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AUGUST 13, 2008 @ 08:39 PM | 17 COMMENTS

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JULY 11, 2008 @ 01:33 PM | 17 COMMENTS

IMPORTANT AND EXCITING UPDATE!!!!!!

so i wrote some lyrics and the band that recorded it just put it on their myspace!!!
It's titled "Crazy" in their music player.
Go check it out at www.myspace.com/youryellowdress

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Here are some pics from my Florida trip!
oo Disney! oo

In recent news:

I am back in Chicago (have been since monday) due to the passing of SpidersAndArrows mother. Despite the circumstances, its nice being home. I leave to go back to san fran on monday.

but before then.....IM GOING TO A CUBS GAME!!!!! my dad is awesome and found a pair of tickets from a guy at work to sundays game. im super excited as I have missed Wrigley very very much. Oh and they are playing the SF Giants. tongue

I am in desperate need of money. because of vacation and this week trip home, i have not been working for a total of 3 weeks for the past month. I NEED MONEY FOR RENT!! i literally have a couple hundred dollars to my name. le sigh.

maybe ill try to sell some clothes either to a resale shop or even on here?? i dont really want to make blogs about selling stuff to you guys, but some neat things i have, some shops just wont buy for whatever reason. so be on the lookout for some clothes, maybe?

i bought some books from Barnes and Noble: The Time Machine/The Invisible Man, Walden/Civil Disobedience, and Metamorphosis/other stories. yaya for some good readings! I also still havent finished Cat's Cradle and The Bell Jar. i best get on that. OH OH and my Vampire Encyclopedia book. biggrin

so i think the next few weeks will consist of reading and working.
JULY 5, 2008 @ 08:42 PM | 17 COMMENTS

EDIT:

keep your head up.
these terrible times will pass.
be with your family and remember the laughter.
i wish i could take all the pain away,
but i can at least offer a shoulder to cry on,
and arms to wrap around you.







The lyrics to my life as told by Of Montreal:

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

the past is a grotesque animal
and in its eyes you see
how completely wrong you can be
how completely wrong you can be

the sun is out
it melts the snow that fell yesterday
makes you wonder
why it bothered
i fell in love
with the first cute girl that i met
who could appreciate Georges Bataille
standing at a Swedish festival
discussing "story of the eye"
discussing "story of the eye"

it's so embarassing to need someone like i do you
how can i explain?
i need you here
and not here too..
how can i explain
i need you here
and not here too

i'm flunking out, i'm flunking out
i'm gone, i'm just gone
but at least i author my own disaster
at least i author my own disaster
performance breakdown
and i don't wanna hear it
i'm just not available

things could be different
but they're not...
things could be different
but they're not

the mousey girl screams "violence, violence!"
the mousey girl screams "violence, violence!"
she gets hysterical
cause they're both so mean
and it's my favorite scene
the cruelty's so predictable
makes you sad on the stage
though our love project has so much potential
but it's like we weren't made for this world
though i wouldn't really wanna meet someone who was

do i have to scream in your face?
i've been dodging lamps and vegetables
throw it all in my face
i don't care-
let's just have some fun
let's tear the shit apart
let's tear the fucking house apart
let's tear our fucking bodies apart,
let's just have some fun

somehow you've red-rovered
the Gestapo circling my heart
and nothing can defeat you
no death, no ugly world
you've lived so brightly
you've altered everything

i find myself
searching for old selves
while speeding forward
through the plateglass of maturing cells

i fed the unraveler
the paw hellion
but even apocolypse is fleeting
there's no death, no ugly world
sometimes i wonder if you're mythologizing me
like i do you
apologizing me like i do you

we want our film to be beautiful
not realistic
see me in the radiance of terror dreams
you can betray me
you can, you can betray me
teach me something wonderful
crown my head crown my head
with your lilting effects
project your fears onto me
i need to view them,
see there's nothing to them
i promise you there's nothing to them

i'm so touched by your goodness
you make me feel so criminal
how do you keep it together?
i'm all, all unraveled
but'cha know
no matter where we are
we're always touching by underground wires

i've explored you with the detachment
of an analyst
but most nights
we've raided the same kingdoms
and none of our secrets are physical
none of our secrets, are physical
none of our secrets, are physical now

JULY 1, 2008 @ 11:11 PM | 17 COMMENTS

EDIT:
CUBS WON TODAY!! (7-2) << as in the date i edited this, not the score sillies. tongue

this mosaic thing is going round so i made one:
zoom image

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

You type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr search.

Then, using only the first page, pick an image.

Then, copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into this .

