started playing magic:the gathering again.
anyone wanna play?
haha.
the only people i can play with now are my cousins...
and i kind of hate my family.
working at the hotel again.
need a new, better job.
still.
(p.s. i have my high school diploma now woot...)
eh.
also, i can't wait til harvest moon comes out on the wii.
seriously. i will scream with joy when i have it in my hands.
^
fag

I got another tattoo yesterday.
It felt great. Slightly reminiscent of the violet wand, even.
It was done to look like an actual drawing.
I think I like Radiohead a little too much.
I have the incredible urge to read right now,
but unfortunately I owe money to the library and have no working car.
I wanna try mushrooms for the first time.
I want the writers block I've had for about 2 years to go away.
I used to write every single day in high school.
Now I'm shit. I just don't know what to write about...
Seemingly unconnected thoughts, but who knows.
Fuck the mind.

Nauseous, tired, gonna read the second Dexter book, Dearly Devoted Dexter.
Watched both seasons of the show in a week,
needed more so I started on the books.
Great books, great show, a plus awesome, great job!

Took a percoset for the first time,
just got done watching Iron Man (awesome!)
and man oh man I just have to say.

I love Mario Kart.

Sick...
very sick...
first time in a year and 2 weeks too.
I'm coughing up phlegm and my nose is running ever 10 seconds.
I can hardly breathe.
At work too...
Bleghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Cure meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

And....
date went well.

I actually drank in Rainforest Cafe (first time ordering any kind of alcoholic drink in a bar or restaurant for me).
The waiter was this 20-something kid with long hair that looked like a stoner,
and I just had a strong gut feeling that he would let me.
Coconut shrimp and crab dip were AWESOME.

Turns out the dude plays guitar very well and sings.
Also, does drugs and is kind of a sarcastic asshole
who dislikes people and thinks everyone wants to fuck him.

Perfect! Just like me! Mwa hahahahaahahah.
But yeah. I forgot the doggie box of leftover food in his car,
and he came to my house on his lunch break this morning and brought it and a tasty Jones soda to me.
MAYBE he might be alright.

Inventory party after work at Home Depot Wednesday, woot!

So...the dude just straight out asked me if I have a boyfriend and told me we were going out to eat today.
He apparently made us reservations at Rainforest Cafe for tonight.
Sweet!
I've never been there but I've heard it's pretty cool.
And I DO like free food..............hahahahjhdjahddhhahaha



Also,
went to a Saul Williams concert last night in Philly and it was fucking AWESOME.
So great.
One of the funnest shows I've been to actually.
Mixed races, hot beats, lots of dancing,
and Saul dressed up in tight silver pants haha.
I shook his hand twice.
Everything was crazy.


My feet hurt so bad though...........

So I started hanging out with this new boy who I thought was kinda cute and who likes video games and stuff.
The first day we hung out at my friend's house for my Saint Patrick's day Wii party
and WE all played the WII (note: hahaha) all night.
He seemed ok. I mean I only wanted a new friend anyway.
I never lead guys on or anything, and have the inability to flirt.
So I hung out with him a second time, yesterday.
Then he ruined it by making certain comments which revealed that he was in fact,
slightly dumber than he appeared.
Also he keeps sending flirty texts asking to cuddle and stuff.
I can tell that he assumes I like him back,
even though I've never complimented him or done anything to further that thought.
I was actually on the borderline of whether or not I could "like" him or not.
He definitely pushed me over into the "no" zone yesterday.
We hung out(shopping at Kohl's for a shirt mind you) and then he asks me if I wanna hang out again later when I get off. I decided yesterday that I didn't really wanna see him anymore.

We were talking about cars we wanted and I said I want a Smart Car.
He immediately said "Oh yeah, anything environmentally friendly I'm all about.".
I said, "No. I just think they're really cool." Because I do.
And I don't like fake people or ones that try to use certain topics to appear to be a hip, concious person.
Oh and he played Taking Back Sunday and some other emo/screamo music in his car.
I guess this is just me hating on college kids haha.

He's texted me all day today to hang out,
calling me and waking me up a couple of minutes ago when I was sleeping because I didn't respond.
I didn't answer.
Now he just texted me again.
Mind you I've only known him 2 days now.

I generally try to stick to myself,
because I know I don't like people.
Then I try and meet someone new...
and they get all overly-weird like this.
Agh!

But anyways...

SSBB GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.



[EDIT]

So I followed you guys' advice and told him this today.
And he was like "any specific reason?" and said that another girl had done the same thing to him recently and that he just doesn't understand girls who "freak out" about dating and stuff before he even gets to know them. He acted like he wasn't even interested, and that that was never his intention, despite the fact that he repeatedly kept telling me I was "cute" and asking to cuddle and stuff. Apparently he still wants to try and be friends. I mean I understand. If I were rejected I would probably deny any interest too. So I guess he's not totally bad, but I still don't know if I want to hang out with him or not. At least he stopped texting me so much. *sigh*
I'm not a people person. haha