Hey all,
it's a long time since my last blog again.
I stoped taking my antidepressants cuz it makes me even more crazy as i am already.
Till now i don't got signs of withdrawal. And i hope it keeps this way.
Since 3 month i'm waiting for a therapy place and it still goes on.
Since i move to Greifswald i got new problems with my head. In Neubrandenburg where not many girls that attracted my. But in Greifswald are so many cute girls that i cant stand my own unability to talk to them and get a date or something. Now i can't even look at them without loosing myself and getting angry about my self and the human race.
I know i need help. And i know meds can't help my cuz its all cuz of memorys and experience. But with all this waiting its getting worse. I think with every day i have to wait for help i need another year to get clear with myself and this world.
I need so much to get some love but with this head i am not able to get. Its a damn vicious circle.
But there are some good news. My cousins wife born their healthy child. It's a little boy called Leonard. 3460 gram and 52 cm.
Even if i will never get own children, i'm happy that they all are healthy.
I think this is enough for now.
Have a nice day
it's a long time since my last blog again.
I stoped taking my antidepressants cuz it makes me even more crazy as i am already.
Till now i don't got signs of withdrawal. And i hope it keeps this way.
Since 3 month i'm waiting for a therapy place and it still goes on.
Since i move to Greifswald i got new problems with my head. In Neubrandenburg where not many girls that attracted my. But in Greifswald are so many cute girls that i cant stand my own unability to talk to them and get a date or something. Now i can't even look at them without loosing myself and getting angry about my self and the human race.
I know i need help. And i know meds can't help my cuz its all cuz of memorys and experience. But with all this waiting its getting worse. I think with every day i have to wait for help i need another year to get clear with myself and this world.
I need so much to get some love but with this head i am not able to get. Its a damn vicious circle.
But there are some good news. My cousins wife born their healthy child. It's a little boy called Leonard. 3460 gram and 52 cm.
Even if i will never get own children, i'm happy that they all are healthy.
I think this is enough for now.
Have a nice day
Hey everybody 
Today was a great day. I met some nice people with those i will live from mai on in a living community
When i was at our appointment i thought i would only meet main tenant. But there was a girl that was lookin for a room too. And as we talked two hours we noticed that we would be a nice group. There was a nice feelin in the air. Any of us felt it. Not only the knowing that we could live together. We felt that we would like each other. All of us got different lifes but in the middle we would cross
The main tenent his name is Dominik was pretty faithfull. He told us that he got some problems in his life. Cuz of these he was in therapie back in the past. He also told us many things about his life and what hes doing
Cuz of that i was pretty faithfull too. I told them that i got my problems. That i am searching for a therapie place cuz of my depression and that im takin antidepressents. It felt good when they told me that all is ok and it wouldnt matter
The girl is named Lilia. Shes a pretty cute small girl. She told us about where she's from and her problems in her last living community. I think she was pretty lucky when she noticed that we both are nice guys who wouldnt let her deal with the housework all alone.
Now we're lookin forward to find some whiteware. Cuz Dominic's actutally roommates are takin everithing except the fridge when they move....
The apartment is placed direct at the shopping promenade Cuz of that i will buy me my first cicle since 10 years
Cuz from there i can cicle to my work
Im lookin forward for a nice time. And hope there i can do something against my wierd sight of life
Hope all of you had a nice day too
And i think this is better than some 5s today
Today was a great day. I met some nice people with those i will live from mai on in a living community
When i was at our appointment i thought i would only meet main tenant. But there was a girl that was lookin for a room too. And as we talked two hours we noticed that we would be a nice group. There was a nice feelin in the air. Any of us felt it. Not only the knowing that we could live together. We felt that we would like each other. All of us got different lifes but in the middle we would cross
The main tenent his name is Dominik was pretty faithfull. He told us that he got some problems in his life. Cuz of these he was in therapie back in the past. He also told us many things about his life and what hes doing
Cuz of that i was pretty faithfull too. I told them that i got my problems. That i am searching for a therapie place cuz of my depression and that im takin antidepressents. It felt good when they told me that all is ok and it wouldnt matter
The girl is named Lilia. Shes a pretty cute small girl. She told us about where she's from and her problems in her last living community. I think she was pretty lucky when she noticed that we both are nice guys who wouldnt let her deal with the housework all alone.
Now we're lookin forward to find some whiteware. Cuz Dominic's actutally roommates are takin everithing except the fridge when they move....
The apartment is placed direct at the shopping promenade
Cuz of that i will buy me my first cicle since 10 years Cuz from there i can cicle to my work
Im lookin forward for a nice time. And hope there i can do something against my wierd sight of life
Hope all of you had a nice day too
And i think this is better than some 5s today
Hey.
