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Quick update on the things floating around in my head
Took my dog to the vet as she had an abnormal amount of crud forming around her eyes, much more than usual, and her eyes were a little red and puffy.
turns out one of her tear ducts is swollen shut and her right eye is swollen, the doc figured this out by putting some stuff in her eyes that drains out the nose, it didn't drain on the right side. He gave us some salve to put on her eyelid and some pills to give her, so that should take care of all of that.
he listened to her heart and said it was really healthy especially for a dog her age, she is going on 12. Unfortunately she has cataracts, but they aren't effecting her eyesight which is a plus. It does have me a bit worried that they might impair her eyesight some day, because if she is healthy like they say then she will be around for a few years yet. It is awesome that Shady will be around to hang out with me, but I cannot stand the idea of her not being able to see, I just think that could be a really bad thing for a dog, but if she is otherwise healthy than she will still be living a good life as far as I can tell, just kind of sits there in the back of my head.
I guess I am just at an age where I can appreciate the aging process of my pet. I have had two dogs in my life. I got Mutzie when I was 2 and he was around until I was in High School a good 14 years, but then we had to put him down. I went about a year and a half without a dog and then got Shady for christmas my senior year and she has been around since then. I can only hope that throughout my life, as I always will have dogs, that they will be as good as Mutzie was and Shady is.
As for me I am thinking about my upcoming surgery on the 19th of June to have the rod taken out of my leg. I will be off work for about 6 weeks or so and then on light duty for another 6 weeks or so. It will be nice to have a little vacation from work even if I can't do much as I will be on crutches. I will be able to catch up with my reading and video games, oh yes I will finally have time to finish Oblivion, so that's nice.
I get to go back to dayshift next week with Tuesday Wednesday off, shitty days off, but hell I will be living like a normal person for once so that's nice.
I think I am going to go see Prince Caspian with the folks tomorrow night. I like watching movies like that with the folks, well mom mostly as you can never tell if my dad likes a movie or not. It is nice to re-live favorite things from my childhood with the people who provided a childhood for me.
The other thing that is flying around in my head is the firm realization that I have lived my life fearing being the best person I could be and what would come with a life like that. What I mean is I have always kind of been afraid of success so I hold myself back, especially in school where I learned early on the amount of effort I had to put forth to get the grades I wanted (unless I really liked the class) and that is something I wish I would have pushed myself with. I have been afraid of a successful lovelife so I usually fail to ask the girls I really like to spend time with me, and wait for things to happen for me. I have also been afraid of people having to truly deal with me and what I am in a serious manner and that is why I was always overweight, because then most rejection could be played off as being a result of that. There are a lot of these weird little fears that float around in my head that I have always hoped to take care of.
Well back in February I decided I should finally bite the bullet and lose weight, so I went online and got the nutrisystem food sent to me, and since I started in the middle of Feb, I have lost about 45 pounds, and I have actually learned more about food and eating habits and the ways to help myself be healthy, and I couldn't be happier with the results. I was embarassed to talk about it at first when people would bring up that they noticed I was losing weight, and I believe that was one of my fears flitting about. Well not anymore if anyone asks I tell them, who gives a shit, why should I be embarssed by the fact that I decided I needed a little help and went out and got that help.
When I finally came to that realization I decided I finally knew how to deal with my fears, and that was by dealing with them one at a time. I know it seems like a normal concept, but when you have gone through the majority of your life pointing out to yourself what was wrong with you and what you needed to change, well you want to fix it all and move on. i finally realized that I can't fix everything at once and that I need to just go one thing at a time, and I am glad I realized that because then I can move forward with some of these other things.
So yeah those are the things floating about in my head, some heavy stuff, some light stuff, but stuff that has kept the hamster in my head spinning around in his wheel 24/7 for the last week or so. All in all I am doing pretty good, and have been happy for the most part as well which is always a nice feeling. SO yeah that's me at the present moment.
Oh and Ijust remembered that I read an article about new senior citizen proms that have been going around in America for the last couple years. Apparently the first one came about because a school teacher decided with some students that they would like to give the senior citizens a prom as most of them missed out on that because of wars or other reasons. So now these various high schoolers take time out of their lives to get dressed up with some old timers and spend a night dancing and talking, and just being good kids. I gotta tell you, stuff like that can really bring a smile to my face when their is all this other shit going around in the world, and to much going on within our own country, it is nice to read about some people that actually care about others and the sacrifices they have had to make in their life.
