So....I had a bit of a breakdown yesterday. ^^; a little embarrassing to be honest. I usually don't completely loose it like that. I ended up curled up in the tub sobbing for a few hours which is actually a little rare (well the only thing that can make me do that is the birth control stuff- pills, patch, any dose it doesn't matter it all makes me go NUTS.......yep)
I just wanted to say thanks to Kittie for the internet hug. That was really sweet and totally helped with the feeling better thing.
Well the person on eBay actually threatening physical violence so I was able to report him for that. In OTHER news- I'm saving for a tattoo. I don't just mean "saving" I mean I'm considering chasing people in the street for dollars because I want it NAOW. ^.~ I'm going to start on the line work for my sleeve. It's just going to be one thing at a time.
Actually there is a little story behind this. A few years back a teacher has us do an assignment that involved drawing like.....five important things. so I had a cat, a Japanese lantern, a koi fish, a paint brush, a raincloud (there might have been other things but that's all I can remember.) Over time when I learned about SG and started to desperately want to become a Suicide Girl I started thinking about what sort of tattoo I would want. I've always wanted a tattoo but to be honest- I couldn't really decide on WHAT. Well I decided to redo my "important things" and I ended with that.
The cat to symbolize my babies who I know will come and go. Like my baby Miss Fit who disappeared one night and never came back. As we lived in a rural area.... well when cats never come back- signs don't really help because it is usually a wild animal that got them. Anyhow I wanted a symbol to say that I still loved them. And that I would miss them even after they stopped sleeping on my lap or leaving mouse presents on my slippers to show what great hunters they were. Cats are the forefront because when I was a kid cats were the only friends I had. (lol I even ate cat food with them. I could fit through the cat doors for a long time too. XD) Anyhow Cats are at the front.
Then the Koi fish is to symbolize the grace and beauty that I find in fish. I tend to not ever have fish because they totally don't last with me. But I love swimming and also it stands as a secondary symbol- Mythology. anyone remember the talking fish? Well although it's not my favorite story I let it stand. Anyhow I desperately wanted to be an expert in Mythology and it's historical advantages...and stuff. I studied everything from Japan to Native American. Actually my favorites were from Celtic Mythology, Japan, and India. I started to turn more towards dragons and then the study of how every single culture had some sort of reference to a mythological creature or a "fairy tale". Everywhere had it's own version. I've always wanted to travel and listen to stories from everywhere and stuff. In every story there is a grain of truth yaknow? I have always wanted to piece together the grain of truth in the stories.
Anyhow the next symbol is the paint brush, ink pen, and pencil. Kinda self explanatory right? Art was a big part of my life. I enjoy writing and drawing and i it ties a little with mythology. I enjoy story telling.
Well last but not least is the clouds and rainbow. I love rain. I actually don;t even FUNCTION in the heat. I break out in hives and tend to have passing out fits in sunlight and heat. I venture outside in bulky odd clothes because if I don't I BURN. But I love rain. - to accompany rain goes..... what? RAINBOWS! I love COLOR. I cannot seriously answer what my "least favorite color" is because I really don't even have a favorite. I love them all!
Anyhow I'm going to be slowly getting this tattooed on my arm- but there is a little difference. I'm actually slowly going to be redesigning it. For now it's just the line art. I'm a little hesitant on how to do this because I love to change my mind and I know this. The first symbol on my arm will be the cat. Reiku calls me kitten for a reason and I adore it. As my name means "time cat" because I adore older fashions like the Flappers and the Victorian era-
I'm not certain if this is the final or not. I always draw things onto myself for a "test run" if I really enjoy it then I will probably definitely do it. The position of the cat is important though to me. I want to stretch the cat out in an appealing stretch/slink but I don't feel that sexual or confident. I'm a very shy person (if you would believe it) I've got more drawing to do I think.
*sighs* so expensive though. I found a place that I like though (in Pismo we have A LOT of tattoo parlors. ...on one street. It's a small town..... XD) anyhow- I went tattoo parlor hopping yesterday to meet the people and see what place I felt comfortable in and everyone's prices and stuff. I personally want an artist who not only feels confident but will also work with me and be inspired by my sleeve. I know it's a bit to ask but I want someone who puts their heart and soul into the tattoo and does it justice. I'm going to make a few more visits and make an offer to the artists explaining that I don't want to pick but that I want them to pick me.