1. What is your first name?
2. What is your favorite food?
3. What high school did you go to?
4. What is your favorite color?
5. Who is your celebrity crush?
6. Favorite drink?
7. Dream vacation?
8. Favorite dessert?
9. What you want to be when you grow up?
10. What do you love most in life?
11. One Word to describe you.
12. Your flickr name.



dont have much to say right now cuz im super tired but...

Pride was super fun!!!!!!

went to Giants/Cubs game today. cubs lost frown
im going again tomorrow though yay. and there will be fireworks!

i dont have to work all holiday weekend!!!! yayayayaya.

now that SpidersAndArrows is all moved out of our old apartment im definitely less stressed out.

i have no work tomorrow and plan to clean and buy/read some comics!

My vacation home was really nice. i missed my sister alot.
DisneyWorld was so much fun!!!!! it was STAR WARS weekends which was awesome. it was adorable to see little kids become honorary padawans. hehe. and i of course rode the Peter Pan ride, this time by myself. i seriously love it. makes me so happy. hopefully i'll post some pics in an album soon so be on the lookout!!!

i dont think i'll be living in san francisco when im finished with school here. i'll either move back to chicago, where i can go to a cubs game whenever i want!, or do some traveling before i head to grad school. i really would like to do the latter. i think some traveling on my own would be really good for me.

thats all for now folks!


mosaic maker

JUNE 16, 2008 @ 11:04 PM | 17 COMMENTS

I am the worst girlfriend ever.

Someone please shoot me.

I don't want to cause anymore damage.

I don't deserve another chance, but god i am fucking hoping for one.

I need to fix myself. I need to not be a selfish bitch.

You are the only person I have ever loved and i fucked it all up.

Why am i such a fucking idiot?

When did i become such a horrible person?

I hate myself.

I am so lost.

I don't deserve happiness.


JUNE 9, 2008 @ 09:00 PM | 17 COMMENTS

wahooooo! im in chicago!! well, suburb of but close enough.

it feels so amazing to be at home. i've really missed it. my sister will be home from work soon and i hope to have a fun sister slumber party and watch a movie. tomorrow we are gonna go shopping.

ill edit this laters/tomorrow. i just need to chill tonight and feel all homey.

EDIT: Who's been to the Cubs store in woodfield mall and has a Fukudome shirt and supa cool Cubs bag??? ME ME ME!!!! I get to see them play next wednesday in Tampa!! weeeeeeeeeeee. biggrin biggrin

I leave for Florida/Disneworld on saturday morning. i really cant wait. Im super excited to go on the new Everest ride, mostly cuz i love Yetis for some reason.

Not sure if im bringing my computer with, but ill deff update with some pics within the next week or so.
JUNE 1, 2008 @ 09:49 PM | 17 COMMENTS

soooo. i moved into my new apartment for the summer. right now i am freezing cold and wish i had slippers or my fuzzy socks. im eating a yummy avocado and cheese quesadilla. nummy.

i have to buy some napkins for myself i guess? the gals here are pretty cool and eco-friendly. we compost, make sure to turn off the lights when leaving the room and such. and i guess most of em are against using napkins. i can understand this, but im messy!! i think i shall buy us some nice cloth ones to use.

the one gal Cate's room is connected to mine. so shes going to be walking through my room to get to hers. shouldnt be too bad? i'll just have to let her know if ima be needin some privacy. biggrin

all in all i think it'll be fun living here for at least the summer.

in other news, i finally had my seatpost cut down and i think i can reach the pedals now. im still quite nervous to ride my bike around though. i havent really ridden a bike in years. im going to be all wobbly. also, as i posted in my last blog, my friend's friend died when he got hit by a semi while he was on his bike. this just makes me all the more nervous. i'll get out there soon though. maybe go out when theres less traffic.

tonight i think im gonna just sit around on the computer, maybe read a few comics, do some logic puzzles, and try to write, cuz im cool like dat. tongue

whoa, just now i got this weird, but good feeling from whatever song my roomie Liz is playing. i need to listen to more folky type music. it makes me feel good, keeps me calm, and lets me think and feel inspired. though it can make me cry too. frown

OH OH OH!!! and how could i forget!!! so i guess MC Hammer came into my work the other day. I OF COURSE WAS NOT WORKING!!!! GRRRRRRR. he saw that people were thinking it was indeed him, and so guess what he did?!?!?! HE BROKE OUT INTO DANCE!!! god im SO PISSED i missed that.

and with that i leave you with a few more pics of me being all "look at me im cute"

MAY 25, 2008 @ 05:17 PM | 17 COMMENTS

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