It's probably a good thing no one looks at my blog or anything. Alcohol, Klonopin, and Xanax....such a lovely combination. The road to self destruction is a lonely one, but wow, what a ride. No more excuses. No more denial. I'm headed down a path I don't want to go down but it leads to a destination where I need to be. I wish nothing but the best for all of you, but for me it's over....a few months tops. it's not a threat, a cry for attention, it's something that needs to be done. It's been great everybody and may your future be full of love and joy. Peace and love everyone.

I know should be happy right now, being on vacation and all in beautiful Colorado, but I'm not. I feel myself falling apart at the seams and I can't stop it.