This feels weird. It's strange being back here. I won't be here for long, I can't afford to renew when this 3 month thingy runs out, so regardless of whether it was SG's cock-up, you're stuck with me 
So many of my favourite people have gone since I left, and my favourite 2 SG's have also gone grey
Thankfully I have one on my friends list on Facebook, so I know she's still doing okay 
So yeah, I guess I'd better get used to writing blogs again, eh?
So many of my favourite people have gone since I left, and my favourite 2 SG's have also gone grey
Thankfully I have one on my friends list on Facebook, so I know she's still doing okay So yeah, I guess I'd better get used to writing blogs again, eh?
So, um, yeah, hello, remember me?
Never thought I'd be back but some amazing anonymous person just gifted me a 3 month membership. Wow!
Um, I'm lost for words right now, so if I actually have any friends left on here, say hi
Never thought I'd be back but some amazing anonymous person just gifted me a 3 month membership. Wow!
Um, I'm lost for words right now, so if I actually have any friends left on here, say hi
I've just cancelled my account. It's time for me to take my leave of the site and wish you all a fond farewell.
I've enjoyed my time here, but I'm losing my job at the end of next month, and with the current economic situation as it stands in the town I live in, I am not hopeful of finding something as well paid or as loved as the job I'm currently in, so every penny counts right now.
To be honest, I hardly ever log in here anyway as my time is mainly spent on the Last Chaos forums as I became a Game Sage a couple of months ago.
You can find me here = MySpace
Or here = Facebook
Or come and find GS snowballinhell on the Last Chaos Website - who knows, you may even want to stay and play too
Please stay in touch as I'll miss some of you like crazy, and Happy Holidays to you all if I don't speak to you beforehand.
Much love
Michelle xx
I've enjoyed my time here, but I'm losing my job at the end of next month, and with the current economic situation as it stands in the town I live in, I am not hopeful of finding something as well paid or as loved as the job I'm currently in, so every penny counts right now.
To be honest, I hardly ever log in here anyway as my time is mainly spent on the Last Chaos forums as I became a Game Sage a couple of months ago.
You can find me here = MySpace
Or here = Facebook
Or come and find GS snowballinhell on the Last Chaos Website - who knows, you may even want to stay and play too
Please stay in touch as I'll miss some of you like crazy, and Happy Holidays to you all if I don't speak to you beforehand.
Much love
Michelle xx
Too tired to post properly, clocks changed about 45 minutes ago so one lot is saying 2.45am, the others 3.45am. Either way, i should be in bed. Asleep
I really don't mind what happens now and then, as long as you'll be my friend til the end
I'm full of wallowing, whiny self-pity today, so if you don't want to read my complete and utter bollocks, I shall bid you goodnight and let you rest in peace.
I'm full of wallowing, whiny self-pity today, so if you don't want to read my complete and utter bollocks, I shall bid you goodnight and let you rest in peace.
I scrape through my English exams with C's and the only other recognised certified exam I have is an RSA Pitman Typewriting exam. Whoopie do. No wonder I feel so completely and utterly dumb and a failure compared to, oh, I dunno, practically 99.9% of my friends list on here. You know, the ones with A-Levels and degrees. Me, I'm just the resident thicko.I have THE most amazing set of friends. In the World. No, seriously I do 
This weekend simply ROCKED. Best Saturday night/Sunday morning I have had in fuck knows how long and it really did me the world of good. In fact the only sadness about it was we were all in London to say goodbye to a pixie who's off to Canada for 13 weeks. Rhia honey, the airbed has your name on it at my house when you come back, we will pack the kids off to bed and have a lovely girlie night of movies, drink and chat
Well ok, I think I can say that there is also a bit of a sigh in the fact that I don't get to see all of them as much as I would like. I hope that I can rectify this as I really want to see them all a lot more than I get chance to.
Old friends and brand new friends alike, you are witnessing the blog of a very happy Snowball. Staying up til gone 4am with good friends, laughing, drinking and smoking, and then crashing on an airbed (thanks for saying I could sleep on it Mark) for a few hours before having to get up and leave in the pouring rain to catch buses and lots of tubes to get back to where I should have been staying, just made the weekend even better in the end. Who said spontaneity isn't good for you?
I picked up some good books at Forbidden Planet too, Grant Morrison has me hooked right now.
