Car made it into the shop.

It's only going to cost 340 dollars.

Life is getting better.

word.

I am now the proud owner of a diploma.



It feels so great. And I couldn't have done it without some people I won't mention. You know who you are.

Finally...SOMETHING from my past can come to a close.

Now...nothing can stop me.

Where do we go from here?

I came in 5th at the pool tournament tonight. And I lost to an asshole. I so wanted to beat him. He was intimidated by me, so I had an advantage. he kept fucking up his shots...but I couldn't pick up his slack for some reason. My skill might be fading, who knows. Either way, I won my money back by making it into the top 6.

Boys are stupid. That's why I steer clear.

Work was actually fun yesterday. It dumfounded me. The money didn't matter. The environment rocked.

Still no sex. Fancy that. At this point, it doesn't really matter. It's for the best I think. The forces just aren't aligned... and I'm not even in the mood anymore. I'm out of my element anyways. I just don't care anymore. And if I do, I won't be mentioning it. tee hee

Spades is addicting!!!!!!!!!

Grant will be home in two weeks. Woooo.

He will probably be in a not so good mood, since his mother (my second mom) was diagnosed with cancer a few days ago. I think it's best I move out...and let him do his own thing right now, because he's under a lot of stress. Our friendship will be better if we don't live together also. We mutually agreed on that.

That's all for now.

Man as if it couldn't get worse...

right when I give up on sexually frustrates me guy #1

Sexually frustrates me guy #2 pulls the same shit.

Basically I had to do a favor for my mother...and he gave me an ultimatim. Stay and get it on... or go do my mom the favor (even if I could be back in 20 minutes), and he'll "call me tomorrow."

God damn it.

I hate males.

Correction: Apparently shrooming was more important. That's fine. Automatically excluded from my short list of guys I would touch with a ten foot pole. Simple. Done.

Man, sometimes I'm a real fuck-up. I know this.

But I see absaloutely no point in dwelling. From now on, I can only further myself, to prove I am better than what I've put on the table.

Time will tell. It always does.

I guess no matter how much you think you've grown up...sometimes you succumb to your childish ways. Part of this anger distribution is in part of my wonderul childhood.

I've made my apologies. I can only assume the people that said they accept it, are being honest with me. At this point, it doesn't make a difference. I did the only thing I could do to make ammends...and I will let everything else ride out on it's own time.

To those of you who think I'm such a wonderful person... think again. I have a really ugly nasty angry side, that I don't like to admit having. And when this side comes out, it scares the crap out of me. If you still wish to befriend me further, please do so with caution.

So many things on the way. You will all be amazed.

Oh boy. I'm so excited for the rest of this year. It's going to be the best!

Those I care about will be compensated in a way much greater than you're comprehnsion.

man. i wish people would just shut the fuck up. including me.

"I can't let it bother me...it takes my pain away..."

hahaha. I've been on this site for a year and a half, two years or so....and they screwed up my re-activation membership, so I'm stuck in the SG newbies group. hahaha. I can't leave the group until 60 days. If they only knew.

Sadly...clothes are a cure for most female problems.

I want to take new pics. Watcha think?

sex is good. i don't get much of it. i wonder why that is.

P.S. I figured it out! I have standards! and I am incapable of settling. Go me!