Just some of my recent thoughts, no pictures today!

Lately I've been thinking about the whole piercing, tattoo, hair conflict I've had with my parents over and over again. I took out my tonguepiercing and my tunnels just so that my mum would quit smoking. I'm really happy she did and she kept her part of the deal and hasn't smoked yet. BUT I really miss the piercings. More and more I come to the conclusion that I don't want to be natural nor plain. I'm the kind of 'alternative' chick, I want piercings and weird hair. I want to be able to do that without having to hide it for my parents (like the nipples, hood and the tongueweb I used to have). Wednesday I'm going to get my first tattoo, which will be underneath the panties. It scares the hell out of me just to have yet another thing to hide. It sucks What to do, what to do. I just wish that my future job wouldn't stand in the way of me discovering who I am more and more. The idea of piercings and tattoos is still not a nation-wide accepted concept and I will just not get hired if I have them. I guess that is my parents concern too. And they just dislike them and would feel ashamed towards friends and family. Which of course sucks too for they should accept me for who I am, but that's a whole other part of discussion. Then there is the fact they support me in a whole lot of other ways, like financially. I wouldn't be able to live here with my boyfriend if they didn't. Or I would have to get my money elsewhere and build up a huge debt. If I where to say to them I don't want their money anymore I would feel less guilty for doing stuff I want. But things would be so hard then. And now I feel sellfish for even taking the money anyway. Damn, I'm the thinking type o gall.

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Update from today: me and my boy went on a mountainbike tour, even though it's like 30C here. It was a lot of fun and it made me feel energetic again. The nature was beautiful and I got a little tan.

Also I'm getting more and more stoked about my trip to Laguna Beach. During the weekends I'm free to do what I want and there are a lot of SG and SGevents in California. Hopefully I'll be an SG by then and the parties will rock even harder

Love Suzy

OOPS I dyed my hair (again)


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The past few days two old friends of mine came by. They stayed and slept at our place for two nights, including their dog. It was nice, but I really had to keep the conversations going and be a good hostess i.o.w cook food and stuff. It was exhausting! Damn. I had fun though, it was nice seeing them again even though they are kind of boring and 'husband and wife' like.

I decided to post more pictures. So here yah go!

Also I feel like partying a lot. Just hardcore partying, dancing and boozing. But I haven't drunk alcohol for three months so I don't think it would be a good idea. Then just dancing and having fun, poking boobies maybe (something I really like to do to random strangers)

To do tomorrow:

• Make a painting of me and my love


• Bake pie/cookies


• Re-subscribe to my university


• Check if I need a visum for my stay in Cali


• Work out


• Pay bills


• Play with ChiChi and Boo


• Download tons of new music and films (bad bad girl)


• Get my work to finally pay me

xxx

There are so many beautiful girls in limbo! Thank you Annika for explaining how I can see them, I'm such a dork. I added a whole bunch of them, a lot seem to come from California. And that's were I am going! (it's big I know)

Love SuzyAnn, who is a hopeful, adores all Manko her sets (she has the best personality and rock vibe shine through), thinks Nena has the perfect body, hair and all, likes Candee since she is a lot of fun and votes for this girl she met when shooting with Andrea to become a member!

Really, really like these!
My hopes are not up for my rejected set, I like the set a lot. But the three sets I shot a few weeks ago are great and I hope the will get accepted

Tomorrow I've a resit exam. It's all about exams these days and since my concentration level is about 0 I can't study. I have to thought and it's a really easy exam too. About ageing. Damn

Congratulations Dino for going Pink. Now I just have too!


Old one, nerdy with glasses

[edit] and wondering: how many SGs are in university or have a masters degree? [/edit]
[edit2] just staring at the computer while I've to do stuff, sucks [/edit2]

I can't stop editing. hahah.
Haven't studied yet, played Viva Pinata instead. I love this game, it's my geek addiction! <3

The Galagoogoo

And another addiction: House. Damn I love the sarcasm h displays and of course his totally unorthodox way of handeling patients.

During the weekend at my parents, which was absolutely relaxing, I decided to dye my hair. The hairdresser thought I was an idiot for dying such a beautiful color, I think I'm an idiot right now too

I have new fishes to join my lonely Susanfish. They are called Mon-chou (I baked a pie with it), Aap and Moe. And my cleaning spree was kind of nice, the whole house smells nice instead of like rotten fruit

Damn, this post is ridiculous. Yesterday in bed I thought of my wild imaginations and how I could cluster them. I think writing a book would be great. Crazy idea, but I would love too. Maybe I'm just going to make a start and see what happens. What if I end up in ladiesmagazines talking about the book and make tons of money?! HA!

Okay, now I need to get dressed

Me and my new chuckies

I'm going to my parents this weekend, just chilling. Maybe meeting some friends. Don't know

And I can not do my exam, I missed to much of the obligated study stuff. Damn

My piercing is still gone (long story short: took the lip stud out, no time to put it back in), so is my tongue piercing and my mum is going cold-turkey (this was our deal). The tunnels are not here anymore either, still having my doubts about that though. I loved the glittery ones

I missed to much of my study, so I guess I won't be able to do my exam. Whatever. I can do it next year, even though it was not the plan to have a busy year it doesn't feel that bad.

In the past four weeks three of our loved ones died Goodbye to Teriyaki, Maarten and Slayer. While flushing them down the toilet we said something nice.

The order of the day has been reading books, playing Viva Pinata and sleeping. My mum turned 50 this weekend and sunday and monday were terrible: I had a huge migraine. But now things are okay and I attracted a Galagoogoo (yay!)

Mister P-mod is going to send in my pictures really soon now, let's hope I go pink! SG SuzyAnn, that would be a blast.

Oh and I quit my sorority, it has been fun for three years. But in the end it's all kind of fake and shallow and I just don't belong there. I met some great friends but things are better now, now that I'm gone and don't have those obligations anymore. I'm choosing my own path! Rediscovering me.

How are you all doing?

My weekend was so much fun! <3

Friday I met up with p-mod and we went for a drink, it was great fun even though the rain was coming down as if it where whole swimmingpools every second. We talked and at around 23.30 we met up with DiazArri and nena. I went home to get some sleep, luckily because the next day Dom told me they totally got trashed.

On saturday Dom photographed me, it is a really beautiful set! Thank you so much. I also met my friend Rosy again and Dom and I convinced here to try and become an SG too. Maybe, if I get accepted, I can do a duo-shoot with her once
Then I went to the tattoo-convention. I got to see my piercer again ( Candee), she looked great as always. I also talked to Mirjana, Sjanett, Nena (again, she is sooooo beautiful! damn), Clio, Morrigan, Onani. And a lot of other people! It was fun.
Then about 4 hours later AndreaLavazarro and I had a shoot. It was nice, because there was another beautiful dutch hopeful there and we had fun. Besides that Andrea is so cute too!
I went out with some friends too, we danced the night away and I was home at 06.00 :/

Then after some bus-ticket trouble on sunday I had my last shoot with DiazArri. I think this one turned out really sexy too! And it was fun again.
After this I went home, met my parents and was totally exhausted!!!

But soooo much fun! Thanks Dom, Andrea and Diaz <3

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah I just got ready for a shoot, the shoot is saturday with mister P-mod. But I did my legs, pollished my toenails and such
Idea are forming, but it's hard to find the location I really love.

I might also do a shoot with Andrea an DiazArri, lot to do this weekend!

SuzyAnn - Balloon-hoax