So, the months of loneliness are stacking up. All I need is someone to hold. Ah well

I'm sure you guys wouldn't mind if i did a little writing here would you? I've just been feeling so....eh lately. Enjoy.


"The walls crumble as you begin to learn
The ice thaws as you begin to warm
The void fills with every smile
The eyes brighten with every laugh

The world becomes tolerable with you in it
But you aren't there anymore

The walls once left down, rebuilding
The ice once thawed, reforming
The void once filled, draining
The eyes once bright, darkened

The world seems grey now that you've gone

Still I go on, still I push
You're inside my mind, my blood, my soul
Everyday I still hear you in my mind
Every night I dream with you in my arms

Dreams were always better than reality
The world is still just as grey as you left it

Days go on, nights persist
You've granted me presence once more
You've changed over the years
You're just as grey as my world
Unlike the colors you had once before

The walls are rebuilt, taller than before
The ice has reformed, thicker than before
The void swirls, stronger than before
The darkness engulfs, a shadow of myself is left

You, too, have gone grey, just like the rest of us
Pity how the world gets you."

So it's been awhile SG land. How have you been? That's good. Me? Well, I've come to the conclusion that I am totally in love with my ex. She was the best thing I have ever ha in my life. Every single girl I dated after her was silently compared to her. I wasn't mature enough to know this at the time. Now I can't even get her out of my thoughts. She is driving me wild and quite insane, and she is only mildly aware of it. I've tried everything to get her out of my head, and it doesn't work. I've just come to deal with it now.

P.S. Regina Spektor is what fuels my moods. It reminds me of her so much. Samson was the song she sent me after she broke up with me. I love her, but I shouldn't. Oh well.

i need advice sg land. i came to a thought not too long ago, that i cant think of a happy moment without thinking of an ex of mine. she was my first true love, and truth be told now i still love her. i cant stop thinking of her. I dont know if i should tell her or not. Someone, please help me out with some advice. were friends now but...i dont want to be friends with her....help?

So, life is amazing. Two months of joy with my girlfriend. Many many more to come. I love her, she loves me, and i'm going insane because she is on vacation until tonight.

So, SG land, I want to know; how many of you have a Zombie Defense Plan?

So yea, sorry

So, i spill my guts out again SG. I have been after her for almost 3 years, and everytime she has been unavailable. Now that she is available, and we have been talking, i spilt my guts to her. I laid my heart on the line and she has yet to respond. Sure ill repost later what she responded but its been over a half hour already. I am going nuts SG land. O_o

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So, i have a serious question. Im starting a new chapter in my life, and i am ready for a move. If anyone can help it would be amazing. Im looking for a job in the area of Ocoee Fl, or Bartlett TN. Either would help, and a temporary place to stay would be nice. There is this person id like to start a new life with. Any information would help. Thank you.