Here's a pic of me at my dinner party. I hate my hair Some where My cool rock star hair that I loved turned into Soccer mom. sigh

But my dinner party went well I believe here's some pics...







Great fun.....

artwork I'm looking at



I love the work of this artist !!! Gianluca Mattia check out the other works

What I'm listening too:



well I hope everyone is doing great

Another Night of not sleeping, Just tossing and turning looking at the clock a couple times a hour. Hate sleepless nights, if shows that my days are going to be filled with mistakes and upsets.

So Yesterday I got this email from a friend of mine : "not to bring up a sore subject for u or anything but u make it really difficult to interpret correctly what ur trying to say when ur messages lack spelling, grammar, and punctuation, sorry... ".....

and Yeah I got my feelings hurt, I think it's the best to always be honest with People and tell them how it is,, but I feel like he snubbed me here . Maybe I'm being insensitive and I should take blame on the fact that I just don't care about my grammar and such matters. ( I actually got A's in English) but I guess I do care since my feelings got hurt. I care because I don't go around and point out everyone's faults in Life, I have that done to me way to much and I don't think it's fair... I thanked him for being honest and for letting me know why he rarely returned my emails.

which I didn't get a reply from....

Artwork I'm looking at :



Amy Sol is really a great artist check out her other work.

Tomorrow I'm making ribs for my friends and yes I'm very nervous very nervous. I spent way to much money on my ribs and I have nothing left for sides, except maybe mash and green beans.... sigh I hope it goes well

music I"m listening to


What I"m watching on Youtube :



I'm in love with this Cinnamon coffee Yummy

well off to my shitty I mean wonderful job....

I awoke up at 4 am this morning to so much anxiety. Today I have a huge chip on my shoulder!!! and I don't know even where to start on it

Things that annoy me right now:

1. People who use People
2. liars
3. Girls that make kissing faces in photo's
4. spray tans
5. People in Relationships.

Okay I get that these are all my issues in being swept aside by men for women who love to tan and make Kissing faces and that shop at famous Mall stores. Right now I'm cringing bc this really is not me.

On a happy note though I'm drinking yummy coffee that has Cinnamon in it thank you Branden for the idea !!!

Last night I was asked to go out for boys night with the boys. Because I'm always going to be looked at like one of the guys..... Thanks



artwork I"m looking at milk great stuff

music I'm loving :

she has a very beautiful voice

hopefully I can find my balance today...

Hey SG Peeps, It's another beautiful day, in bumfuck pa !!!! Just getting off work at a crappy job that I don't like. Story of many people in the world I know. I'm house sitting for Aunt for almost a month which I'm happy about I have a lot more space , hot water and food in my fridge.

I'm afraid to wash my hair I'm afraid that once I do, i won't be able to style it... lol I'm very clueless when It comes to being girly and doing hair and makeup



I love this persons tattoo

I"m really having a hard time in thinking what I should do with my sleeve I have started blah why is this so hard!!!
Not a lot going on right now write more later

I got my hair cut yesterday, I really like it!!! I was very nervous when she was doing it bc it's so different then what I'm use to and I'm very picky.
Feeling a lot better today still a little tired and a little pale, but doing okay

Today I have to fit in 3 days of work into one day so much shit to do it's not funny... but here I sit on the computer like I have all the time in the world.

I'm house sitting for my aunt and I have it even packed for it ha, She's taking me grocery shopping and I have to get stuff for my rib party on saturday. Which I think it's sorta funny, Me the Vegan serving up ribs, sigh I feel like a traitor


Here's a funny video lol or I think it's funny, I think I look fat, I know I"m not fat but I look fat lol

I"m looking at this artist



Candybird

I love her too
Her artwork is so dark and cute and makes me smile

I hope your enjoying these artist I want to open people's doors a little bit and show them what is out there it the world. Just what I do

I hear that there's a new Johnny Depp Movie coming out Rum diary's which I can't wait to see, Love him but also I've read the book and loved it


well hope everyone has a wonderful day and I hope I hear from you all
kisses

Good Morning SG, Today I'm sick ... So my NYC trip was canceled, and I was suppose to meet with a good friend of mine that is amazing photographer, to see if I could make my dreams come true about becoming PInk.

