life has been ridiculous lately. i finally gathered the balls to say "fuck it" throw it all to the wind and see where everything lands. so far it has been a mix of good and bad but the good is outweighing the bad. living in allston (a village of boston) is amazing. i love it here. with an average age of 29 and a super alternative friendly population this place is great. their is tons of good food. my relationship is good. i fuck it up a lot but chantel is super understanding. we have are moments. my anxiety 'causes us a lot of stress which i feel like shit about. luckily i am getting it together as we get settled in. i up and quit my job. i couldn't pretend to be happy there anymore. luckily after only a week of searching i have another job that even pays about a quarter more an hour. back to the anxiety, that had been an issue. luckily like i said it's cooling off.

i might be on here again more now. although i say that a lot.