BE WARNED THIS IS A BLOG OF TOTAL SADNESS

I'm tired of always giving, and giving to People, I really can't give anymore. I giving money,objects and myself.

I'm tired of my legs hurting
I'm tired of not being respected
I'm tired of not being important
I'm tired of my family
my friends ( which really I don't think I have any)

My legs, I have a torn ACL and minscist which I'm sure is spelled wrong I need open knee surgery, I can't afford to be off work. so what do I do...... I work I suck it up and work on bad knees and by the end of my shift I smile in to no one can see me and then I cry in pain and my legs are twisted in so much pain. My family is sick of driving me every where and my mom wants to buy me a bike so they don't have to do it anymore 7 miles she wants me to ride a bike, I sit there and I listen and I say what ever would be easy for them. They want me to drive, they want me too grow up and suck it up and just drive. haha I can't drive bc I have really bad seizures, I have it had a license for 3 years.....

My friends talk to me tell me all their problems and when I reach out to them it's all silent, so silent no one is there. My Bff from Nyc was killed two weeks ago shot in the head, I didn't go to her funeral, lol I have it talked about it, so concern for everyone else they needed me then now they don't . I have nothing to keep this pain away, I have no one to talk to. Guys love talking to me about there problems they can't believe how easy I am to talk to but when a hot little thing turns there head I'm forgot with a sorry but I'm into someone else.I'm tired.

I hurt, and whiskey is my only friend this is all I have is drunkness and a bottle and smokes and I'm so tired