New Hair color with the new Ink, I never thought going darker was something I would like. it's a black brown and I love it !!!!
last night I went to bed at 9 pm and slept to 630 am it felt good. I guess it's some needed sleep
I got this bc someone thought it was me.... ummm I wish I looked like that
I do want to say I'm sorry about my last post sigh I just need someone to talk to.... I have no one or everyone is busy,I'm finding new friends but I feel like I all ready should be looking for a new set of new friends..lol why is it so hard to make friends
I ended my relationship with hot boy toy... Yes not wise to give yourself freely to someone, I thought I deserve better and he pretty much shrugged and said sorry but whatever I found someone I was interested in anyway
Stupid girl feelings !!!! I just told him I deserve something better then a booty call and now I'm sitting around wondering why I was it good enough, I will never understand itdark naked pic...
Peace
xoxo
BE WARNED THIS IS A BLOG OF TOTAL SADNESS
I'm tired of always giving, and giving to People, I really can't give anymore. I giving money,objects and myself.
I'm tired of my legs hurting
I'm tired of not being respected
I'm tired of not being important
I'm tired of my family
my friends ( which really I don't think I have any)
My legs, I have a torn ACL and minscist which I'm sure is spelled wrong I need open knee surgery, I can't afford to be off work. so what do I do...... I work I suck it up and work on bad knees and by the end of my shift I smile in to no one can see me and then I cry in pain and my legs are twisted in so much pain. My family is sick of driving me every where and my mom wants to buy me a bike so they don't have to do it anymore 7 miles she wants me to ride a bike, I sit there and I listen and I say what ever would be easy for them. They want me to drive, they want me too grow up and suck it up and just drive. haha I can't drive bc I have really bad seizures, I have it had a license for 3 years.....
My friends talk to me tell me all their problems and when I reach out to them it's all silent, so silent no one is there. My Bff from Nyc was killed two weeks ago shot in the head, I didn't go to her funeral, lol I have it talked about it, so concern for everyone else they needed me then now they don't . I have nothing to keep this pain away, I have no one to talk to. Guys love talking to me about there problems they can't believe how easy I am to talk to but when a hot little thing turns there head I'm forgot with a sorry but I'm into someone else.I'm tired.
I hurt, and whiskey is my only friend this is all I have is drunkness and a bottle and smokes and I'm so tired
I'm tired of always giving, and giving to People, I really can't give anymore. I giving money,objects and myself.
I'm tired of my legs hurting
I'm tired of not being respected
I'm tired of not being important
I'm tired of my family
my friends ( which really I don't think I have any)
My legs, I have a torn ACL and minscist which I'm sure is spelled wrong I need open knee surgery, I can't afford to be off work. so what do I do...... I work I suck it up and work on bad knees and by the end of my shift I smile in to no one can see me and then I cry in pain and my legs are twisted in so much pain. My family is sick of driving me every where and my mom wants to buy me a bike so they don't have to do it anymore 7 miles she wants me to ride a bike, I sit there and I listen and I say what ever would be easy for them. They want me to drive, they want me too grow up and suck it up and just drive. haha I can't drive bc I have really bad seizures, I have it had a license for 3 years.....
My friends talk to me tell me all their problems and when I reach out to them it's all silent, so silent no one is there. My Bff from Nyc was killed two weeks ago shot in the head, I didn't go to her funeral, lol I have it talked about it, so concern for everyone else they needed me then now they don't . I have nothing to keep this pain away, I have no one to talk to. Guys love talking to me about there problems they can't believe how easy I am to talk to but when a hot little thing turns there head I'm forgot with a sorry but I'm into someone else.I'm tired.
I hurt, and whiskey is my only friend this is all I have is drunkness and a bottle and smokes and I'm so tired
6:30 am in the morning can we say it ewwww. ...
