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Sorry everyone!!!
I have not updated in quite awhile!!! Just want to let you all know that I am okay!
See.....my sister is getting married....TOMORROW. So as her only sibling and her Maid of Honor I have had my hands full! Heck, if I had two more sets of hands (giving me a total of six for those of you not keen on math) those hands would also be full!
*sigh*
Okay....well, I am running off now to get things ready for the rehearsal dinner. I promise, once all this is over, I shall update my blog, post pics, submit a set, and do anything I have to do to make it up to you guys!
*hugs for all!*
Byeeeeee!!!!!
I have not updated in quite awhile!!! Just want to let you all know that I am okay!
See.....my sister is getting married....TOMORROW. So as her only sibling and her Maid of Honor I have had my hands full! Heck, if I had two more sets of hands (giving me a total of six for those of you not keen on math) those hands would also be full!
*sigh*
Okay....well, I am running off now to get things ready for the rehearsal dinner. I promise, once all this is over, I shall update my blog, post pics, submit a set, and do anything I have to do to make it up to you guys!
*hugs for all!*
Byeeeeee!!!!!
About my boobs....
I've been getting a lot of e-mails and questions about my boobs...soooo, I figured I would make a quick post about them so to answer some of the common questions.
My doctor is Dr. Robert Mirabile of Blue Bell, Pennsylvania. You can visit his site here. He is the best! I have not seen this man do a bad boob job yet!
Besides that, he is incredibly sweet, easy to talk to, and stays up to date on all latest medical research.
My implants are placed over the muscle. This is not a typical placement in the USA. Because of the popularity of saline implants, many doctors like to place implants below the muscle to better cover the bags. I prefer the over the muscle placement because I feel that it looks and feels much more natural (since the implant is placed in an area that real breast tissue is found). Also, one does not have to worry about muscle flex deformity with overs. Which is a big concern of mine since I am a pole/aerial dancer.
My implants are silicone, Mentor rounds, moderate profile. I like the look and feel of silicone and since I am over the muscle, it greatly reduces the chances of having any kind of rippling. So far, I don't have ripples so I am hoping I am pretty much in the clear at this point. I think saline implants are nice too, and I have friends who have them and they turned out well.
The size is 300cc in my right breast and 325cc in my left. This brought me from an A to a C cup. A little bigger than I expected...but I am very happy with them so far! I'm just a little sad that I don't fit all of my old clothes. Oh well!
A good forum to check out is
www.cosmeticsurgeryforums.com and the Look Your Best forum.
The Cosmetic Surgery Forum is new...but the members are very nice and answer questions quickly. I am trying to help promote that forum and I hope it continues to do well.
STAY AWAY FROM:
Just Breast Implants Forum
The owner/admin (Nikki) runs it like a Nazi concentration camp. She is more concerned with making sure information on the forum coincides with her own opinions and keeping her sponsors happy than actually trying to help anyone.
She bans members left and right and most of them have been going to Cosmetic Surgery Forums instead. I watched as almost all of my pals on JustBreastImplants were banned for one reason or another...and then I myself was banned because Everyone is tired of your misinformation about overs and unders. (That is literally what appears on my screen when I try to log in.)
Everyone....meaning Nikki. As soon as I was banned, I got a slew of e-mails from people telling me how they miss my comments and how they were also treated badly by Nikki and how some of them even used to work for her. One of her ex-workers told me that Nikki has never liked the "overs placement" and that she is pretty biased about it.
Oh well...just don't go to that forum. The information is edited by the admin so you aren't really getting all the facts. But there are a ton of other good forums out there and there is also a Cosmetic Surgery group here on SG.
Oh yeah...and by the way...the implant forums are not open to men! Sorry guys. Girls only!
If anyone has any other questions about my boobs...feel free to ask!!
I've been getting a lot of e-mails and questions about my boobs...soooo, I figured I would make a quick post about them so to answer some of the common questions.
My doctor is Dr. Robert Mirabile of Blue Bell, Pennsylvania. You can visit his site here. He is the best! I have not seen this man do a bad boob job yet!
