IPOD
RADIO
I stare at my ring. All the time.
In the shower, I'll rinse soap off of it just to look at it.
In the shower, I'll rinse soap off of it just to look at it.
Wow.
I remember getting my acceptance letter in the mail, back in January of 2001. I was so excited - it was all working out for me... I had a GPA of 5.0 or someshit, I was going to college with my boyfriend and close friends, and I had a scholarship that was going to pay for most of my college education. I was 18 and getting the fuck out of Fayetteville. Life was beautiful.
Three years later I was single, failing out of school, and worried that I would lose my scholarship.
There were times that I wish I had been able to finish school in 2005. I'd be debt-free (instead of $20k in the hole), I'd be in my third year of teaching, and the timeline I set out on in 2001 would be humming along, nicely.
However, in that two years that I was out of school, I learned a lot about myself. I rediscovered my need to teach. I met LittleFierceOne.
And, you know, I think that's worth way more than $20,000... I'm happy. I feel at home, centered - content. I'm so ready to graduate, I'm ready to take on my own classroom and all the responsibilities that come with it. I'm ready to get married and share my life with my favorite person.
It's not going to be easy. I have to pay off my debt, and have lots of personal things to work on. Several years ago, though, I did not feel like an adult. I didn't know when I'd ever feel like one... but, now, I finally do.
In a week and a half, I will finally finish this journey I've been on for 7 years. On May 11th, I will put on an ugly hat and a light blue robe and have my picture taken in front of all the cliché places and I will officially be a graduate.
Bring. it. on.
I remember getting my acceptance letter in the mail, back in January of 2001. I was so excited - it was all working out for me... I had a GPA of 5.0 or someshit, I was going to college with my boyfriend and close friends, and I had a scholarship that was going to pay for most of my college education. I was 18 and getting the fuck out of Fayetteville. Life was beautiful.
Three years later I was single, failing out of school, and worried that I would lose my scholarship.
There were times that I wish I had been able to finish school in 2005. I'd be debt-free (instead of $20k in the hole), I'd be in my third year of teaching, and the timeline I set out on in 2001 would be humming along, nicely.
However, in that two years that I was out of school, I learned a lot about myself. I rediscovered my need to teach. I met LittleFierceOne.
And, you know, I think that's worth way more than $20,000... I'm happy. I feel at home, centered - content. I'm so ready to graduate, I'm ready to take on my own classroom and all the responsibilities that come with it. I'm ready to get married and share my life with my favorite person.
It's not going to be easy. I have to pay off my debt, and have lots of personal things to work on. Several years ago, though, I did not feel like an adult. I didn't know when I'd ever feel like one... but, now, I finally do.
In a week and a half, I will finally finish this journey I've been on for 7 years. On May 11th, I will put on an ugly hat and a light blue robe and have my picture taken in front of all the cliché places and I will officially be a graduate.
Bring. it. on.
So, this is technically my final week. I've turned in all my assignments and completed all my requirements - all my paperwork has even been turned in - but my last day is Friday.
So this week, we are just there to hang out and observe other teachers and just be there.
I didn't have to do anything this weekend, it was amazing.
So this week, we are just there to hang out and observe other teachers and just be there.
I didn't have to do anything this weekend, it was amazing.
Hey... *psst*... *psssst* - hey, you!
Somebody invent a machine that stops time so that I can go back and sleep last night. Ugh
Somebody invent a machine that stops time so that I can go back and sleep last night. Ugh
This post was really bitchy and would probably have created drama. So I removed it.
I really hate being talked down to, and treated like a child. Especially since I'm not the one whining like a 3 year old.
There, that pretty much sums it up.
I really hate being talked down to, and treated like a child. Especially since I'm not the one whining like a 3 year old.
There, that pretty much sums it up.
ONE. WEEK. LEFT.
(technically, it's two, but I'm not teaching the final week)
HOWEVER, I have about three weeks' work to do in one afternoon. Yikes! And we have two field trips this week (excessive)
So I might disappear for a week.
(technically, it's two, but I'm not teaching the final week)
HOWEVER, I have about three weeks' work to do in one afternoon. Yikes! And we have two field trips this week (excessive)
So I might disappear for a week.
Well, I guess I'm putting my insomnia to good use! I'm up planning for the week. I had a workday, and still had a bunch to do.
Only two weeks of teaching left, and there are THREE field trips AND a Book Fair to take up huge chunks of time.
The kids will be crazy, but it's ALMOST OVER.
(I wish I could say I was kind of sad... but I'm mostly just happy to have the end in sight.)
I think I can, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...
Only two weeks of teaching left, and there are THREE field trips AND a Book Fair to take up huge chunks of time.
The kids will be crazy, but it's ALMOST OVER.