Lumi set I love this set, I'm not one to share with everyone's set that I like the most but this one is really a good one and I wanted to share it
I didn't sleep good last night. My dreams or I guess my nightmares over took my fake happiness that I love to latch on to.I see myself falling into this depression again wishing that I was it the only one that felt this way. All I ask out of life is great friendships and happiness for me and everyone. I work towards this goal all the time.
I need my haircut really bad but I'm so poor it's not funny, food is scarce , and my eyebrows look like they are about to grow together.
my house is a mess and I feel like I can just brake down and cry....
Goals for today
1.smile at everyone
2.do dishes
3.look up things to do to make your knees stronger
4. Look at naked girls on SG
Hopefully this stuff will put me in a great mood today !!!!
Lumi set I love this set, I'm not one to share with everyone's set that I like the most but this one is really a good one and I wanted to share it
I didn't sleep good last night. My dreams or I guess my nightmares over took my fake happiness that I love to latch on to.I see myself falling into this depression again wishing that I was it the only one that felt this way. All I ask out of life is great friendships and happiness for me and everyone. I work towards this goal all the time.
I need my haircut really bad but I'm so poor it's not funny, food is scarce , and my eyebrows look like they are about to grow together.
my house is a mess and I feel like I can just brake down and cry....
Goals for today
1.smile at everyone
2.do dishes
3.look up things to do to make your knees stronger
4. Look at naked girls on SG
Hopefully this stuff will put me in a great mood today !!!!
So Good Afternoon my little SG friends.!!!! I got off work to a very boring day of just sitting around and staring at other servers and of course wishing i was somewhere else. Always wishing I was somewhere else does it matter where I am.
Here's my friend Heather from last night, I love this girl she's so funny,
My friend got out of Jail, and I'm going to help him pay half his fine people are saying thank you. It makes me feel weird when they say that, I'm not doing it to feel better about myself.
There's something else weird going on in my life too and I don't know how this happen, I have a friend who use to talk to me all the time and then just stopped texting me. He talks to me when I see him or when I send him a email but there's never any contact on his part in less I do it. Well I have another friend who is digging him and she's only texting him or Facebooking him she's really pretty but I don't think they have anything in common but a lot of ink. anyway she started asking me what she should say to him and I told her things that I remember talking to him about , to make a long story short she asks me all the time what she should say, if I'm with her she shows me a text and asks me what I would say ( ???) I'm such a god dame people pleaser I do it , I know stop doing it right but he wants to take her on a date and she's nervous cause she knows that she wouldn't be able to have the same convo. with him, and then I'm getting upset cause I'm like OH so I have to be really pretty to keep his friendship and I ended up calling him shallow and of course he has no clue bc she needs to tell him it was me not her this is so crazy and immature I know.
Here's my friend Heather from last night, I love this girl she's so funny,
My friend got out of Jail, and I'm going to help him pay half his fine people are saying thank you. It makes me feel weird when they say that, I'm not doing it to feel better about myself.
There's something else weird going on in my life too and I don't know how this happen, I have a friend who use to talk to me all the time and then just stopped texting me. He talks to me when I see him or when I send him a email but there's never any contact on his part in less I do it. Well I have another friend who is digging him and she's only texting him or Facebooking him she's really pretty but I don't think they have anything in common but a lot of ink. anyway she started asking me what she should say to him and I told her things that I remember talking to him about , to make a long story short she asks me all the time what she should say, if I'm with her she shows me a text and asks me what I would say ( ???) I'm such a god dame people pleaser I do it , I know stop doing it right but he wants to take her on a date and she's nervous cause she knows that she wouldn't be able to have the same convo. with him, and then I'm getting upset cause I'm like OH so I have to be really pretty to keep his friendship and I ended up calling him shallow and of course he has no clue bc she needs to tell him it was me not her this is so crazy and immature I know.
good morning SG land !!!
First things First I want to thank The_Captain for gifting me a whole year of SG. So Yes I will be around so much longer now !!!
