So my ex just called me last night... after we had a nice little talk last week about what we'd been up to. She basically gets on the phone and says "I wanted to tell you last time we talked, but I started seeing someone else."



so now I'm all severely depressed and mopey. Plus, I haven't heard back from a couple of jobs, and the job I thought I had hasn't called me in a while, and money is getting tight, and we've got to move out of this apartment in a couple of weeks so people are freaking out about that.... it's just a lot to handle right now, even without this wonderful little newsflash from her.

2 months... it's been 2 months since we ended our 3 1/2 year relationship and she's already on to someone new. I feel cheap and replaceable. And I feel foolish for loving her so much, and agonizing about this so much over the past 2 months while she's apparently been completely fine with it all... so much so that she can go out and find someone to take my place. I just started getting used to the idea of her not being with me... now I have to get used to the idea of her being with someone else.

I told her I can no longer be friends with her. And that I'd probably never talk to her again after last night.

I just want a hug... and someone to tell me everything will be alright.

So, I've now solved the majority of my problems in LA.

Car?... check.

(ok, not my actual car, but it's the exact same model... only mine's tan... and a '92, not a crappy '90)

Job?.... check.
(ok, I don't have a picture for this one)
I'm now a music teacher over at Bob's Rock School in Burbank. It's not full time, but it's a start anyway. Plus the guy is totally chill, and he said he'd be alright with me getting another teaching gig that pays more and keeping on as a part time employee. I guess their other teacher up and left on them just this morning, so when they checked their message machine and heard the message I left there earlier today, they decided it was fate and hired me on the spot. I've already taught 2 lessons over there!
It doesn't pay as well as I'd hoped for, but I under stand, as this school is targeting lower income students who have been cut out of music in the normal school systems - so they make the classes as affordable as possible which means less money to pay me. Although I'm totally fine with a pay cut if it means some poor kid gets to learn an instrument when they otherwise wouldn't.
So, I'm waiting to hear from a few other schools in the area about more teaching jobs that pay better. I'm certain I can get a job that pays at least $35 to $40 an hour. Which would be awesome, because then I could still have some time off in the day to work on my own music!

Anyway... LA is rad. I'm getting used to things. I'm getting settled. And with the aid of my TomTom, I'm exploring more things up here without fear of getting lost and stuck in some hellish part of the landscape.

So yay for me.

How are you?

Back in LA!

So I sent out over 150 emails to music post production facilities in LA yesterday looking for work. So far, all the responses have been mostly negative, but there have been a few people who've offered to meet with me when I get down to LA. Well, that's about 10 responses from the whole lot of them.... I'm hoping something will turn up.

Other than that, I just shipped the first 13 of my boxes down to LA. It was mostly done as media mail because they're all books and sheet music. I love media mail... it ships for $.50 a pound!... wait a minute.

My final total was about $160... so at $.50 a pound - that means I just shipped like 300lbs of books.... damn. And that's not all of them. I've still got about 2 or 3 more boxes.

Whew... I never realize how much crap I have until I try and move somewhere.

Holy crap I'm tired.

I've decided that I need to get in shape before I move back to LA. When I moved up here to go back to school I was about 220, now I'm about 240... and I wasn't all that in shape before I moved up here. Sooooooooo... yeah.

I started this diet/exercise program - I torrented a copy of that Power 90 bootcamp program and I'm on day 4 of it so far. The dieting is going so-so. It's really hard to stick to a diet when you live with family... family who cooks food... totally unhealthy food.... who have no idea that steak really isn't that good for you. STEAK.
Also, I'm pretty lazy, so this exercise program they have you do is crazy for me. My body doesn't quite know what to make of it yet. I'm tired and sore all over, but the more I do it, the better I feel about it - so I'll keep it up. Besides, without school or a job, it's not like I really do anything around here. Except write new music and such.