Today is better again.
I think i could finde some 5s
1. I was working at the housing association and got imformations about somebody who searches 2 people for a living community. Tomorrow we got an appointment
2. My new Bullet For My Valentine CD arrived
3. I left work one and an half hour earlyer than normal
4. Today evening im invited to some friends. We will talk, listen to music and drink much alcohol
5. Now i will go to town and eat some ice-cream and browse a bit
I got it Yesterday i thought i would brake down again. But now its nice again
Have a nice day everybody
Today is better again.
I think i could finde some 5s
1. I was working at the housing association and got imformations about somebody who searches 2 people for a living community. Tomorrow we got an appointment
2. My new Bullet For My Valentine CD arrived
3. I left work one and an half hour earlyer than normal
4. Today evening im invited to some friends. We will talk, listen to music and drink much alcohol
5. Now i will go to town and eat some ice-cream and browse a bit
I got it
Yesterday i thought i would brake down again. But now its nice again Have a nice day everybody
Hey...
Still cant get my mind clear.
I'm sorry for loosing again. But i hope to get up again soon or find some help.
Still cant get my mind clear.
I'm sorry for loosing again. But i hope to get up again soon or find some help.
Hey
SPECIAL EDITION!
I know i missed some 5s but instead if it i got some much better stuff
Yesterday was jesterday Carnival
And nobody envisaged the pink hare O_O
It was pretty nice. We started drinking a bit at a friends home and at 10pm we got to the party
From the first moment i got the attention of everybody
And cuz of my hare's-tail all the girls were feeling on my ass *yeah*
I was out with 3 girls. I think thats a nice genderrate.
Anyway i try the traditional way of 5s
1. I was a pink hare and danced like hell cuz even at room tempreratur i was real wet cuz of sweating
2. After dancing my friends wanted to drink something and we tryed to go off of the floor. And in that moment a girl i danced with was standig in my way and i felt an instinct i missed in my puberty. The feeling that she wants it too! And i kissed her! *strike* For many people its a normal thing but i was too fcking overwhelmed to do it right and she pointed me the way to my friends But nevertheless it was an important and nice expirience.
3. Some time later i a girl let me dance tight at her ass and put my hands at her body! First time in my life
I think i told you that i missed much in my life
4. I got a flashing ring from two women and danced with them a little like standard dance The older ones are sometimes the best and merriest.
5. I cant count the hands at my ass
And now!!!
The most important!
Pictures!!!
SPECIAL EDITION!
I know i missed some 5s but instead if it i got some much better stuff
Yesterday was jesterday
Carnival And nobody envisaged the pink hare O_O
It was pretty nice. We started drinking a bit at a friends home and at 10pm we got to the party
From the first moment i got the attention of everybody
And cuz of my hare's-tail all the girls were feeling on my ass *yeah*
I was out with 3 girls. I think thats a nice genderrate.
Anyway i try the traditional way of 5s
1. I was a pink hare and danced like hell cuz even at room tempreratur i was real wet cuz of sweating
2. After dancing my friends wanted to drink something and we tryed to go off of the floor. And in that moment a girl i danced with was standig in my way and i felt an instinct i missed in my puberty. The feeling that she wants it too! And i kissed her! *strike* For many people its a normal thing but i was too fcking overwhelmed to do it right and she pointed me the way to my friends
But nevertheless it was an important and nice expirience.3. Some time later i a girl let me dance tight at her ass and put my hands at her body! First time in my life
I think i told you that i missed much in my life
4. I got a flashing ring from two women and danced with them a little like standard dance
The older ones are sometimes the best and merriest. 5. I cant count the hands at my ass
And now!!!
The most important!
Pictures!!!
A little less madness in my head
Lets try to find some 5s
1. I was at the home of my collegue today cuz of my work. There i met his dog again Shes so cute. We liked each other from the first moment. I wish she could be mine
2. Today i realized that i got more confident at work since i startet this new job. Cuz i did a failure but didnt took it too hard
3. In the morning i avoided an accident that would have been coursed by iced roads.
4. My thoughts are getting little less confused day by day
5. I watched "Alejo y Valentina". Even if i dont understand any word it looks pretty funny Thx Pachi
Good night anybody
Lets try to find some 5s
1. I was at the home of my collegue today cuz of my work. There i met his dog again
Shes so cute. We liked each other from the first moment. I wish she could be mine 2. Today i realized that i got more confident at work since i startet this new job. Cuz i did a failure but didnt took it too hard
3. In the morning i avoided an accident that would have been coursed by iced roads.
4. My thoughts are getting little less confused day by day
5. I watched "Alejo y Valentina". Even if i dont understand any word it looks pretty funny
Thx Pachi Good night anybody