I think I will end with the following thanks to just a select few folks from the weekend, (and it would appear lots of the word ROCK!):
CreamyGoodness and TheQuestion: Heaps of thanks for putting up with an extra guest at the Nerd Cave. You guys ROCK at Rock Band, simply breathtaking
rdpixie: Thanks for being an amazing girl, you have the strength to do whatever you want and I am so proud of you
mat8drb: Thanks for such wonderful renditions on Rock Band. ROCK! And also for yummy yummy cake
The_Happy_Pig: Never have I laughed so much in one evening, thank you for twisting my arm into joining you all back at the Nerd Cave, I am so glad I went with gut instinct and ended up having the best night I've had this year. You ROCK! But you knew that already, didn't you
And finally, recommend a tune for me to listen to this week as my top five genres/hours on my media player seems to be:
Rock - 89.5 hours
Alternative: - 12.9 hours
Punk - 12 hours
Rock/Pop - 11.1 hours
Indie - 9.5 hours
I also appear to have something classified as "Industrial Jungle Pussy Punk"
Otherwise known as Mindless Self Indulgence 
Love you all, some way more than others
Michelle xx
This weekend simply ROCKED. Best Saturday night/Sunday morning I have had in fuck knows how long and it really did me the world of good. In fact the only sadness about it was we were all in London to say goodbye to a pixie who's off to Canada for 13 weeks. Rhia honey, the airbed has your name on it at my house when you come back, we will pack the kids off to bed and have a lovely girlie night of movies, drink and chat Well ok, I think I can say that there is also a bit of a sigh in the fact that I don't get to see all of them as much as I would like. I hope that I can rectify this as I really want to see them all a lot more than I get chance to.
Old friends and brand new friends alike, you are witnessing the blog of a very happy Snowball. Staying up til gone 4am with good friends, laughing, drinking and smoking, and then crashing on an airbed (thanks for saying I could sleep on it Mark
) for a few hours before having to get up and leave in the pouring rain to catch buses and lots of tubes to get back to where I should have been staying, just made the weekend even better in the end. Who said spontaneity isn't good for you? I picked up some good books at Forbidden Planet too, Grant Morrison has me hooked right now.
I think I will end with the following thanks to just a select few folks from the weekend, (and it would appear lots of the word ROCK!):
CreamyGoodness and TheQuestion: Heaps of thanks for putting up with an extra guest at the Nerd Cave. You guys ROCK at Rock Band, simply breathtaking
rdpixie: Thanks for being an amazing girl, you have the strength to do whatever you want and I am so proud of you
mat8drb: Thanks for such wonderful renditions on Rock Band. ROCK! And also for yummy yummy cake
The_Happy_Pig: Never have I laughed so much in one evening, thank you for twisting my arm into joining you all back at the Nerd Cave, I am so glad I went with gut instinct and ended up having the best night I've had this year. You ROCK! But you knew that already, didn't you
And finally, recommend a tune for me to listen to this week as my top five genres/hours on my media player seems to be:
Rock - 89.5 hours
Alternative: - 12.9 hours
Punk - 12 hours
Rock/Pop - 11.1 hours
Indie - 9.5 hours
I also appear to have something classified as "Industrial Jungle Pussy Punk"
Otherwise known as Mindless Self Indulgence Love you all, some way more than others
Michelle xx
*runs in, waves hello*
Off to London on Friday, if any of you are around Friday night and wish to keep me amused, let me know ASAP I have to go to our Canary Wharf offices on the Friday morning so I will not be on here from Thursday (those of you with my mobile number, text me if you can come out), then I'm being taken out to a pub for lunch and lots of drinks and to watch the cricket. Bliss All paid for by the company. Even more bliss And then I'm pretty much on my own once I get back to Covent Garden and get booked in.
But yes, I will be there for 2 nights, Friday night - no plans (why did I almost type no pants???!! Haha), Saturday off to say cheerio to Rhia before she departs for Canadian shores to train as a wrestler for 3 months or so.
*runs out again waving ta-ta*
Miss you lots
Off to London on Friday, if any of you are around Friday night and wish to keep me amused, let me know ASAP
I have to go to our Canary Wharf offices on the Friday morning so I will not be on here from Thursday (those of you with my mobile number, text me if you can come out), then I'm being taken out to a pub for lunch and lots of drinks and to watch the cricket. Bliss All paid for by the company. Even more bliss And then I'm pretty much on my own once I get back to Covent Garden and get booked in.But yes, I will be there for 2 nights, Friday night - no plans (why did I almost type no pants???!! Haha), Saturday off to say cheerio to Rhia before she departs for Canadian shores to train as a wrestler for 3 months or so.
*runs out again waving ta-ta*
Miss you lots
So......yeah, been a while again hasn't it...... To be honest, I'm on Facebook more than here these days, so hop on over there if you wanna catch up more regularly
Things have still been pretty much up and down in the world of snowballinhell.