Besides that, he is incredibly sweet, easy to talk to, and stays up to date on all latest medical research.
My implants are placed over the muscle. This is not a typical placement in the USA. Because of the popularity of saline implants, many doctors like to place implants below the muscle to better cover the bags. I prefer the over the muscle placement because I feel that it looks and feels much more natural (since the implant is placed in an area that real breast tissue is found). Also, one does not have to worry about muscle flex deformity with overs. Which is a big concern of mine since I am a pole/aerial dancer.
My implants are silicone, Mentor rounds, moderate profile. I like the look and feel of silicone and since I am over the muscle, it greatly reduces the chances of having any kind of rippling. So far, I don't have ripples so I am hoping I am pretty much in the clear at this point. I think saline implants are nice too, and I have friends who have them and they turned out well.
The size is 300cc in my right breast and 325cc in my left. This brought me from an A to a C cup. A little bigger than I expected...but I am very happy with them so far! I'm just a little sad that I don't fit all of my old clothes. Oh well!
A good forum to check out is
www.cosmeticsurgeryforums.com and the Look Your Best forum.
The Cosmetic Surgery Forum is new...but the members are very nice and answer questions quickly. I am trying to help promote that forum and I hope it continues to do well.
STAY AWAY FROM:
Just Breast Implants Forum
The owner/admin (Nikki) runs it like a Nazi concentration camp. She is more concerned with making sure information on the forum coincides with her own opinions and keeping her sponsors happy than actually trying to help anyone.
She bans members left and right and most of them have been going to Cosmetic Surgery Forums instead. I watched as almost all of my pals on JustBreastImplants were banned for one reason or another...and then I myself was banned because Everyone is tired of your misinformation about overs and unders. (That is literally what appears on my screen when I try to log in.)
Everyone....meaning Nikki. As soon as I was banned, I got a slew of e-mails from people telling me how they miss my comments and how they were also treated badly by Nikki and how some of them even used to work for her. One of her ex-workers told me that Nikki has never liked the "overs placement" and that she is pretty biased about it.
Oh well...just don't go to that forum. The information is edited by the admin so you aren't really getting all the facts. But there are a ton of other good forums out there and there is also a Cosmetic Surgery group here on SG.
Oh yeah...and by the way...the implant forums are not open to men! Sorry guys. Girls only!
If anyone has any other questions about my boobs...feel free to ask!!
[Comic Con post]
If you really want to know about it, keep reading. If you came here hoping to see pretty pictures...scroll down.
Anyway!
Just got back from San Diego the other day. It was not my first time working that Con but it was my first time working at the SG booth!
I truly had so much fun helping out at the Suicide Girl booth....I actually can't wait to do it again!
I must admit...I was a bit scared at first. I can be so shy around people (other girls especially) and I never met any of the SGs who were there in person before. I was a bit intimidated at first because it appeared like they all seemed to know each other already...or had close friends who are also SGs. I felt like maybe I might get left out. But that was far from the case!
I can't tell you guys how sweet these girls are!
Every single one of them made conversation with me, involved me in what was happening, and were just so easy to talk to. (and i can be painfully shy at times....so that is no easy feat!) It has been a long time since I have met such a sincere and truly wonderful group of people. It made me proud to be part of this site for as long as I have.
And it made me really want to get more involved on here....to really start helping out as much as possible and seeing these girls not just as my fellow SGs...but also, quite possibly, some of the most awesome people I will ever meet!
I really hope I get the opportunity to do this sort of thing with them more often.
I also got to meet my long time geeky-stuff-bantering-buddy here on SG, OpticNerve, in person! Finally.
He was everything I had hoped for and more.
Smart. Asian. Geeky. And willing to kick Joe Quesada in the balls.
What else could one possibly look for in a friend??
Seriously, I had so much fun with him. We spent quite a bit of time together and I honestly can't think of anyone else I would rather go to Cons with now! I hope to see him again soon!
Things I learned at Comic Con....
I learned that Marvel guys are dicks. Sat in on a whole bunch of Marvel and some DC panels. Even though I am a Marvel girl to my very core...I have to admit, they act like over-grown children and show no respect to their fans. The DC guys were sweet, informative, and polite during their panels. The Marvel guys couldn't stop making shots at DC and thought it was funny to act like jerks to their fans. Very disappointed. Made me want to start reading more DC stuff.
