by Audrey Kawasaki

I've shown all of you plenty of work from her she has to be one of my favorite artist.


by lostfish

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I use to be a Junkie..... I use to live on the streets and put whatever I could up my nose or down my throat. I think maybe for having this experience nothing scares me. So many People threw out my life has told me secrets that they just assume would shock me. I would always sit there calmly and they would get all quit as if they were thinking I was so shock I needed a moment. But that's not the case.

I"ve seen things that normal People don't see, I've seen People OD I"ve seen People murder, for $5 dollars ,I've seen Whores get beat almost to death by their pimps. Sometimes it goes threw my mind like a movie, like one of those movies that start in the middle and then goes backwards and then forwards.I"ve sat at the table with very important people in Russian Families, where before I could eat , I had to thank them for letting me in there group and home.

I was barefoot, when I was homeless,, my shoes stolen by a homeless man, which he never would have been able to to wear them, but still he stole my shoes. My feet were cut up, from the glass on the streets. Those day's I felt like I was dead.

It's no one's fault but my own, My mind was it strong enough to handle the addictions to drugs.My Soul was empty and black... though I was a Junkie with morals..... I guess my mother did something right. I never had sex for drugs or money,I actually got a name for myself. I was the one everyone could trust, On the streets People knew that they could tell me there secrets and I would never tell.

The life I live now, it's been about ten years, I find to be very hum drum. We are all like ants just wondering around. The day is filled with nothing but bull shit.... shit at work and shit out of other people's mouth. People who have never lived the way I have or do not have a better understanding, bore me.

There are always those People who have never stepped out of upper middle class and truly have seen what the "others" have lived. Yet they Lie... about it. They sell there drugs and think that they are cool, they get to beat on some poor kid who beat them for drugs or cash and they feel like there life is complete. But out in the grown up world , the hard world, it's tougher then this......

sigh

This is how the town I live in is like, People have no clue, they run in huge gangs about 30 plus and they always have each others backs. Because that's how things are done here. They make up some crazy story on how There father is related to some big time Maffia guy up in NYC.




I"m not impressed, it seems that everyone is related to some Godfather in this area.... because this is farm country and the cows might need a beating to stay on track.....

I'm ranting about a lot of things here I know, I just find that there are so many stupid people around here, and i"m tired of it......