Yesterday it was actually sunny out and it didn't snow one bit.... I'm really getting sick of this snow, enough is enough !!! I heard birds chirping so I hope that 's a sign that spring will be here sooner then thought.
Today is my last day off and my friends going home tomorrow !! I feel like all we've done is eat and sleep and get drunk. I've been drinking so much and falling asleep way before 1 am and I keep thinking am i getting old or what?
This is my curse from last night absinthe some nasty shit that tastes gross but does the job guickly
no no didn't see any green fairies or anything like that just got drunk
So I can't wait for the new Final fantasy game to come out !!! yay
I've always been a fan of Final fantasy games since the first one. Hopefully this won't disappoint.
Got some work done on my tattoo :
here's the problem though I can't think what else to do I want a sleeve but I don't know how to tie all this in.
Any Idea's ?
First things First I want to thank The_Captain for gifting me a whole year of SG. So Yes I will be around so much longer now !!!
Yesterday it was actually sunny out and it didn't snow one bit.... I'm really getting sick of this snow, enough is enough !!! I heard birds chirping so I hope that 's a sign that spring will be here sooner then thought.
Today is my last day off and my friends going home tomorrow !! I feel like all we've done is eat and sleep and get drunk. I've been drinking so much and falling asleep way before 1 am and I keep thinking am i getting old or what?
This is my curse from last night absinthe some nasty shit that tastes gross but does the job guickly
no no didn't see any green fairies or anything like that just got drunk
So I can't wait for the new Final fantasy game to come out !!! yay
I've always been a fan of Final fantasy games since the first one. Hopefully this won't disappoint.
Got some work done on my tattoo :
here's the problem though I can't think what else to do I want a sleeve but I don't know how to tie all this in.
Any Idea's ?
Well this is it gang,
sad day in deed SG Billing is telling me I need to renew my account as of yesterday. But why the hell can I still go on? If it was yesterday I don't have that card anymore. I 'm really going to miss you all and who else am I going to wine too. And I didn't even get to shoot any thing yet lol I might be back and I love you all
hrode1@yahoo.com find me on facebook
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sad day in deed SG Billing is telling me I need to renew my account as of yesterday. But why the hell can I still go on? If it was yesterday I don't have that card anymore. I 'm really going to miss you all
and who else am I going to wine too. And I didn't even get to shoot any thing yet lol I might be back and I love you allhrode1@yahoo.com find me on facebook
Heater2 twitter
Hello Sg
It's the weekend and I'm stuck in bed doped up on meds and Green Ice tea. the weekends should be filled with fun times with friends but not for me.
New things going on in my life: good and bad
1.
I love this person, I call him Josie He's a new friend that has a nice lovely southern Accent He's coming to visit me sunday - wed to spend time with me . This is something to look forward to.
2.I'm putting a end to dealing with drama a crazy people in my life, A friend of mine no a ex friend of mine crossed a line today, She thought it would be cool to tell 12 new friends I made that I Over dosed last night
I can't make excuses for people anymore. I don't understand why things happen or why People do what they do but I can't except them anymore, Too my new friends who might walk away from me because this "friend" has been saying crazy things to them I understand, who wants to deal with this crazy bullshit - I made a choice though that if I find anyone talking to this "friend" or on one of their networks ( myspace, facebook) I will delete them and not talk to them again harsh? maybe but I don't want this type of negativity in my life anymore
I love his work....
this is a pretty good mash up lol
I really need to know how to better my life, I'm doing something wrong , Mistakes are about learning from them but I'm tired of learning and learning and People living good lives. so what's your ideas on it
It's the weekend and I'm stuck in bed doped up on meds and Green Ice tea. the weekends should be filled with fun times with friends but not for me.
New things going on in my life: good and bad
1.
