Yuk, I am so not happy.
One of my most favourite SG's got archived: Lonnie.
If I could only look totally like her..
One of my most favourite SG's got archived: Lonnie.
If I could only look totally like her..
Why can't I just close my mind and work on my thesis?
I am just sad, sometimes, but my friend says that I should stop whining and just do some work.
Am I not allowed to cry a bit after ending a year and 4 months relationship?
I thought I was doing pretty fucking good, I didn't break down, but apparently, when you're acting tough you should keep up the act and crying is not allowed.
I just can't concentrate.
At the moment I just FEEL alone. I know I am not really, plenty of friends, but I just FEEL crap.
I AM SORRY!
I am just sad, sometimes, but my friend says that I should stop whining and just do some work.
Am I not allowed to cry a bit after ending a year and 4 months relationship?
I thought I was doing pretty fucking good, I didn't break down, but apparently, when you're acting tough you should keep up the act and crying is not allowed.
I just can't concentrate.
At the moment I just FEEL alone. I know I am not really, plenty of friends, but I just FEEL crap.
I AM SORRY!
Yes yes y'all.
6th of July: Social D in Amsterdam once again.
This message frigging made my day!
6th of July: Social D in Amsterdam once again.
This message frigging made my day!
Some things need to change drastically in my life. I just feel like I don't want to, I love those aspects of my life. I might be born for richess, I might be born for great things, but now, I just want to live and laugh.
2 months before the final grades need to be handed in. 2 months of stress, and then, I can live?
2 months before the final grades need to be handed in. 2 months of stress, and then, I can live?
I have been listening to my guilty pleasure song for days now:
I even listen to it three, four times in a row.
I don't know what this means. I also want to throw stuff around like she does.
Favourite quote: "How come I never hear you say: I just wanna be with you? Guess you never felt that way.."
I think my relationship might be failing. Not because we don't love each other a lot, but I am his first real girlfriend and he tries hard but he just doesn't know that well how it works.
When you leave your love in your bed while you go for "a" drink, it's not that weird that she is upset when you're not home at 5.30, and that when you're called and you say "I'll be there in a bit" and you're not home by 7.00 that she is pissed off and feels neglected, because you chose a group of friends who embody the happy single life with drugs and booze and girls over her ONCE AGAIN.
I get so sick of arguing about these things. Maybe we should leave it at this.
Ofcourse, when these shit things don't happen, everything is great. I just have very, very low self esteem and I can't stand it anymore to feel rejected again and again for a group of friends. I am starting to hate these guys now, even though I know they are fun.
Blegh.
On top of everything, in the museum this morning, a kid (like 5 years old) beat another kid a bleeding nose. Poor thing was covered in blood. He was such a good boy!
I even listen to it three, four times in a row.
I don't know what this means. I also want to throw stuff around like she does.
Favourite quote: "How come I never hear you say: I just wanna be with you? Guess you never felt that way.."
I think my relationship might be failing. Not because we don't love each other a lot, but I am his first real girlfriend and he tries hard but he just doesn't know that well how it works.
When you leave your love in your bed while you go for "a" drink, it's not that weird that she is upset when you're not home at 5.30, and that when you're called and you say "I'll be there in a bit" and you're not home by 7.00 that she is pissed off and feels neglected, because you chose a group of friends who embody the happy single life with drugs and booze and girls over her ONCE AGAIN.
I get so sick of arguing about these things. Maybe we should leave it at this.
Ofcourse, when these shit things don't happen, everything is great. I just have very, very low self esteem and I can't stand it anymore to feel rejected again and again for a group of friends. I am starting to hate these guys now, even though I know they are fun.
Blegh.
On top of everything, in the museum this morning, a kid (like 5 years old) beat another kid a bleeding nose. Poor thing was covered in blood. He was such a good boy!
Hi everyone,
hope you're all good. I am quite okay. Still trying to get back into the swing of university.
As I am behind the computer and telephone all day at work, I don't feel like it anymore when I am off. So I am hardly online and not much on the phone like I used to, for hours!
Am still quite busy, still trying to find the ideal balance for a life with a full-time job, acquiring a BA degree, being healthy, and partying as much as possible. I have to work on this balance. It's not really IN balance at the mo.
So, now I'm off to work on my thesis, to clean my dirrtty house and find a bike and a gym. Positive: I start yoga this thursday (l).
6 months till summer. Also this year I will try to lose some weight.. 12 kilos please?
X!
hope you're all good. I am quite okay. Still trying to get back into the swing of university.
As I am behind the computer and telephone all day at work, I don't feel like it anymore when I am off. So I am hardly online and not much on the phone like I used to, for hours!
Am still quite busy, still trying to find the ideal balance for a life with a full-time job, acquiring a BA degree, being healthy, and partying as much as possible. I have to work on this balance. It's not really IN balance at the mo.
So, now I'm off to work on my thesis, to clean my dirrtty house and find a bike and a gym. Positive: I start yoga this thursday (l).
6 months till summer. Also this year I will try to lose some weight.. 12 kilos please?
X!
There is a girl chasing after MY man.
I know these kind of girls. They are cut throat. What does she have to do with me? Nothing. She knows what she wants and she will work for it. So she is slowly planning her scheme, step by step, first boobs in his face, some innocent flirting, trying to put us up against each other. He doesn't notice it, ofcourse. But now I have pointed it out and he will and he will feel flattered: which man wouldn't? I got CRAZY last night. I was extremely tired and hung over, sitting at this lame afterparty, waiting for him to go home. Usually I do exactly what I want, now I just didn't want him to stay there with her lurking, with her hot fucking breathe in his neck.
Worst thing is that it is actually a nice girl. Just the fact that she wants my man bothers me. BIG TIME.
I know this all sounds paranoide. But I have always been right about these things.
And, yes, the real issue is: why can't I trust my man? Besides from the fact that these kind of girls will do whatever it takes.. she would seduce every chance she gets. And I don't trust the male sex to say no to a pretty fun sexy naked woman when she sits on your lap and your girl is far away and you are drunk and doped up. My man did nothing to deserve this kind of mistrust. But I cannot help it. I don't trust men. And no women either. Men because they are weak. Women are just bitches if they choose to be.
I know these kind of girls. They are cut throat. What does she have to do with me? Nothing. She knows what she wants and she will work for it. So she is slowly planning her scheme, step by step, first boobs in his face, some innocent flirting, trying to put us up against each other. He doesn't notice it, ofcourse. But now I have pointed it out and he will and he will feel flattered: which man wouldn't? I got CRAZY last night. I was extremely tired and hung over, sitting at this lame afterparty, waiting for him to go home. Usually I do exactly what I want, now I just didn't want him to stay there with her lurking, with her hot fucking breathe in his neck.
Worst thing is that it is actually a nice girl. Just the fact that she wants my man bothers me. BIG TIME.
I know this all sounds paranoide. But I have always been right about these things.
And, yes, the real issue is: why can't I trust my man? Besides from the fact that these kind of girls will do whatever it takes.. she would seduce every chance she gets. And I don't trust the male sex to say no to a pretty fun sexy naked woman when she sits on your lap and your girl is far away and you are drunk and doped up. My man did nothing to deserve this kind of mistrust. But I cannot help it. I don't trust men. And no women either. Men because they are weak. Women are just bitches if they choose to be.