When I say sick I'm talking about seizures and I had a woozy one that my friend that was driving did not feel like it was a good of me to still go. I was angry with him but I know now that he's right. Sometimes when I get seizures I get these horrible headaches that my doc says are called Ticks it actually feels like my brain is moving in my head, it's really not but that's what it feels like

So today is going to be filled with looking at this

Natalie Shue she is amazing artist become a fan on facebook her work is wonderful!!!

I will be playing these games today as well :

Robot Unicorn

and WarHammer

My dark elf is very hot....

So if anyone is bored Please talk to me because I'm going to be bored all day and it's nice here so I can't go enjoy the weather or anything
kisses

I love this pic!!!

Last night I want and watched Alice in Wonderland with pawko4b, it was his treat since I"m so very poor right now. I really enjoyed the movie and we say it in 3D as well which was very good !!!
I couldn't take my eyes off the screen. Why is it always so cold in the movies, I was shivering and my nipps were hard haha


I want one of these, Vanilla bourbon it sounds so yummy !!!

Today I called off work, which yes I will be getting written up for my knees are huge softballs and I'm in so much pain. but I can't keep working on them and ruining them more, People call off for being hungover I always go to work. Though my shitty boss hung up on me after I told her really gets me mad

It's actually sunny today and I hear warm though I won't be able to do anything bc of my legs this is really exciting for me. tired of this cold fucking weather.



3D glasses are just way cool



this is my shadow and I thought it was cool

have a great day

New Hair color with the new Ink, I never thought going darker was something I would like. it's a black brown and I love it !!!!



last night I went to bed at 9 pm and slept to 630 am it felt good. I guess it's some needed sleep


I got this bc someone thought it was me.... ummm I wish I looked like that

I do want to say I'm sorry about my last post sigh I just need someone to talk to.... I have no one or everyone is busy,I'm finding new friends but I feel like I all ready should be looking for a new set of new friends..lol why is it so hard to make friends
I ended my relationship with hot boy toy... Yes not wise to give yourself freely to someone, I thought I deserve better and he pretty much shrugged and said sorry but whatever I found someone I was interested in anyway Stupid girl feelings !!!! I just told him I deserve something better then a booty call and now I'm sitting around wondering why I was it good enough, I will never understand it

dark naked pic...



Peace
xoxo

BE WARNED THIS IS A BLOG OF TOTAL SADNESS

I'm tired of always giving, and giving to People, I really can't give anymore. I giving money,objects and myself.

I'm tired of my legs hurting
I'm tired of not being respected
I'm tired of not being important
I'm tired of my family
my friends ( which really I don't think I have any)

My legs, I have a torn ACL and minscist which I'm sure is spelled wrong I need open knee surgery, I can't afford to be off work. so what do I do...... I work I suck it up and work on bad knees and by the end of my shift I smile in to no one can see me and then I cry in pain and my legs are twisted in so much pain. My family is sick of driving me every where and my mom wants to buy me a bike so they don't have to do it anymore 7 miles she wants me to ride a bike, I sit there and I listen and I say what ever would be easy for them. They want me to drive, they want me too grow up and suck it up and just drive. haha I can't drive bc I have really bad seizures, I have it had a license for 3 years.....

My friends talk to me tell me all their problems and when I reach out to them it's all silent, so silent no one is there. My Bff from Nyc was killed two weeks ago shot in the head, I didn't go to her funeral, lol I have it talked about it, so concern for everyone else they needed me then now they don't . I have nothing to keep this pain away, I have no one to talk to. Guys love talking to me about there problems they can't believe how easy I am to talk to but when a hot little thing turns there head I'm forgot with a sorry but I'm into someone else.I'm tired.

I hurt, and whiskey is my only friend this is all I have is drunkness and a bottle and smokes and I'm so tired

6:30 am in the morning can we say it ewwww. ...

Lumi set I love this set, I'm not one to share with everyone's set that I like the most but this one is really a good one and I wanted to share it

I didn't sleep good last night. My dreams or I guess my nightmares over took my fake happiness that I love to latch on to.I see myself falling into this depression again wishing that I was it the only one that felt this way. All I ask out of life is great friendships and happiness for me and everyone. I work towards this goal all the time.

I need my haircut really bad but I'm so poor it's not funny, food is scarce , and my eyebrows look like they are about to grow together.





my house is a mess and I feel like I can just brake down and cry....

Goals for today

1.smile at everyone
2.do dishes
3.look up things to do to make your knees stronger
4. Look at naked girls on SG

Hopefully this stuff will put me in a great mood today !!!!