(I wish I could say I was kind of sad... but I'm mostly just happy to have the end in sight.)
I think I can, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can...
Well, then... the Tarheels are sucking profusely, and not in the fun way. I generally don't care about basketball, but we're in the final four. I felt like I should watch. And we are doing poorly. Sad. It's halftime, so maybe we'll pull it together.
Regardless, I updated my photo album, and here are some pictures of my awesome garden:
So, yeah. This is what I've done with my Spring Break. Sadly, no violin playing, but I will.
And... I've been drinking. And now I want to have sex.
Regardless, I updated my photo album, and here are some pictures of my awesome garden:
So, yeah. This is what I've done with my Spring Break. Sadly, no violin playing, but I will.
And... I've been drinking. And now I want to have sex.
Ah, vacations. How quickly they come and go.
It's only Tuesday, I know, and I have until Sunday off. But, still, I feel like it's going by too fast. I've been enjoying my time as much as possible... though I've been wanting to color (yes, in a coloring book), and coloring books suck, nowadays.
I'd draw my own, but that's almost like work.
I have plenty to do this week, but I wanted to waste several days so that I wouldn't be working the whole break.
Anyway, enough of that. I just ordered a bunch of stuff to get me back into playing my violin. I bought new strings (because one should always have a backup set), a new mute (because my old one rattles when not in use, which is annoying as fuck), and a new music stand (because I've had the same one since 1995, and it sucked then... and I can't find it, anyway). I have some music, but I really need to buy more. The trouble with that, is I was never very good, and never really had lessons (public school orchestra program FTW) - so while there is music I know I like, finding violin music that I can play is rather hard. Also, music is not cheap when you are trying to get several songs. Buying it on the internet is even more tricky, because you can't actually see the music to tell if it's at your level.
I've been considering taking violin lessons to help me get past where I am. I've also been toying with the idea of rejoining the community orchestra as soon as possible (this fall), but I have no idea which community I'll be living/teaching in next year... so joining the local orchestra doesn't make much sense if I'll be living and working in other counties, unless they don't have community orchestras.
In any case, I'm trying. I miss playing terribly, and hate that she spends so much time in the closet, her strings sagging from the change in temperature and humidity. I was so madly in love with my violin when I bought her, and now she barely comes out of the case once a year. Sad.
In any case, if any of you play classical stringed instruments (violin, viola, cello, bass, classical guitar), Southwest Strings has been the one website where I've gotten everything for my violin. Hell - it's where I bought my violin back in high school. Their prices are great, their service is good, and I have always gotten good quality products from them. Their variety for the more orchestral instruments is excellent, but I do admit they only carry one type of classical guitar string (but they're D'Addario strings, and a set is only $6.95, which is really cheap).
Anyway, that's my geekdom, for the week. I miss making music.
It's only Tuesday, I know, and I have until Sunday off. But, still, I feel like it's going by too fast. I've been enjoying my time as much as possible... though I've been wanting to color (yes, in a coloring book), and coloring books suck, nowadays.
I'd draw my own, but that's almost like work.
I have plenty to do this week, but I wanted to waste several days so that I wouldn't be working the whole break.
Anyway, enough of that. I just ordered a bunch of stuff to get me back into playing my violin. I bought new strings (because one should always have a backup set), a new mute (because my old one rattles when not in use, which is annoying as fuck), and a new music stand (because I've had the same one since 1995, and it sucked then... and I can't find it, anyway). I have some music, but I really need to buy more. The trouble with that, is I was never very good, and never really had lessons (public school orchestra program FTW) - so while there is music I know I like, finding violin music that I can play is rather hard. Also, music is not cheap when you are trying to get several songs. Buying it on the internet is even more tricky, because you can't actually see the music to tell if it's at your level.
I've been considering taking violin lessons to help me get past where I am. I've also been toying with the idea of rejoining the community orchestra as soon as possible (this fall), but I have no idea which community I'll be living/teaching in next year... so joining the local orchestra doesn't make much sense if I'll be living and working in other counties, unless they don't have community orchestras.
In any case, I'm trying. I miss playing terribly, and hate that she spends so much time in the closet, her strings sagging from the change in temperature and humidity. I was so madly in love with my violin when I bought her, and now she barely comes out of the case once a year. Sad.
In any case, if any of you play classical stringed instruments (violin, viola, cello, bass, classical guitar), Southwest Strings has been the one website where I've gotten everything for my violin. Hell - it's where I bought my violin back in high school. Their prices are great, their service is good, and I have always gotten good quality products from them. Their variety for the more orchestral instruments is excellent, but I do admit they only carry one type of classical guitar string (but they're D'Addario strings, and a set is only $6.95, which is really cheap).
Anyway, that's my geekdom, for the week. I miss making music.
