it's been a mixed bag lately...
i've been gearing up for next year's cosplay circuit. went thrift shopping yesterday and came up with two complete outfits, just put the finishing touches on one today. also went back to black hair, the blonde was growing out badly and $3 bottle of black from walmart is much less than half tank of gas, a quart (or more) of oil, and $15 in bleach
i've had some recent events to knock me on my ass that i'm not going to go into detail on here... i'm just amazed at how i constantly get vilified for being myself. i really don't understand it. all i can think right now is "i really don't need this kind of drama in my life, friendships and romances are not supposed to cause this much stress and trouble!"
so yeah... trying to not let things get me down, and they haven't for the most part... but i'm starting to get angry, and me angry is not a good thing. especially when there's plenty of other things i'd rather do (and should be doing!) than sit here and stew. at least anger is something familiar
i've been gearing up for next year's cosplay circuit. went thrift shopping yesterday and came up with two complete outfits, just put the finishing touches on one today. also went back to black hair, the blonde was growing out badly and $3 bottle of black from walmart is much less than half tank of gas, a quart (or more) of oil, and $15 in bleach
i've had some recent events to knock me on my ass that i'm not going to go into detail on here... i'm just amazed at how i constantly get vilified for being myself. i really don't understand it. all i can think right now is "i really don't need this kind of drama in my life, friendships and romances are not supposed to cause this much stress and trouble!"
so yeah... trying to not let things get me down, and they haven't for the most part... but i'm starting to get angry, and me angry is not a good thing. especially when there's plenty of other things i'd rather do (and should be doing!) than sit here and stew. at least anger is something familiar
we're starting something new at the zombie safari (commonly referred to as paintball hayride) this weekend. if you're a halo fan, come check it out!
also i posted something on my facebook recently and figured i'd share here : "ruby spitfire woke with the thought of 'why is thinking for yourself such a bad thing?' so many people who claim to hate stupidity surround themselves with narrow-minded individuals. is it because they enjoy manipulating others, or because they are being manipulated themselves..." it's is something to think about. a person whose work i admire and (sadly, former) co-employee commented positively on my fb post... but then i said something that apparently angered one of her friends, someone i don't know and have never met or spoken to, and the friend started attacking me. really now people? just more drama... i'm really getting sick of this place. people wonder why i have no friends. there is a common mob mentality here, i thought it was just moberly but it is obviously the whole state. if you have a viewpoint that is different from anyone else and try to show concern over something they (or their friends) are doing, the entire mob of followers is going to bumrush you. i understand that it is important to have friends to support you when you are feeling down or going through a hardship, but acting like nothing more than a pack of wild dogs to anyone with a different opinion or even advice on the subject is just unacceptable. this is the second time this has happened to me in the last year with two different people. i'm more of the mind that you keep your problems to yourself unless it's something so horrible that you need advice and support, and a true friend isn't going to go stir up trouble with a complete stranger. that isn't helping, that's just making you look like an ass for being friends with those kind of people
also i posted something on my facebook recently and figured i'd share here : "ruby spitfire woke with the thought of 'why is thinking for yourself such a bad thing?' so many people who claim to hate stupidity surround themselves with narrow-minded individuals. is it because they enjoy manipulating others, or because they are being manipulated themselves..." it's is something to think about. a person whose work i admire and (sadly, former) co-employee commented positively on my fb post... but then i said something that apparently angered one of her friends, someone i don't know and have never met or spoken to, and the friend started attacking me. really now people? just more drama... i'm really getting sick of this place. people wonder why i have no friends. there is a common mob mentality here, i thought it was just moberly but it is obviously the whole state. if you have a viewpoint that is different from anyone else and try to show concern over something they (or their friends) are doing, the entire mob of followers is going to bumrush you. i understand that it is important to have friends to support you when you are feeling down or going through a hardship, but acting like nothing more than a pack of wild dogs to anyone with a different opinion or even advice on the subject is just unacceptable. this is the second time this has happened to me in the last year with two different people. i'm more of the mind that you keep your problems to yourself unless it's something so horrible that you need advice and support, and a true friend isn't going to go stir up trouble with a complete stranger. that isn't helping, that's just making you look like an ass for being friends with those kind of people
fear fest opening night! como peeps, come out to midway and try your hand at the zombie safari! hit me if you can, i WON'T have a giant bullseye on my head 
and with a dimming of lights and three loud pops that sounded like gunshots... my baby is dead again. ARGH!!!
truck is done and running GREAT, made it to afw and got my autographs (and almost didn't make it back, poor little car got tired!), and now in the process of getting a place. life is still fairly good at this point.
i had a little bit of a health scare this past month and will be making a doctor's appointment as soon as it's financially feasable. i'm hoping it's nothing important, but considering my usual turn of luck and the fact that things are going well for the moment...
i'm scared
i had a little bit of a health scare this past month and will be making a doctor's appointment as soon as it's financially feasable. i'm hoping it's nothing important, but considering my usual turn of luck and the fact that things are going well for the moment...
i'm scared