I wonder if anyone else has ever done that..... Anyhow ^^ that's all for today.
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Cat
I just wanted to say thanks to Kittie for the internet hug. That was really sweet and totally helped with the feeling better thing.
Well the person on eBay actually threatening physical violence so I was able to report him for that. In OTHER news- I'm saving for a tattoo. I don't just mean "saving" I mean I'm considering chasing people in the street for dollars because I want it NAOW. ^.~ I'm going to start on the line work for my sleeve. It's just going to be one thing at a time.
Actually there is a little story behind this. A few years back a teacher has us do an assignment that involved drawing like.....five important things. so I had a cat, a Japanese lantern, a koi fish, a paint brush, a raincloud (there might have been other things but that's all I can remember.) Over time when I learned about SG and started to desperately want to become a Suicide Girl I started thinking about what sort of tattoo I would want. I've always wanted a tattoo but to be honest- I couldn't really decide on WHAT. Well I decided to redo my "important things" and I ended with that.
The cat to symbolize my babies who I know will come and go. Like my baby Miss Fit who disappeared one night and never came back. As we lived in a rural area.... well when cats never come back- signs don't really help because it is usually a wild animal that got them. Anyhow I wanted a symbol to say that I still loved them. And that I would miss them even after they stopped sleeping on my lap or leaving mouse presents on my slippers to show what great hunters they were. Cats are the forefront because when I was a kid cats were the only friends I had. (lol I even ate cat food with them. I could fit through the cat doors for a long time too. XD) Anyhow Cats are at the front.
Then the Koi fish is to symbolize the grace and beauty that I find in fish. I tend to not ever have fish because they totally don't last with me. But I love swimming and also it stands as a secondary symbol- Mythology. anyone remember the talking fish? Well although it's not my favorite story I let it stand. Anyhow I desperately wanted to be an expert in Mythology and it's historical advantages...and stuff. I studied everything from Japan to Native American. Actually my favorites were from Celtic Mythology, Japan, and India. I started to turn more towards dragons and then the study of how every single culture had some sort of reference to a mythological creature or a "fairy tale". Everywhere had it's own version. I've always wanted to travel and listen to stories from everywhere and stuff. In every story there is a grain of truth yaknow? I have always wanted to piece together the grain of truth in the stories.
Anyhow the next symbol is the paint brush, ink pen, and pencil. Kinda self explanatory right? Art was a big part of my life. I enjoy writing and drawing and i it ties a little with mythology. I enjoy story telling.
Well last but not least is the clouds and rainbow. I love rain. I actually don;t even FUNCTION in the heat. I break out in hives and tend to have passing out fits in sunlight and heat. I venture outside in bulky odd clothes because if I don't I BURN. But I love rain. - to accompany rain goes..... what? RAINBOWS! I love COLOR. I cannot seriously answer what my "least favorite color" is because I really don't even have a favorite. I love them all!
Anyhow I'm going to be slowly getting this tattooed on my arm- but there is a little difference. I'm actually slowly going to be redesigning it. For now it's just the line art. I'm a little hesitant on how to do this because I love to change my mind and I know this. The first symbol on my arm will be the cat. Reiku calls me kitten for a reason and I adore it. As my name means "time cat" because I adore older fashions like the Flappers and the Victorian era-
I'm not certain if this is the final or not. I always draw things onto myself for a "test run" if I really enjoy it then I will probably definitely do it. The position of the cat is important though to me. I want to stretch the cat out in an appealing stretch/slink but I don't feel that sexual or confident. I'm a very shy person (if you would believe it) I've got more drawing to do I think.
*sighs* so expensive though. I found a place that I like though (in Pismo we have A LOT of tattoo parlors. ...on one street. It's a small town..... XD) anyhow- I went tattoo parlor hopping yesterday to meet the people and see what place I felt comfortable in and everyone's prices and stuff. I personally want an artist who not only feels confident but will also work with me and be inspired by my sleeve. I know it's a bit to ask but I want someone who puts their heart and soul into the tattoo and does it justice. I'm going to make a few more visits and make an offer to the artists explaining that I don't want to pick but that I want them to pick me.
I wonder if anyone else has ever done that..... Anyhow ^^ that's all for today.
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Cat
