was looking thru my computer and a lil while back i took some pics with a friend for possibly submitting ( not going to submit it now),. they didnt turn out like id hoped but figured id post one for fun..


ps- chocolate cheerios are amazing...just an fyi !

it's gonna be a single valentine's day for me... my phrase for the weekend is fuck valentines day! ha! i am going to hang out with another single friend and we are going to hate the day together ! lol... went to a local show tonight. it was fun but shitty all at the same time. my ex was there with his new girlfriend and i almost came unglued. had my good friend tiff there with me though so that was good. actually have a little crush going on ( it's a guy and usually i get more girl crushes) but this guy obviously doesn't give me the time of day and is supposedly seeing someone anyways. WIN! NOT! but back to the ex guy it sucks ass to not be able to get over someone when it's been a couple years already. kinda sad/pathetic. oh well... then saw my ex girl at walmart ( who im not speaking to anymore because she is a bit nutso with wanting to know my every move) and totally ignored her for the sake of not having to make conversation and she's said some shitty shit and i have too. blah blah...
on another note i am finally back on the losing weight bandwagon. havent lost anything yet, its only been 3 days. but damnit this next 20 pounds has got to and WILL come off of me!!!! i will be determined and do this this time. it will be healthier, help my self esteem, help my clothes fit ( lol) and make me look better.
i have some pretty neat new hair going on.. i dont have anything on my computer to resize pictures to put one as a profile picture so i figured i'd just post them in here..

haven't written anything in a little while. been pretty busy. work and having some friends stay with me for a few weeks so i havent been online as much. got some work on my tattoos.. gonna post the pictures! i'm just home on lunch break, more later

well, i go back to work tomorrow. i didn't end up having a super great vacation.. it had it's highlights like getting my hair done, spending time with my pets, friends, and family.. but next time i have such a chunk of time off i need to be less broke ( not immediately after christmas) and have more plans. i've been kind of in a slump. making changes isn't the easiest thing for me and when i start to make them i get uneasy.. blah enough of that.
i look forward to going to a local show on friday this week.. and getting to work tomorrow to schedule a few vacation days here and there. wow. thats how much i love my job.
fun news is i am planning to shoot a set with another friend of mine in the next week or two. hopefully it will go well and i can find someone who can photoshop it for me. then in march i get to work with the lovely brooklyn on a couple sets and i really look forward to that!!

so i have my new hair!! got it cut today and dyed it a few days ago! figured i would post a few pictures

vacation week this week.. i don't have much of anything planned. i have already been off since new years eve ( which was fun since i hung with some friends, but depressing since it was the first year with no new years kiss!!! ) .. i am getting a tattoo finished on thursday, and on friday have a hair appt and a show to go to that night.. in between not a whole lot. i've been cold a lot... wearing a lot of layers.. have been doing ddr several times..( decided that eventually i am going to get a tattoo with ddr arrows! ha ) have got to start losing the 20 pounds i am going to get rid of!! my allergies are mean to me. i am going to see new moon tonight for the third time since it came out! leaving you with a cute picture of my bunbun on the cat play thing

kind of a boring night at the moment except that there are plans starting for my ten year high school reunion this summer from facebook and it is kind of exciting because some old friends i havent seen in a long time are planning to come down for it i am ready to get thru the week to new years eve because i have Jan 1-10th off work! WOOO! i am kind of broke after all my christmas shopping though so that sucks.. i think i want to try and get a hair appointment with a girl i have heard of that does unique hair styles.. my hair may be several colors but the cut is boring ( except for the little beginning of a mohawk starting on the bottom part of my head from where my ex hairdresser fucked it up royally) here it is :

so... im hungry ( again) i fully plan on starting my diet again in january but i went holiday crazy there for a little bit.. i guess that's all.. i'm tired

just finished wrapping presents and been listening to tori amos's cd midwinter graces and it is nice i always have loved christmas since i was a little kid.. guess it is something i am pretty traditional about with my family and stuff. tomorrow cmas eve with my dad and then to a couple parties, then cmas day with mom and sisters in the morning and grandma in the evening.. i'm looking forward to it

Sad today about Brittany Murphy dying.. I loved her as an actress and singer.. I feel awful about it and for her family and friends and all.. Here is a kick ass video and a couple pictures...