Good news (gotta start with the good stuff first, yeah?) - I finally got me a loan sorted Thank you Black Horse Finance for saving my butt and allowing me to clear old debt and start afresh. Two cards cleared, two accounts back in the black and only one still to sort which is now manageable thanks to the loan. Thank the goddesses for that! And also thank you darling Lisa for loaning me the money last time to allow my mortgage payment to go through, I will forever be grateful
My brother was on the National Lottery mid-week draw last week No, he wasn't a winner, or the person who chose the set of balls and machine.....he was the actual Drawmaster on live TV that night!!!! Woooooo!! My big brother's famous He's usually in the background where you can't see him, just in case the machine's break down, but that night he did the live draws!!
Other news (not really gonna call it bad news as it's a bit of both really) - finally had enough of David today. As you know I'd pretty much written off our long distance relationship (if you could even call it that!) due to the cocaine taking/dealing, but tonight I've decided to nail the damn coffin shut myself after finding out that on what would have been the anniversary of our first year of knowing each other, he's off to Jersey to spend it with a much younger girl. Well FUCK YOU asshole. I'm better off without you, despite the hurt I'm feeling. FUCK YOU for not having the guts to talk to me about it and instead just ignoring me completely. It's OVER. Finito, kaput. Adios jerk.
Unfortunately this means that I probably won't be headed back up the Newcastle way as often as before, as now I don't have somewhere to stay that doesn't cost me a bean. Which means that i won't get up to see my dear friend Gareth as much as I would like, unless I happen to be headed up Manchester way and pop over the 2 hours journey along the way
So in the midst of all this, maybe trying to lose weight wasn't probably the best time to do it I started off ok, lost 16 pounds, but this week I've eaten like the preverbial sow and have probably put 7 of it back on. Sheesh.
I'm off on the family holiday next Saturday for a week. Should be ok (despite having to spend a complete week with the husband and not having a computer to escape to in the evenings when the kids have gone to bed), although I know for sure I will have Last Chaos withdrawal symptoms within at least 24 hours of leaving here, and my Scott will want the PS2 within about 4 hours, bless him! Nathan on the other hand will not be bothered either way, and the old man will be stressed from the driving and putting up with Scott whinging about not having anything to do!
I'm still at Chevron, still have NO idea how long for. Have passed my 2 year mark already with them, and still no closer to knowing when I'm likely to be given notice, so for now I'll just plod on with the task in hand and take the money at the end of each week.
My internet connection is driving me round the twist too. I'm having to literally switch off the mains to get the damn thing to work properly sometimes and as usual it ends up losing the connection right in the middle of something important. Like my game......or writing this damn blog which I'm going to have to save in a word document, switch off the pc and restart yet again
Yet my service provider insists that there are no service issues in the area. Hmmmm...........
What else? Oh yeah, I've got Alkaline Trio's new CD and am LOVING it, also got The Offspring's latest one too and that's pretty damn good aswell. Have FF7 - Advent Children to watch tomorrow on DVD, and have been catching up on all the Twilight Zone programs, one disc at a time courtesy of that DVD rental company that sends you them in the post and you just return when finished
So, I think that's about it in my life right now.
Love to you all
Michelle xx
Things have still been pretty much up and down in the world of snowballinhell.
Good news (gotta start with the good stuff first, yeah?) - I finally got me a loan sorted
Thank you Black Horse Finance for saving my butt and allowing me to clear old debt and start afresh. Two cards cleared, two accounts back in the black and only one still to sort which is now manageable thanks to the loan. Thank the goddesses for that! And also thank you darling Lisa for loaning me the money last time to allow my mortgage payment to go through, I will forever be grateful My brother was on the National Lottery mid-week draw last week
No, he wasn't a winner, or the person who chose the set of balls and machine.....he was the actual Drawmaster on live TV that night!!!! Woooooo!! My big brother's famous He's usually in the background where you can't see him, just in case the machine's break down, but that night he did the live draws!!Other news (not really gonna call it bad news as it's a bit of both really
) - finally had enough of David today. As you know I'd pretty much written off our long distance relationship (if you could even call it that!) due to the cocaine taking/dealing, but tonight I've decided to nail the damn coffin shut myself after finding out that on what would have been the anniversary of our first year of knowing each other, he's off to Jersey to spend it with a much younger girl. Well FUCK YOU asshole. I'm better off without you, despite the hurt I'm feeling. FUCK YOU for not having the guts to talk to me about it and instead just ignoring me completely. It's OVER. Finito, kaput. Adios jerk.Unfortunately this means that I probably won't be headed back up the Newcastle way as often as before, as now I don't have somewhere to stay that doesn't cost me a bean. Which means that i won't get up to see my dear friend Gareth as much as I would like, unless I happen to be headed up Manchester way and pop over the 2 hours journey along the way
So in the midst of all this, maybe trying to lose weight wasn't probably the best time to do it
I started off ok, lost 16 pounds, but this week I've eaten like the preverbial sow and have probably put 7 of it back on. Sheesh. I'm off on the family holiday next Saturday for a week. Should be ok (despite having to spend a complete week with the husband and not having a computer to escape to in the evenings when the kids have gone to bed), although I know for sure I will have Last Chaos withdrawal symptoms within at least 24 hours of leaving here, and my Scott will want the PS2 within about 4 hours, bless him! Nathan on the other hand will not be bothered either way, and the old man will be stressed from the driving and putting up with Scott whinging about not having anything to do!
