caters to my music /concert and art photography. I have plenty of concerts but I need to work on the art. A long time ago I had started doing a "Doll" project but then just stopped when other things took priority. So now I'm trying to find some inspirtion and some ideas have been flowing. Now I just need to do it! I have a plan and am motivated let's see if I can keep it going. Deb season has started up and I've only shot 5 out of 35 girls but so far I've only had good responses from the clients. Now these photos aren't exactly what I want to do but occasionally I get a good one and, hey if anything, the good response is helping my motivation to do more! So that's it for now. I shot Coldplay and Fiona but I wasn't too wowed with my shots but if you're interested go to DallasMusicGuide and I think there is a link on the front page. Well that's it, I hope all of you are doing well!

I'm on a journal hiatus. At least until I have something interesting to say.

I feel like ass! Damn Migraine! Just looking at the screen is bothering me ...must go.

I wish I had a million dollars.

-Drunken Entry-
So I went out with the guys tonight because our group has had som father health issues and we just needed to bond without being all sentimental. Of course being the only single guy the rest of them thought it would be fun to analyze me! "Why don't you have a girlfriend?" type shit! So I don't know what to say...I'm picky! Shouldn't I be? I mean I'm at the age the next girl I meet could be "wife" material. Or not. They think I need to just ...get laid. Eh. Yes I agree but I'm not the type of guy that just does that. Sometimes I wish I could be but I'm not. So nothing got solved and I made the mistake of contacting the last girl I really liked but she went back to the ex. She had the gaul to write back "I knew you couldn't stay away from me" amnd then adding how she's going to NY w her boyfriend and it "should be fun". Damnit Janit! I;m sick of this BS. Why can't it be simple? Oh and Lawyer girl. we tralk but I don't think she gets the "creative type" personality I have. We'll see, I'm not condeming it yet. I'm tired and yes drunk and I'm sure my spelling sucks. Time for bed.

I went on a date with "lawyer girl". She's very different from my ex. But looking back I really don't think I have a "type". The only think they all have in common is that they are shorter than me. Besides that they are always very different. It went well (I think, I'll know better after I call her tonight) and she's cool. I have to admit that her making 3 times as much $ as I do does intimidate me. Not because it makes me feel like less of a man but just that I wonder if women are turned off by a man that is content on making little $ in his career. I always said I would shoot myself before working in a cubicle! Oh I do remember what most of the girls that I date have in common! They are usually "just" getting out of a relationship making me the "rebound boy". Not this time!
That's all.

Things are better. Talking to a new girl. Hopefully that will go better than my past dating trials. But 1 problem. She's allergic to cats and I'm not going to kill mine off. Is anyone here allergic to cats yet have dated someone with one? If so were there any drugs or things that I could do to reduce irritation. I'm just thinking fo future needs. I have friends that are allergic too and I hate that they fear coming over because of a cat allergy.
But like I said...things are looking up but I did find out today that a the sales girl I work with makes $14k more than I do. Shouldn't the photographer be making more money since without me there would be almost nothing to sell. Fucking photography world. It's not like I can threaten quiting because good paying photography jobs are not commom. Sometimes being in a creative field can suck wen it comes to money!
Did I mention a new girl? I not getting too excited but the possibility is there.

Today I spent $14 on a little bit of hope. Long story too pitiful to tell. But no matter how...alone I have felt lately I am still holding onto the idea that something will come along or possibly back into my life. $14 isn't too much to spend on that is it?
Ah, crap! Jeff Buckly's "Hallelujah" is playing on the TV. Can I feel any more down?
So that's it for now I hope this will be the last pathetic entry for a while so depending on how things go I might stay away from updating until I only have Happy Shiny stories to tell.
Oh, I took my niece to Build A Bear yesterday. That was very cool. When you feel down a Niece is a wonderful thing to have!
Here's looking forward to a better year!

Happy Holidays and all that!
I'l update later after a short period of rest...