Yeah, so I spent the first 4 hours of my day watching The Cleveland Show on Hulu, as well as American Dad. I never watch them on cable, so I try to catch up every once and a while... but that means I'm always 5 or so episodes deep by the time I've exhausted Hulu.

Other than that, I've been spending an incredible amount of time playing Assassins Creed 2, which is awesome. Much better than the first one, by far. It's not as predictable in it's structure. The first one made it a point that you had to do one of 3 types of missions to gather information on a target before killing them. Now there are different information gathering missions for each target, so it doesn't get bogged down with repetition. Also, there are way more ways to use the hidden blade in this one, which is really the only reason to play the game.

Also.. watch Torchwood. It's pretty good.



oh, and for anyone who's interested, I put up a shitty Wix website / online portfolio piece of shit... you can check it out in all of it's crapulance at:

http://www.scott-fitzpatrick.co.cc

3 days post new years / break up wif girlfriend...

and I'm doing alright.

I've been taking the extra free time now not devoted to hanging out with her and writing a bunch of new songs. I've got 2 almost completely skeletoned, and 3 or 4 in progress. Also, I've been recording some new tracks of our old stuff for our demo CD. I definitely want to hit the ground running in LA, so I've been scoping out a few record labels to start submitting our demo to, as well as beg for a job from.

So... that's about it really.
Hope everyone's new years went alright!

So.... yeah

I'm done with school, and I'm moving to Los Angeles at the end of January. But at a very high price. I've recently had to break up with the one girl I've really ever fallen in love with. It was a mutual thing. She needs to focus on her career and be independent for a while (she's never lived outside of mom and dad's before), as well as grow up a little bit. I also need to focus on my career and where my life is heading, but there's nothing for a music major to do in Alaska except teach, which I don't want to do.

So, boo for breaking up.

Yay for potential new jobs and new adventures in a new (sort of) city.

But, it will take some getting used to.

one more week of school... then I graduate.

Damn I need to get in shape...

it pisses me off, it seems every sport that I want to try doesn't work with my schedule. I went out to try fencing - the beginners classes all conflict with my evening courses. The Boxing gym? Only open from 2 to 9... pretty much EXACTLY the hours that I'm at work. I could possibly get there before 9, but that's stretching it....

I dunno. It's also like $100 a month to join because it includes instruction... although it could be awesome..


Arr... I need more money. I'm so ready to be done with school it's redonculous. I just got a notice that they still need to verify my upper division course work before I can be signed off to graduate... and because I was a lazy shit and missed the paperwork deadline, I'm now going to officially graduate in August 2010, although I'll be done with all my coursework around the second week of December... so I'll be waiting about 8 months for my stupid piece of paper. The bureaucratic system at this university is a joke.


I'm also getting a little worried about my composition for the Guitar Ensemble here. I finished it, but people keep not showing up for rehearsals... so there's never enough guitars to sound full, and people aren't practicing so it still sounds like crap. I'm just worried that we're not going to pull this together in time to make it awesome for the winter concert and people are going to judge my work based on a shitty performance.

Ah well... whatever. It's not like it matters, nobody's going to be at the performance, and if it sucks, I just won't show it to any potential graduate programs.

So... I just found out that a person I knew from high school died in a car crash in Texas. It's not like we were close friends or anything, but we were civil to each other. The thing is, though, his older brother died from an overdose during my sophmore year there. I feel terrible for his family, having to live through not only one, but two sons dying... he is the 7th person I knew from highschool to die since I graduated almost 10 years ago.

Now, on top of that, I found out another one of my friends might have to have his leg amputated because of a severe blood clot - he's in the army and the VA can't do anything about. He's going to see a specialist about it and I hope he'll be able to keep his leg. He was a nice guy - and he doesn't deserve that kind of shit happening to him.

So, yeah - I guess I'm just now realizing how long it's been since those days... and I'm now only a few blocks away from the house I lived in. I need to move on and do something with my life soon, or else I fear I never will.