I'm still at Chevron, still have NO idea how long for. Have passed my 2 year mark already with them, and still no closer to knowing when I'm likely to be given notice, so for now I'll just plod on with the task in hand and take the money at the end of each week.
My internet connection is driving me round the twist too. I'm having to literally switch off the mains to get the damn thing to work properly sometimes and as usual it ends up losing the connection right in the middle of something important. Like my game......or writing this damn blog which I'm going to have to save in a word document, switch off the pc and restart yet again
Yet my service provider insists that there are no service issues in the area. Hmmmm...........What else? Oh yeah, I've got Alkaline Trio's new CD and am LOVING it, also got The Offspring's latest one too and that's pretty damn good aswell. Have FF7 - Advent Children to watch tomorrow on DVD, and have been catching up on all the Twilight Zone programs, one disc at a time courtesy of that DVD rental company that sends you them in the post and you just return when finished
So, I think that's about it in my life right now.
Love to you all
Michelle xx
I think the final nail has been driven into the LDR tonight as I've just found out from him that he's dealing cocaine. I cannot handle that on top of everything else that's going wrong right now. I have SERIOUS money problems and he's spending over £100 on cocaine to sell on. I'm not a happy person at all right now, I am so stressed with trying to get enough money together by Wednesday to ensure that my mortgage payment goes through, and trying to factor in food money too, that this has just about had me in tears.
I have no one I can go to for a loan, the bank has already turned me down because I can't keep my account in the black for long enough, and my parents don't have spare cash just lying around as they are both retired.
I feel
I'm tired and if it wasn't for my kids I'd just curl up in a ball and not wake up tomorrow.
Give me some cheery news...please!
I have no one I can go to for a loan, the bank has already turned me down because I can't keep my account in the black for long enough, and my parents don't have spare cash just lying around as they are both retired.
I feel
I'm tired and if it wasn't for my kids I'd just curl up in a ball and not wake up tomorrow.Give me some cheery news...please!
Wow, it's been a while, hasn't it
I don't even know where to begin to be honest it's been that long! I've just not logged into here much at all, until the past couple of weeks, so forgive me if what I end up saying actually makes no sense whatsoever, it'll just be random thoughts and stuff
I'm off to London on Saturday as it's my birthday, and already 2 people that I haven't seen for 2 years aren't free to meet up due to other plans I have no doubts at all that this year I will have NO where near as much fun as I did last year when I was in Manchester. But that might be something to do with the fact that I won't (as far as I know!) have a gorgeous man sharing my bed with me this year. *sigh* ah well, can't have it all, all the time can we Although just some of the time would be nice once in a while!
My LDR seems to be fizzling out which makes me slightly sad but in some respects quite relieved too. I can't cope with feeling second best to weed and drink. Fed up with being left on my own after having travelled over 285 miles to get there, just because he has "issues". So we'll continue to be friends, but I don't think I'll be heading up there much anymore. I need to feel appreciated and respected, I'm the sort of person that if I'm with someone, I need touch, I need to be kissed and held and I wasn't getting any of that. To be left on your own at night to find when you wake in the morning that the person you came to spend time with has gone to sleep downstairs, is not good for morale at all. It's happened too many times now and I've had enough. My self-confidence is low at the best of times, and this has made it pretty much hit rock bottom.
But, I am also getting to the stage where I'm beginning to wonder whether I'll ever get out of the "friend" zone with anyone. Those that I've been interested in over the past couple of years have either got partners, or can't even cope with keeping up with role-playing online because it's not something they've been used to. Even the person I spent most of my birthday with last year said that we were just friends who'd had a good time. I feel hurt and used sometimes, and it's not a nice feeling coming up to my birthday! What also doesn't seem to be helping is that since the doctor put me on the mini-pill last September, it has made me extra super horny. Not good when I'm not getting any action at all!!
