So Panther's CD is finally out. I totally bought one of the limited edition copies with the DVD. But now I have to wait for however long it's going to take to get here.

I'm contemplating buying another copy on iTunes just so I can have it now... Gah!

Also, he's coming to Chicago on the 31st, and I'll be 21 by then. Which completely makes up for the shitty timing of his tour last year!

I live in a country full of retards, assholes, crooks, and liars. And they're all in charge.

And the actual morons follow them with such unquestioned devotion, it makes me think I may be trapped in some horrid nightmare world that I've come up with in my sleep, and am completely unable to escape.

It makes me feel like shit knowing that the best part of my day is when I get to sleep and not think about some of this bullshit, even if it is just for a few hours.

So I bought a brand new Risk game set and a few of us were playing the other night. I've decided that the game is fucking awesome and I don't know why I didn't get into it before. I mean, I've tried to play before, but this was the first time I got really into it. What fun! Now I don't have to suffer through another game of Monopoly for awhile.

Or poker...

I need more board games to play, too, by the way. Any suggestions?

Anyone?

I did it!



I think it turned out amazing. I am so impressed with the job the guy did.

[worry]

I was so excited to get back to class today after the break, but then I realized I am still having some major doubts about my career choice. How the hell am I going to succeed in this business? How will I pay back these loans? How much further in debt can I get before I can bring myself to actually pull myself out of this hole and graduate?

How will I be able to bring myself to get up at 6:30 in the fucking morning every Monday and Wednesday for the next five months? Yikes.

[/worry]

Who the fuck knows? I really don't, but I guess I am doing what I love and that is what is really important. I just wish I had some confirmation on how good I actually am at it. But whatever...

I think I need to move out of this country. I've always wanted to live in Ireland; it's just not a very smart move for me right now.

I want to write this book. I really do. Please, supernatural-being-in-the-sky (even though I don't believe a single goddamned word anyone says about you), don't let me give up on this.

Oh, and I'm getting a hedgehog this week. Pictures will follow when he arrives.

Gia's going to be so happy.

P.S. Our two year anniversary is coming up. I want to take her out to dinner, but I'd like to do something else that's... romantic... Any ideas would be wonderful, because I suck at this.

So I was riding the train back home today, and staring out the window and watching the snow fall brought upon a major breakthrough for the direction my story is going.

It feels so good to have something solidify like that.

So... Few things...

Pan's Labyrinth: Awesome. Depressing. Completely different than what I was expecting. Lacking in action, which pissed off my friends. Definitely worth a watch. You must experience this twisted fairy tale.

New Modest Mouse single: Delicious.

New Fall Out Boy single: Trust me that I want to punch myself in the face so fucking hard when I say that I am enjoying it... A bunch.

My new book: Can you really have a new book before finishing an old one? I guess so, and let me tell you, it's the only thing on my mind as of the past couple weeks, and it's driving me nuts. Perhaps I will actually finish a project I start for once?

Probably not.

G'night.