I love this person, I call him Josie He's a new friend that has a nice lovely southern Accent He's coming to visit me sunday - wed to spend time with me . This is something to look forward to.2.I'm putting a end to dealing with drama a crazy people in my life, A friend of mine no a ex friend of mine crossed a line today, She thought it would be cool to tell 12 new friends I made that I Over dosed last night
I can't make excuses for people anymore. I don't understand why things happen or why People do what they do but I can't except them anymore, Too my new friends who might walk away from me because this "friend" has been saying crazy things to them I understand, who wants to deal with this crazy bullshit - I made a choice though that if I find anyone talking to this "friend" or on one of their networks ( myspace, facebook) I will delete them and not talk to them again harsh? maybe but I don't want this type of negativity in my life anymore
I love his work....
this is a pretty good mash up lol
I really need to know how to better my life, I'm doing something wrong , Mistakes are about learning from them but I'm tired of learning and learning and People living good lives. so what's your ideas on it
$3 Long Island Pitchers night what fun!!!
It was fun but yet filled with drama of course, chick fights , police, random old men hitting on me, random old men starting fights with my friends, more chick fights fun fun fun oh and I was in bed by 1 am
I think this is funny
My life is boring lately
PIc number 3
Rise and shine Beautiful : hahaha
I laugh because I look like I litterer had to fight off crack whores in a epic movie or something.
It's 6 am and I'm not happy SG land. Why because I had no heat on at all in my apartment!!
Everything in my being is cold !!!!
Here's some great Movies from the 1999, I'm going to find them to put in my movie library
1. BEING JOHN MALKOVICH (Spike Jonze) 2. MAGNOLIA (Paul Thomas Anderson) 3. AMERICAN BEAUTY (Sam Mendes) 4. FIGHT CLUB (David Fincher) 5. THE TALENTED MR. RIPLEY (Anthony Minghella) 6. EYES WIDE SHUT (Stanley Kubrick) 7. AUDITION (Takashi Miike) 8. THE INSIDER (Michael Mann) 9. BOYS DON'T CRY (Kimberly Pierce) 10. GO (Doug Liman)
I have to work today which I'm not happy about . but at least it didn't snow. I'm sorta sick of this blasted snow and being cold
Have a good day SG maybe I'll write later
Rise and shine Beautiful : hahaha
I laugh because I look like I litterer had to fight off crack whores in a epic movie or something.
It's 6 am and I'm not happy SG land. Why because I had no heat on at all in my apartment!!
Everything in my being is cold !!!!
Here's some great Movies from the 1999, I'm going to find them to put in my movie library
1. BEING JOHN MALKOVICH (Spike Jonze) 2. MAGNOLIA (Paul Thomas Anderson) 3. AMERICAN BEAUTY (Sam Mendes) 4. FIGHT CLUB (David Fincher) 5. THE TALENTED MR. RIPLEY (Anthony Minghella) 6. EYES WIDE SHUT (Stanley Kubrick) 7. AUDITION (Takashi Miike) 8. THE INSIDER (Michael Mann) 9. BOYS DON'T CRY (Kimberly Pierce) 10. GO (Doug Liman)
I have to work today which I'm not happy about . but at least it didn't snow. I'm sorta sick of this blasted snow and being cold
Have a good day SG maybe I'll write later
Picture number 2
My smile is a little too big for my liking
Okay so Last night I went out , and had a really fun time., I forgot my camera so no pics but there would have been some really great shots.
I drank a little to much and ended up doing country line dancing which I don't even know how to do this
I like this work no clue on who it is by but it's done well and I love it
Today on my todo list is to scrub my damn living room. I've been in this not cleaning shit at all and I don't like it.
YEsterday I spilled my whiskey and soda on the floor and when I cleaned it up I noticed how dirty the wooden floors were.
not the best post talking about cleaning but sometimes reality grabs a hold of me and shakes me with such force, My friend is sending me a late bday present on sunday at my work. I'm a little nervous by this bc she has a weird sense of humor and the fact that it's being sent to my work, My radar is up and flashing WARNING !!!!