How you doin?
Took my dog to the vet as she had an abnormal amount of crud forming around her eyes, much more than usual, and her eyes were a little red and puffy.
turns out one of her tear ducts is swollen shut and her right eye is swollen, the doc figured this out by putting some stuff in her eyes that drains out the nose, it didn't drain on the right side. He gave us some salve to put on her eyelid and some pills to give her, so that should take care of all of that.
he listened to her heart and said it was really healthy especially for a dog her age, she is going on 12. Unfortunately she has cataracts, but they aren't effecting her eyesight which is a plus. It does have me a bit worried that they might impair her eyesight some day, because if she is healthy like they say then she will be around for a few years yet. It is awesome that Shady will be around to hang out with me, but I cannot stand the idea of her not being able to see, I just think that could be a really bad thing for a dog, but if she is otherwise healthy than she will still be living a good life as far as I can tell, just kind of sits there in the back of my head.
I guess I am just at an age where I can appreciate the aging process of my pet. I have had two dogs in my life. I got Mutzie when I was 2 and he was around until I was in High School a good 14 years, but then we had to put him down. I went about a year and a half without a dog and then got Shady for christmas my senior year and she has been around since then. I can only hope that throughout my life, as I always will have dogs, that they will be as good as Mutzie was and Shady is.
As for me I am thinking about my upcoming surgery on the 19th of June to have the rod taken out of my leg. I will be off work for about 6 weeks or so and then on light duty for another 6 weeks or so. It will be nice to have a little vacation from work even if I can't do much as I will be on crutches. I will be able to catch up with my reading and video games, oh yes I will finally have time to finish Oblivion, so that's nice.
I get to go back to dayshift next week with Tuesday Wednesday off, shitty days off, but hell I will be living like a normal person for once so that's nice.
I think I am going to go see Prince Caspian with the folks tomorrow night. I like watching movies like that with the folks, well mom mostly as you can never tell if my dad likes a movie or not. It is nice to re-live favorite things from my childhood with the people who provided a childhood for me.
The other thing that is flying around in my head is the firm realization that I have lived my life fearing being the best person I could be and what would come with a life like that. What I mean is I have always kind of been afraid of success so I hold myself back, especially in school where I learned early on the amount of effort I had to put forth to get the grades I wanted (unless I really liked the class) and that is something I wish I would have pushed myself with. I have been afraid of a successful lovelife so I usually fail to ask the girls I really like to spend time with me, and wait for things to happen for me. I have also been afraid of people having to truly deal with me and what I am in a serious manner and that is why I was always overweight, because then most rejection could be played off as being a result of that. There are a lot of these weird little fears that float around in my head that I have always hoped to take care of.
Well back in February I decided I should finally bite the bullet and lose weight, so I went online and got the nutrisystem food sent to me, and since I started in the middle of Feb, I have lost about 45 pounds, and I have actually learned more about food and eating habits and the ways to help myself be healthy, and I couldn't be happier with the results. I was embarassed to talk about it at first when people would bring up that they noticed I was losing weight, and I believe that was one of my fears flitting about. Well not anymore if anyone asks I tell them, who gives a shit, why should I be embarssed by the fact that I decided I needed a little help and went out and got that help.
When I finally came to that realization I decided I finally knew how to deal with my fears, and that was by dealing with them one at a time. I know it seems like a normal concept, but when you have gone through the majority of your life pointing out to yourself what was wrong with you and what you needed to change, well you want to fix it all and move on. i finally realized that I can't fix everything at once and that I need to just go one thing at a time, and I am glad I realized that because then I can move forward with some of these other things.
So yeah those are the things floating about in my head, some heavy stuff, some light stuff, but stuff that has kept the hamster in my head spinning around in his wheel 24/7 for the last week or so. All in all I am doing pretty good, and have been happy for the most part as well which is always a nice feeling. SO yeah that's me at the present moment.
Oh and Ijust remembered that I read an article about new senior citizen proms that have been going around in America for the last couple years. Apparently the first one came about because a school teacher decided with some students that they would like to give the senior citizens a prom as most of them missed out on that because of wars or other reasons. So now these various high schoolers take time out of their lives to get dressed up with some old timers and spend a night dancing and talking, and just being good kids. I gotta tell you, stuff like that can really bring a smile to my face when their is all this other shit going around in the world, and to much going on within our own country, it is nice to read about some people that actually care about others and the sacrifices they have had to make in their life.
How you doin?
You rock! 
