Just another sign of me sinking into the mire

Last night was one of the craziest nights I've had in a while. Zach and I had made plans to go to BackBooth, which is a bar/club kind of place in Downtown, and we ended up bringing 4 people. While this doesn't sound like much, it was, since at first it was just supposed to be the two of us! In any case, when we got there the dance floor was pretty empty, but easy to get into since it was Electronica/Indie night. Lauren attempted to get me buzzed off her drink in the bathroom, until the second time when they wouldn't let her bring it in. Later that night, Adam ended up buying Zach a drink, but the staff = hawks, and he got kicked out. It was a shame, since we had only been there for what felt like an hour.
We all piled back into the car and drove to my apartment (for cars) and then over to Lauren and Adam's house for merry frolicking. And here is where my life spiraled out of control. Because I don't drink, I have no tolerance, so three double shots of Bacardi and some sips of a Rum and Coke fucking killed me. I have never felt so sick, it was horrible.
That being said, I'm going to cut this short, because I feel awful. I just really appreciate the people in my life who took care of me last night, because it feels like it has been a long time since I've had anyone to depend on.

I'm so beyond frustrated and annoyed right now.

Why is it that after having an amazing evening, my ex-boyfriend has to come along and topple it over? He sent me an emotional message on Facebook, so I end up opening myself up to him, but a few days later I have to hear about how he's patching it up with another girl. Oh, no, they're not dating, she's just over until 6 in the morning watching one of my favorites movies that I would watch with him. It's petty, but I don't care. I know I broke up with him, but it's not like I am over all those feelings. I tried replacing them, it didn't work, and he's been able to replace the feelings he had. It makes me feel so lonely, in spite of the fact that I've actually been able to make friends. There were so many things that were wrong with that relationship, but I miss that emotional intimacy.

I just have to get him out of my life.
Well, time to smoke and love on Sugarfoot (the cat's newest nickname).

Sunny, the cat, and I are quite content right now. If you are wondering why, it's because I have a George Foreman grill and a steak.

Rejoice!

I can't tell if he's cleaning or licking the juice off his paws.

Wow, it's been kind of crazy the last four days or so. Quite the unexpected happened, Lee and I are attempting to work out a relationship again. I was at my parent's house, since I had to trade phones with my dad (I put my phone through the wash), and I ended up calling Lee because I wanted to get out of the house. I'll cut to the funny part, what amused me in any case, was that because I went to see him that night, I "cock"-blocked the girl who needed to stay the night at his house. Okay, I'm done being silly.

Amazing things: I finally picked up Narcissus in Chains, the next Anita Blake book that I need to read. On top of that, I picked up the second issue of Loveless, AND a nice little book about learning Japanese. The last is to decide whether or not I actually want to pick up Asian Studies as my minor.

Other amazing thing: Bath + Bath Salts + Candles + Book =

This is how bored I am: I'm drinking.

There's a puppy in the apartment! He's this adorable short-haired little black colored thing. Still, he's not a Corgi, so my heart isn't quite a-flutter. Alan-Whitticker (Meine Katze), is not happy about the situation; at one point I thought the puppy was growling by the door, nope, it's the cat.

I think this is going to be a good day.

I find this to be the most amazing October ever, simply because of AMC's Monsterfest. Who can't appreciate ten full days practically filled to the brim with horror movies? I can handle the terrible censorship, that I'm sure there is, because the more "classic" movies are amazing without all the gore that current movies seem to depend on. The psychological aspect to some of these movies is just amazing. I really hope they decided to play some Zombie movies, but no luck so far. Now while it might be easier to just go out and rent a movie, that's not always the easiest course of action, especially when you're very single.

Although atleast now that I'm single, I'm free to make all the fucking awful decisions I want.