Im so sorry for the wait you guys butttt heres a new video! i apologize if its a bit awkward as i am very exhausted... 
Hey guys long time no post, been very busy working two jobs again! Im a bartender at a strip club here in portland
its hard for me to use my laptop since im always on the go, so if you have an instagram follow me so you can keep up with me!
my user name is christyjade
also i updated my wishlist since its almost my birthday so if you would like to grab something as a birthday gift take a gander at that! most appreciated.
I will probably be making a new video soon here for you guys i am very humbled and feel like i have a lot of advice to give so look forward to that too!
been working on my set for you guys, its bioshock themed, meaning masks and such!
kisses!
its hard for me to use my laptop since im always on the go, so if you have an instagram follow me so you can keep up with me!
my user name is christyjade
also i updated my wishlist since its almost my birthday so if you would like to grab something as a birthday gift take a gander at that! most appreciated.
I will probably be making a new video soon here for you guys i am very humbled and feel like i have a lot of advice to give so look forward to that too!
been working on my set for you guys, its bioshock themed, meaning masks and such!
kisses!
I feel like all the friends I once had here in Portland have forgotten about me... I cant really shake the feeling I guess I just feel lonely. I need new portland/ washington friends
I am awfully sorry for not updating as I should have for awhile, things looked up, I was able to fix my car thanks to some of the help from you guys, and got a job at a bar here in portland... And I am still getting interviews. Things are a little easier for me right now and I am ever so thankful that I held in there for as long as I did. Its a constant reminder to myself and to everyone close to me that things really do get better but however, you must remember that things wont change UNLESS YOU DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
I stayed up late nights applying online, got my OLCC and never gave up... and now..... things are working out..
I stayed up late nights applying online, got my OLCC and never gave up... and now..... things are working out..
If i have ever helped you...
I got the awful news today that to fix my car would be 650$
a am about 300$ short
I am so overwhelmed right now with so my anxiety and stress. Im not sure what I'm going to do. I have been looking for a second job non stop, often losing sleep... I walk 45 minutes to the light rail then take the light rail to city center then walk another 20 minutes, which honestly isnt so bad the worst is when i get off work at 3 am and i have to wait until 5 am to catch the first light rail...I often get home at 7 am and only get about 6 hours of sleep until i have to get up and do it all over again...Last saturday I was forced into having to get pepper spray when someone followed me from work to the light rail asking me for sex. It was the scariest thing,
so i sit here in tears, anxious worried, I am never one to ask for money, but If my videos have ever helped you, or I have ever helped you with advice i could use your help right now. Even if you help with just 1$ it would still help. I am trying the best I can to keep my head above the water but right now I cant. I know life doesnt come easy, but i could sure use the help. I'll make you a special thank you video, Ill even video chat with you and you can tell me your dreams and your worries, we can watch movies on netflix together too...so please help out i would be forever thankful..MY BIRTHDAY is coming up so if you wanted to get me a gift, donating money would be perfect, even if its 1$ it would help me so so so much right now.
My paypal
my email address in : pnklemonadenhugs@hotmail.com
the axel is decimated, it needs to be replaced as well as the frame and the light :/
please please please help
I got the awful news today that to fix my car would be 650$
a am about 300$ short
I am so overwhelmed right now with so my anxiety and stress. Im not sure what I'm going to do. I have been looking for a second job non stop, often losing sleep... I walk 45 minutes to the light rail then take the light rail to city center then walk another 20 minutes, which honestly isnt so bad the worst is when i get off work at 3 am and i have to wait until 5 am to catch the first light rail...I often get home at 7 am and only get about 6 hours of sleep until i have to get up and do it all over again...Last saturday I was forced into having to get pepper spray when someone followed me from work to the light rail asking me for sex. It was the scariest thing,
so i sit here in tears, anxious worried, I am never one to ask for money, but If my videos have ever helped you, or I have ever helped you with advice i could use your help right now. Even if you help with just 1$ it would still help. I am trying the best I can to keep my head above the water but right now I cant. I know life doesnt come easy, but i could sure use the help. I'll make you a special thank you video, Ill even video chat with you and you can tell me your dreams and your worries, we can watch movies on netflix together too...so please help out i would be forever thankful..MY BIRTHDAY is coming up so if you wanted to get me a gift, donating money would be perfect, even if its 1$ it would help me so so so much right now.
My paypal
my email address in : pnklemonadenhugs@hotmail.com
the axel is decimated, it needs to be replaced as well as the frame and the light :/
please please please help
It's been so rough the past few days. I've had to try to pick up myself from being so negative but life just gets so hard. I've been working so hard to find another job, trying so hard to fix things with my family, but things just arent working out for me. Its hard to really pick yourself up.
Not even my videos cheered me up.
I'm terribly lonely. My roommate is never home now because he has a girlfriend now, I don't have many friends here and the ones I do are more focused on partying. I've never felt so depressed in my life. I find myself crying each night because of this. I wish I had someone to laugh with, someone to be happy with I know give it time and I will but the overwhelming loneliness is too much right now since I already have so much on my plate.
I hate falling asleep alone and At times, I hate that I wake up. Im trying guys. Im really trying to keep moving forward. But I'm not moving anywhere.
I need encouragement, I need positive vibes, I need someone to be there for me this time, I need someone to tell me that everything will be okay..I feel so defeated.
Not even my videos cheered me up.
I'm terribly lonely. My roommate is never home now because he has a girlfriend now, I don't have many friends here and the ones I do are more focused on partying. I've never felt so depressed in my life. I find myself crying each night because of this. I wish I had someone to laugh with, someone to be happy with I know give it time and I will but the overwhelming loneliness is too much right now since I already have so much on my plate.
I hate falling asleep alone and At times, I hate that I wake up. Im trying guys. Im really trying to keep moving forward. But I'm not moving anywhere.
I need encouragement, I need positive vibes, I need someone to be there for me this time, I need someone to tell me that everything will be okay..I feel so defeated.
