Man, I'm tired.

I've also been reading a lot, lately (not having cable with do that do a person, i think). I don't think I want cable back. I've missed books.

I should sleep. Stupid internets, keeping me awake and stuff.

When did I become a responsible adult for whom a career and marriage were not far-off goals, but rapidly approaching life events?

And why is this just occurring to me?

Next thing you know, I'll be telling y'all that I'm preggers or somethin'. DON'T WORRY. If the cramps and bleeding are any indication, I am, as of this week, not hosting a little parasite. But, Jebus, it's creeping up over the horizon, ain't it?

Fascinating.

In a wonderful way.

Also, thunderstorms are beautiful and should happen more often.

It just occurred to me... this is the first time a place has felt like Home since I moved into my first apartment by myself. That might not sound like much, especially since that was only 6 years ago, but that was the FIRST time a place felt like Home, ever. And I only got to experience that for a year or so before it ended.

I'm actually amazed at how much better life seems, in general, when I have this feeling. I feel centered.

Earlier today work was stressing me out (sometimes you just get a group of kids that WILL. NOT. LISTEN.), and I texted LittleFierceOne something along the lines of "I need a vacation. Soon."

He replied, "This weekend. Mini home vacation. Popcorn and movies and kitties."

I love him.

Things are going really well. I am a happy little Fox.

You all must have sent some amazing vibes my way, because I was offered the job on the spot!

I'll be teaching 3rd grade at an elementary school in Durham! WHEE!!!!

I should be sleeping. Fo' realz.

I have a job interview tomorrow. Send good thoughts my way, please.

Also, I need money. Feel free to send that my way, too.

Scrubbing floors is totally awesome. You should do it.

At my new house.

The housewarming party was totally the best. Thanks to those who made it out!!!!



I know awesome people. And I have a house. Rock on.

Some couples need to talk their problems out until things are better.

Others need to fuck in the shower.

You know, whatever works.

Also, there will be a party tonight at our new place. I'm excited.

Things are going to be rough for the next few months, and I'm not looking forward to that. I have to deal with my procrastination and finally get a job... we have to move... and LittleFierceOne will need lots of support as he tries to balance school and life.

It's not impossible, but it's been rough so far, and we've got some uphill to tackle, still, before we can coast into being Less Stressed.

I'm not really complaining... I would have, last night, had I been awake enough to make a post. I was upset at the prospect of continuing the stresses of this life... the upheaval and the instability. But, you know, my life has never been stable. I should be used to this, and I do find a little comfort in not knowing what things will be like in a week. I'm ready for that to change, but I'm not burned out, yet.

Besides, there are lots of good things happening. I am finally getting Nukie back, I will have a real job in the fall, and we will have more space and the ability to actually get away from each other when necessary. (It doesn't happen often, but in a tiny apartment, there is no such thing as "personal space" unless you're home alone...)

And I can put a positive spin on most of the things I don't want to deal with (moving will require me to get rid of even MORE crap I don't need, which is a Very Good Thing).

However, LittleFierceOne is too stressed to really be here for me. He needs to focus on school, and can't put as much energy into our relationship. I mean, he is here for me when I really need him - but the normal day-to-day finds him somewhat distracted and too stressed to offer up general support. I don't blame him - in fact, I'm surprised he is able to be there for me as much as he is - but because of this, I will need some friends to lean on in the coming weeks/months. As will he. We just need a good support structure to carry us through the OMGSOBUSYICANTBREATHE until things even out.

I haven't been as supportive of him as I want to be, either, so our relationship is balanced in its... um... unbalance. Or something.

Anyway, just continue being totally awesome and supportive, and know that I might need to call on you guys for some extra lovin' here and there, just to remind me that things are good and that I needn't worry. You're all pretty awesome at that.