Oh Kansas.....
I love it here so much - Topeka is a little city and the apartment I'm staying in is right above a cute little pretentious coffee shop and I love falling asleep to the crosswalk signal beeping and to cars. There are a million things to do and the weather has been pleasant. The people are generally nicer and I have made some awesome friends.

With that being said, I'm happy to be here but I'm just.. not happy overall. I'm trying to find more hobbies and a job and my own apartment because I feel constantly lonely and like I'm an annoyance to my friends. We have very different interests. I also don't have any alone time anymore or time to do things that I want. I try to keep myself busy by cleaning and recleaning and running errands, but I still feel very empty here at the end of the day.

I hope this lifts and things fall into place because I really want to stay here.