Learned that Marvel is tricky. Titling a panel "The Ultimate Universe must Die!" and then talk for an hour about how they are going to do a huge crossover to save it does not a happy Squeak make. I went there expecting the best news ever. Left the panel disliking Marvel even more. Erg!
Learned that Marvel doesn't actually read the comics they publish. They kept telling us how great the new animated series "Wolverine and the X-Men" is going to be. They claimed that it mimics the series of the 90's and they tried to stick to the comic books as closely as possible. I am pretty sure they claimed it is about 90% canon with the comics. Well.....if that is true...then the 3 episodes they showed were the other 10%!!
I am not totally complaining...it wasn't bad...and I'll most likely avidly watch the show each week....but I am still convinced that Marvel may not actually read their own comics....ever. (PS. Never a good sign when I abuse the ellipsis in a paragraph...)
Learned that Paris Hilton is incapable of reading name tags since she walked right past hers in the Repo panel and sat down in the director's seat. I still don't know how I feel about her being in the movie. Fortunately, there are enough really talented and awesome actors to make up for it.
If you don't know of which movie I speak...I am referring to Repo: The Gentic Opera:
I tried to shamelessly promote the movie a few months ago...but none of you people seemed interested. Well, I'll try it again.
They showed three clips from the movie and they were all awesome!! In the traditional, full of awe kind of way. Check out this clip if you don't believe me:
Look at me or be eaten by a horde of angry three toed sloths!!!
If that song (cheesy or not) doesn't get stuck in your head for the next day or so, you aren't human.
Joss Whedon is the best thing since hairless rats for not only saving X-Men, creating one of my favorite shows, or including Ron Perlman in one of his movies....but also for creating "Dr. Horrible" which they showed at the Con in its entirety. So...friggin....good.
Okay okay...I guess I have written enough now. I know why you guys really read through all that.....
to get to pictures of course!
So here you go...."The Stuff You Don't Have to Read" section of the post:
My BFF Soni and me waiting outside to get in:
Soni and me with Blaze at the SG booth...
My friend Stormtrooper Elvis and I:
Vivid and me...I made her a pinkie-swear that I will not ever get drunk until she comes to visit...she wants to be the first one to get me smashed!
Paris is easily confused:
My bestest Con buddy ever!:
Soni and me:
The Devil appears to us in many forms...sometimes even that of Marvel's Editor-in-Chief, Joe Quesada:
Indian food is Soni's and my favorite....we found a really awesome Indian place too!
Goodbye STE....see you next year...
Soni freaks out looking for her keys and dumps her stuff out onto the road:
I'll post some booth pics later!!
I have to finish my handout for one of the classes I'm teaching at Pennsic this year!!
If you really want to know about it, keep reading. If you came here hoping to see pretty pictures...scroll down.
Anyway!
Just got back from San Diego the other day. It was not my first time working that Con but it was my first time working at the SG booth!
I truly had so much fun helping out at the Suicide Girl booth....I actually can't wait to do it again!
I must admit...I was a bit scared at first. I can be so shy around people (other girls especially) and I never met any of the SGs who were there in person before. I was a bit intimidated at first because it appeared like they all seemed to know each other already...or had close friends who are also SGs. I felt like maybe I might get left out. But that was far from the case!
I can't tell you guys how sweet these girls are!
Every single one of them made conversation with me, involved me in what was happening, and were just so easy to talk to. (and i can be painfully shy at times....so that is no easy feat!) It has been a long time since I have met such a sincere and truly wonderful group of people. It made me proud to be part of this site for as long as I have.
And it made me really want to get more involved on here....to really start helping out as much as possible and seeing these girls not just as my fellow SGs...but also, quite possibly, some of the most awesome people I will ever meet!
I really hope I get the opportunity to do this sort of thing with them more often.
I also got to meet my long time geeky-stuff-bantering-buddy here on SG, OpticNerve, in person! Finally.
