It has been so desperately gray and cool, the rain came so hard today it swallowed the mountain and shook the windows in their frames. I am torn between urges. I want to be still and quiet, alone with my writing and my thoughts, kittens, peppermint tea. But also I want my soft white walls draped in crimson, candle light and bourbon, moving to the slow tattoo of a hand drum, dripping phthalocyanine over raw canvas. Thankfully, I have both the day and the night.
Zoe and Kami

Hello my lovelies.

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A Naughty Fairytale

I also recently discovered Bordelle, which makes particularly lovely things...

The sound of the rain against my window pane is slowly, slowly... driving me insane.
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I am so lost right now. Stumbling over my own feet in the direction of life, half-blind and raving.
So. I take care of small, unloved, broken things. Busy myself with the top layer of my mind so I don't have to look any deeper. Find solace in service, some atonement for some sin I don't even know.

When things are working well, life is fun. When they aren't, it's sad. But even the very best of my over-practiced skills can't make me happy.

I Put A Spell On You

I have a new favorite to share with you. MeltingSexual

I am playtesting at Ubisoft this week, the new Assassin's Creed. It is fun I am getting up with the sunrise and sipping steaming tea on the walk to work. Fall is in full swing, with the first frost warning of the year tonight. I am restless, bourbon-drinking and kitty-petting through the chill. It's time for quiet walks alone in the woods and scarves and knitting. Silky layers of lingerie under rough denim and corduroy and scratchy woolens. Yes, I do believe this moment, just now, is perfect.

This looks hilarious.

Hysteria

Daily Cute:

ON Tuesday afternoon, I found a baby squirrel, eyes still closed,covered in fleas and obviously in distress on the side of the walkway. So, with the help of our vet, I've been nursing her back to health. Her name is Toes. And she is the cutest thing ever.

Random sexy things on the internets... If you like closeups, this is a lovely little tumblr. Also, the model of what a good sex life entails, I think (turning each other on so much you want to share it with the world): Perfect Parts

My oldest, best friend lost her little brother suddenly on Friday night. He just died, for no apparent reason, at home. He was 24, healthy, a soldier. Had just put a downpayment on a condo, and was preparing to propose to his girlfriend. I've known him since he was just a kid. Her family is just devastated. There is nothing in life that can prepare you to bury your child.

So, I am heading in to Toronto, taking the night bus. There is nothing to do but cry.