Happy St. Patricks Day!! Last year my record for irish car bombs was 7, and this year I'm going to beat it!!!!! Wish me luck! Please be safe.

P.S. I posted tons more new pictures in my pic section. Have fun!

There's a girl. A very stupid girl. She thinks I want to "steal" her boyfriend away. Uhmm....right. I'm not a fucking home-wrecker, nor do I want him. I had a chance with him a year and a half ago, and politely declined. Jesus. This girl really needs to get donkey punched. And to put the icing on the big fat ugly poop-filled cake, she asked me to be apart of a threesome with her and her boyfriend, and I declined and she got really offended. Stupid fucking morons.

*Hostile*

Still no job. I've been looking. It's not working out as great as I had hoped. My bills are due, and I can't pay them. Shitty shitty.

H.I.M. & NOFX are coming to Arizona. I am soooo excited!!!

P.S. When I die I want to be cremated and have my ashes put into an etcha sketch!

The Yeah Yeah Yeah's show was incredible. I haven't had that much fun at a live show since seeing Queens Of The Stone Age @ the hard rock live in Orlando Florida (Yes I will travel if I see fit). \m/

Tomorrow is Hot Pink @ club boom near downtown Phoenix. Jennifer, Beth, Vanessa and myself are driving up. Want to go? 80's electro-clash night with lots of hot people dancing. It's 5 dollars to get in. Bar with ID. If under 21, you can go in after 1am. The shindig ends at 3am. I think we are getting there early though to go to Fat Cat (some bar) to drink, and then probably going to stroll Mill Ave. If you WANT to hang OUT before, or DURING Hot Pink (with us sexy minx's), please get in contact with me. Thanks.

More info on hot pink is at: www.electrolush.net

"Fuck guys tonight! I just wanna dance!" - Dane Cook (The best damn comedian around)

I hope everyone doesn't get mad, but I have a tan now. I have been going to the booth and going pool-side as well with Jennifer, and that milky white skin I have will be gone for summer. I'm not going to be super dark, but definately don't want to blind people at outdoor shows this summer. So yeah

I find extremley odd that when someone has a crush on you, someone you are even remotley (and obviously mutually) interested in....you become oblivious...and the communication factor dies. And later down the line, you end up somehow talking about it, and one person says: "Hey I really liked you." and then you say..."Hey I really liked you too." But by then, things have changed in both of your lives. Your priorities have become different, and your interest in "romance" has been altered by some force or other human being. I find it extremley aggitating that boys tell me about a crush they had on me months later, instead of just walking up and saying, "Hey I like you." Self-confidence is one of my huggest turn on's and I wish more guys posessed that characteristic, because it would just make my life easier. Plus, I would get more dates. I always make myself look unavailable, so I'm sure that is a huge factor that comes into play. Either way, two of my guy friends expressed their post interest in me. One got a little detailed about a time we took our friend to the ER and we had this really in-depth conversation about physics, relationships and such and he said he thought to himself, "Damn I really want to kiss this girl right now." WHY didn't you, you bastard? I practically live for moments like that.

Either way, my current "love interest" is shot to shit, and I am back on the market (and for the record: NOT LOOKING). I let whatever/whoever find me when the time feels right. Although, now that the person that expressed their previous interest in me, is unattinable, I am becoming slightly motivated to grasp something I can't have. After all, isn't that what fuels us humans the most when it comes to attraction? You always want what you can't have. Or at least thats the rumour.

Anyways....I have to pull an all nighter, unforunately. I have to go get my license re-instated in the morning...and then go to the DMV and get a new one. Then go to the court at 1pm and show them my new ID so that the charges will be dropped. Although I have to admit...I feel a little sexy that I've been "wanted" (a warrant) for a total of 24 hours. I've been rebelious, but the fact that I've had no control over this makes it a little more intriguing than sneeking out and having wild great sex with Doug when I was 15. Yeah...over-share, I know.

Things seem to be getting better which I am greatful for. I count my blessings everyday and I think that's what gets me through it all. The way I acted in California was totally out of character, and I'm dissapointed that Erik had to see a side of me that isn't really me. They say a first impression is a lasting impression. Oh well. Shit happens. You live and you learn. And luckily, I am smart enough to learn.

On that note...I am going to finish this up before this piece of shit douche-bag computer dies.

Night.

I will upload the new pics soon. Things have been getting slightly better. I finally got my paycheck, and payed my rent to Evenlyn. She was really understanding was expressed her appreciation for the repsonsibility I took about the sink (even though I didn't break it). I also offered to do work around the complex, since Dace is lazy, and she said if I did she would shave some money off my rent which would be uber awesome. I also got a job at the classiest strip club in Tucson (TEns showclub) as a cocktail waitress. And uhmm.....that's about it. I will update later when I have more time, and I'm not sitting in a coffee house in front of other people.

P.S. Paige (Suicidegirl) is moving to ARizona and found me on myspace. She emailed me and wants to hang out and I'm super excited because she is a doll. SG's unite. Word.

P.S.S. Migraines suck. And so do Marlboro lights. Ewwwwy

P.S.S.S. Sporks rule. (Take it as you will you sick pervert)

[Recent:]

No progress with the job situation. Still no sink in my bathroom. I was supposed to have my new one installed tomorrow by some guy (who used to do it professionally), but it looks as if that isn't going to happen because yet again I've been screwed over by a cock-wad piece of shit excuse for a human being.

I'm still missing my better half. We're miles apart and it's the hardest thing next to the physical pain I had to endure on my "vacation" to California. Dreaming about him hurts so much. I am in love with him and have nothing to show for it.

[Shows:]

The Yeah Yeah Yeah's - March 9th @ Club Congress.

[Random Thoughts:]

I am the opitome of Murphy's Law right now. Does it get any worse than this?

Lil' John still sucks my non-existant cock. muwahaha.

My writer's block is due to the lack of nicotine in my body. I would have money right now but my douche-bag "boss" still hasn't sent my paycheck.


[New Pictures: Jennifer and I took a really awesome photo-set and hopefully they will be uploaded today]

Uhmm...I'm at a loss for a witty prose. Perhaps I should back away now.

Rawr!

Well I'm suprised to have gotten so many comments for my first SG entry. I thank everyone for supporting and patronizing me.

My cervix is a little less piercing. My rent is still not paid.

Whatever shall I do?

Oh yeah. Raise your hand if you want to see Lil' John take a shit in that dumb gauntlet he carries around?

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[edit: My old sink is in the dumpster. Cara and I bought a new one at Lowe's. Between the sink, the base, the faucet, the hoses, and the caulking (hahaha beavis she said caulk)...the grand total came out to about 85 dollars. Not too bad if I say so myself.]

What did the five fingers say to the face? SLAP! "I'm Rick James, bitch!" (Thanks Rando)

I didn't get approved to be an SG, but I did however manage to snag a free 6 month membership, so here I am! Yeeeee Hawwww. Show me the love. Cause I fucking need it.

P.S. I lost my job....some girl sat on my porcelain sink and it broke off the wall and shattered, and I have to go get surgery. If this month gets any worse, I think I may just paint the town red.