He was everything I had hoped for and more.
Smart. Asian. Geeky. And willing to kick Joe Quesada in the balls.
What else could one possibly look for in a friend??
Seriously, I had so much fun with him. We spent quite a bit of time together and I honestly can't think of anyone else I would rather go to Cons with now! I hope to see him again soon!
Things I learned at Comic Con....
I learned that Marvel guys are dicks. Sat in on a whole bunch of Marvel and some DC panels. Even though I am a Marvel girl to my very core...I have to admit, they act like over-grown children and show no respect to their fans. The DC guys were sweet, informative, and polite during their panels. The Marvel guys couldn't stop making shots at DC and thought it was funny to act like jerks to their fans. Very disappointed. Made me want to start reading more DC stuff.
Learned that Marvel is tricky. Titling a panel "The Ultimate Universe must Die!" and then talk for an hour about how they are going to do a huge crossover to save it does not a happy Squeak make. I went there expecting the best news ever. Left the panel disliking Marvel even more. Erg!
Learned that Marvel doesn't actually read the comics they publish. They kept telling us how great the new animated series "Wolverine and the X-Men" is going to be. They claimed that it mimics the series of the 90's and they tried to stick to the comic books as closely as possible. I am pretty sure they claimed it is about 90% canon with the comics. Well.....if that is true...then the 3 episodes they showed were the other 10%!!
I am not totally complaining...it wasn't bad...and I'll most likely avidly watch the show each week....but I am still convinced that Marvel may not actually read their own comics....ever. (PS. Never a good sign when I abuse the ellipsis in a paragraph...)
Learned that Paris Hilton is incapable of reading name tags since she walked right past hers in the Repo panel and sat down in the director's seat. I still don't know how I feel about her being in the movie. Fortunately, there are enough really talented and awesome actors to make up for it.
If you don't know of which movie I speak...I am referring to Repo: The Gentic Opera:
I tried to shamelessly promote the movie a few months ago...but none of you people seemed interested. Well, I'll try it again.
They showed three clips from the movie and they were all awesome!! In the traditional, full of awe kind of way. Check out this clip if you don't believe me:
Look at me or be eaten by a horde of angry three toed sloths!!!
If that song (cheesy or not) doesn't get stuck in your head for the next day or so, you aren't human.
Joss Whedon is the best thing since hairless rats for not only saving X-Men, creating one of my favorite shows, or including Ron Perlman in one of his movies....but also for creating "Dr. Horrible" which they showed at the Con in its entirety. So...friggin....good.
Okay okay...I guess I have written enough now. I know why you guys really read through all that.....
to get to pictures of course!
So here you go...."The Stuff You Don't Have to Read" section of the post:
My BFF Soni and me waiting outside to get in:
Soni and me with Blaze at the SG booth...
My friend Stormtrooper Elvis and I:
Vivid and me...I made her a pinkie-swear that I will not ever get drunk until she comes to visit...she wants to be the first one to get me smashed!
Paris is easily confused:
My bestest Con buddy ever!:
Soni and me:
The Devil appears to us in many forms...sometimes even that of Marvel's Editor-in-Chief, Joe Quesada:
Indian food is Soni's and my favorite....we found a really awesome Indian place too!
Goodbye STE....see you next year...
Soni freaks out looking for her keys and dumps her stuff out onto the road:
I'll post some booth pics later!!
I have to finish my handout for one of the classes I'm teaching at Pennsic this year!!
Tomorrow is the big day!
Gosh...I've been so nervous; I've hardly stopped thinking about it all day.
Part of me just wishes I could travel 3 months into the future and see how they look. Cause the pain and the discomfort; that is all relative to the surgery. It is no big deal. But not knowing how they are going to look at the end of this is what really has me worried!
I mean, I've seen some beautiful work. But! I've seen some really terrible boob jobs too. I just don't want to fall into the latter category. I've been trying to visualize how my breasts might look after this....and hard as I try, I can't! For as well as I know my body, I just can't even begin to imagine how they might look!