I need to seriously work on my health issues too. My weight is back to where it was over 2 years ago, and I hate the fact that I've gone backwards again (although part of this also has to do with the mini-pill). Nothing at the moment seems to be working. I don't have the mindset to go back to the Cambridge Diet, so I've stopped all contact with my counsellor, it's not fair on her. I've even had a couple of hypnotherapy sessions, which while they have been amazing, have done nothing for helping me stop buying the crap. In fact all they seem to have done is open up my mind to seriously weird stuff. I've had premonitions that have come true, and some really freaked out dreams. One in particular that keeps haunting me at the moment and I can't tell why I'm having it.
I'm still working, they haven't got rid of me yet! There's only 2 of us contractors left now and neither of us have been given any indication of how long we'll be there. I'm guessing it'll be later in the year for me as I've been given a new project to work on which has only gone live over the past month and as I'm the only person trained on it, I'm hopeful that I'll be kept on until that too gets shipped overseas.
So, that's pretty much it I think. There's bound to be stuff I've forgotten, but my brain is still hooked on Last Chaos
Anyone free next Saturday is most welcome to come to London and join me for my birthday. You know, even those of you overseas should just hop on a plane and come over He he.
Love to you all
Michelle xx
I don't even know where to begin to be honest it's been that long! I've just not logged into here much at all, until the past couple of weeks, so forgive me if what I end up saying actually makes no sense whatsoever, it'll just be random thoughts and stuff
I'm off to London on Saturday as it's my birthday, and already 2 people that I haven't seen for 2 years aren't free to meet up due to other plans
I have no doubts at all that this year I will have NO where near as much fun as I did last year when I was in Manchester. But that might be something to do with the fact that I won't (as far as I know!) have a gorgeous man sharing my bed with me this year. *sigh* ah well, can't have it all, all the time can we Although just some of the time would be nice once in a while!My LDR seems to be fizzling out which makes me slightly sad but in some respects quite relieved too. I can't cope with feeling second best to weed and drink. Fed up with being left on my own after having travelled over 285 miles to get there, just because he has "issues". So we'll continue to be friends, but I don't think I'll be heading up there much anymore. I need to feel appreciated and respected, I'm the sort of person that if I'm with someone, I need touch, I need to be kissed and held and I wasn't getting any of that. To be left on your own at night to find when you wake in the morning that the person you came to spend time with has gone to sleep downstairs, is not good for morale at all. It's happened too many times now and I've had enough. My self-confidence is low at the best of times, and this has made it pretty much hit rock bottom.
But, I am also getting to the stage where I'm beginning to wonder whether I'll ever get out of the "friend" zone with anyone. Those that I've been interested in over the past couple of years have either got partners, or can't even cope with keeping up with role-playing online because it's not something they've been used to. Even the person I spent most of my birthday with last year said that we were just friends who'd had a good time. I feel hurt and used sometimes, and it's not a nice feeling coming up to my birthday! What also doesn't seem to be helping is that since the doctor put me on the mini-pill last September, it has made me extra super horny. Not good when I'm not getting any action at all!!
I need to seriously work on my health issues too. My weight is back to where it was over 2 years ago, and I hate the fact that I've gone backwards again (although part of this also has to do with the mini-pill). Nothing at the moment seems to be working. I don't have the mindset to go back to the Cambridge Diet, so I've stopped all contact with my counsellor, it's not fair on her. I've even had a couple of hypnotherapy sessions, which while they have been amazing, have done nothing for helping me stop buying the crap. In fact all they seem to have done is open up my mind to seriously weird stuff. I've had premonitions that have come true, and some really freaked out dreams. One in particular that keeps haunting me at the moment and I can't tell why I'm having it.
I'm still working, they haven't got rid of me yet! There's only 2 of us contractors left now and neither of us have been given any indication of how long we'll be there. I'm guessing it'll be later in the year for me as I've been given a new project to work on which has only gone live over the past month and as I'm the only person trained on it, I'm hopeful that I'll be kept on until that too gets shipped overseas.
So, that's pretty much it I think. There's bound to be stuff I've forgotten, but my brain is still hooked on Last Chaos
Anyone free next Saturday is most welcome to come to London and join me for my birthday. You know, even those of you overseas should just hop on a plane and come over
He he.Love to you all
Michelle xx