I really hope they just end up looking like my boobs....but bigger of course. Because I really do like the overall shape of my natural bust. I just hate that they haven't changed since I was 14!! >
Luckily, today at work I was scheduled with a coworker who has used the same doctor. Seeing her (and her phenomenal boob job) made me feel quite a bit better. We talked for awhile about her experience and it gave me renewed confidence in my decision to do this.
After all....one thing I know is that no matter what people say and no matter what I do, I am very unhappy with my breasts now. I've felt that way for as long as I can remember...so I doubt it will ever change!
What I don't know is how I'll feel about them after this surgery. But I know that there is a good chance that I'll be a great deal happier. And you don't have to be an Actuary to work out those odds!
errrr...but for those of you who failed statistics and probability...here you go--->
Don't get boob job and stay with currant size - 100% probability of dissatisfaction with breasts
Get boob job and take a risk - 50% or less chance of dissatisfaction with breasts
So I have to do this! Even if there is only the slightest chance that I will be happy with the outcome, it is better than no chance at all! I have been unhappy and self-conscious of my breasts for way too long. It is time to take the risk and hope for something better!!
Wish me luck!!
Gosh...I've been so nervous; I've hardly stopped thinking about it all day.
Part of me just wishes I could travel 3 months into the future and see how they look. Cause the pain and the discomfort; that is all relative to the surgery. It is no big deal. But not knowing how they are going to look at the end of this is what really has me worried!
I mean, I've seen some beautiful work. But! I've seen some really terrible boob jobs too. I just don't want to fall into the latter category. I've been trying to visualize how my breasts might look after this....and hard as I try, I can't! For as well as I know my body, I just can't even begin to imagine how they might look!
I really hope they just end up looking like my boobs....but bigger of course. Because I really do like the overall shape of my natural bust. I just hate that they haven't changed since I was 14!! >
Luckily, today at work I was scheduled with a coworker who has used the same doctor. Seeing her (and her phenomenal boob job) made me feel quite a bit better. We talked for awhile about her experience and it gave me renewed confidence in my decision to do this.
After all....one thing I know is that no matter what people say and no matter what I do, I am very unhappy with my breasts now. I've felt that way for as long as I can remember...so I doubt it will ever change!
What I don't know is how I'll feel about them after this surgery. But I know that there is a good chance that I'll be a great deal happier. And you don't have to be an Actuary to work out those odds!
errrr...but for those of you who failed statistics and probability...here you go--->
Don't get boob job and stay with currant size - 100% probability of dissatisfaction with breasts
Get boob job and take a risk - 50% or less chance of dissatisfaction with breasts
So I have to do this! Even if there is only the slightest chance that I will be happy with the outcome, it is better than no chance at all! I have been unhappy and self-conscious of my breasts for way too long. It is time to take the risk and hope for something better!!
Wish me luck!!
Eeeeep!
Only 10 more days until my surgery!
I can't believe how quickly the time is flying by. I must apologize for not updating on here very much. I have so many restrictions during my recovery....I can't even lift anything over 5 lbs for 6 weeks!!! Sooooo....I've been running about pulling double shifts at work, reorganizing the apartment, doing all my spring cleaning, getting things ready for my vacations (I have three separate trips planned), and preparing for the big day.
I hate always upsetting people. I seem to always have at least someone mad at me at any given moment because of my lack of communication. Okay....well, maybe they are not mad per se...just disappointed or upset.
I am slow to respond to e-mails, call people back on the phone, set up days to see friends, update site profiles, etc.... I've always been that way but lately it has been worse. So to all of you who felt ignored, rejected, or put off by me....I am sorry! Truly truly sorry.
I think the trouble is that when most people say they are busy....it is only for a short amount of time and they still have days off to get things done. When I say I am busy....it means that I have every hour of every day actually filled up. I don't sit around, I don't watch TV, I don't play on the computer.....I work, research, clean, work, study, fix, work, plan, prepare, repeat.
I can go for weeks without seeing my absolute closest friends. Those who have remained close to me over the years are the ones who are most forgiving of my hectic, crazy life and blatant lack of communication. Those who try to befriend me and are in need of constant attention and verification are the ones who get angry and disappear from my life within weeks or months.
I feel terrible about it, but what can I do???
I paid the price this weekend for spreading myself too thin. I pushed even the normal boundaries of the crazy amounts of things I do in a day.
I had tried to get out to my fitting for my bridesmaid's dress, take the bride and her bridesmaids out to lunch (I'm Maid of Honor so I have to do these things), stop in the help my grandmother burn a CD on her computer, get dressed, take my sister out to dinner for her birthday, and then get to work late at night to do the show.
Traffic and time were not on my side and I ended up having to leave dinner early to get to work. I got there too late and lost the show and got in trouble with my boss.....and totally messed up my show partner's money...since she can't do a two girl act herself! I felt terrible...really really terrible. I haven't stopped thinking about it all day.
I wish I could say that I learned my lesson and will no longer plan so much in a day. But truthfully, I'll never change and I will always have a million projects running at once. I don't even have time to relax during my recovery. I'll be working on my Comic Con costume, preparing for my classes at Pennsic (I am teaching this year), getting my pavilion ready for Pennsic, making clothes and re-fitting my choli tops for Pennsic, planning my trip to Dragon Con a few weeks later, finishing my costumes for that......amongst all the check ups and craziness I'll have to deal with because of the surgery.
Anywho....I better get going. I really didn't have time to make this post but I needed to vent.
I'll update again soon....and I'll keep you guys informed on my progress after my surgery!!
*hugs*
Only 10 more days until my surgery!
I can't believe how quickly the time is flying by. I must apologize for not updating on here very much. I have so many restrictions during my recovery....I can't even lift anything over 5 lbs for 6 weeks!!! Sooooo....I've been running about pulling double shifts at work, reorganizing the apartment, doing all my spring cleaning, getting things ready for my vacations (I have three separate trips planned), and preparing for the big day.
I hate always upsetting people. I seem to always have at least someone mad at me at any given moment because of my lack of communication. Okay....well, maybe they are not mad per se...just disappointed or upset.
I am slow to respond to e-mails, call people back on the phone, set up days to see friends, update site profiles, etc.... I've always been that way but lately it has been worse. So to all of you who felt ignored, rejected, or put off by me....I am sorry! Truly truly sorry.
I think the trouble is that when most people say they are busy....it is only for a short amount of time and they still have days off to get things done. When I say I am busy....it means that I have every hour of every day actually filled up. I don't sit around, I don't watch TV, I don't play on the computer.....I work, research, clean, work, study, fix, work, plan, prepare, repeat.
I can go for weeks without seeing my absolute closest friends. Those who have remained close to me over the years are the ones who are most forgiving of my hectic, crazy life and blatant lack of communication. Those who try to befriend me and are in need of constant attention and verification are the ones who get angry and disappear from my life within weeks or months.
I feel terrible about it, but what can I do???
I paid the price this weekend for spreading myself too thin. I pushed even the normal boundaries of the crazy amounts of things I do in a day.
I had tried to get out to my fitting for my bridesmaid's dress, take the bride and her bridesmaids out to lunch (I'm Maid of Honor so I have to do these things), stop in the help my grandmother burn a CD on her computer, get dressed, take my sister out to dinner for her birthday, and then get to work late at night to do the show.
Traffic and time were not on my side and I ended up having to leave dinner early to get to work. I got there too late and lost the show and got in trouble with my boss.....and totally messed up my show partner's money...since she can't do a two girl act herself! I felt terrible...really really terrible. I haven't stopped thinking about it all day.
I wish I could say that I learned my lesson and will no longer plan so much in a day. But truthfully, I'll never change and I will always have a million projects running at once. I don't even have time to relax during my recovery. I'll be working on my Comic Con costume, preparing for my classes at Pennsic (I am teaching this year), getting my pavilion ready for Pennsic, making clothes and re-fitting my choli tops for Pennsic, planning my trip to Dragon Con a few weeks later, finishing my costumes for that......amongst all the check ups and craziness I'll have to deal with because of the surgery.
Anywho....I better get going. I really didn't have time to make this post but I needed to vent.
I'll update again soon....and I'll keep you guys informed on my progress after my surgery!!
*hugs*
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