I felt kinda off today, almost like something was going to over take me any min of the day. It was almost like I had a fuckin itch deep inside of me that I didn't or couldn't reach. I didn't understand it. I slept alot today. off and on.

I walked to the bar yeah 8 miles... it took me about a hour and a fuckin half not bad not bad.though I got chased my moo cows. it was actually scary even though it sounds funny. or I atleast think it sounds funny now. There were like 5 cows and they were chasing after me. I shook my little fist at them !!!

then a truck driver kept asking me if I wanted a ride .... I
kept saying no..... Okay buddy your kinda creepy me out.

People at the bar kept buying me drinks not complaining at all. I just wanted to get rid of this feeling I had.... then it happen...... Yea I broke down and cried my eyes out. I yelled and screamed. All my close friends were there and they comfort me... I don't cry you see ....... I missing Shawn and Beaner.......god it's not fair.......

One of there good friends took me home. because of this happening we all at the bar got closer.... a nother of there friend is coming over in a bit to hang out and talk about beaner and shawn. one week ago today Shawn and I want out on a date, he slept in my bed... I might not see him again... everyone says he is going away for a long time

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some a hole kept interpreting me when I was talking to one of my friends today at the bar. The kid was annoying and rude. He had pimples all over his face.. oh I was drinking beer ... beer makes me mean remember.... so this is what I said sorta

Your likd a kid that;s going threw puberty taking places while dancing with a girl, more promiscuous then a sex deprived nymphomaniac sorority girl, and more dangerous the dick cheney taking his kids out to luch. its unfortunate acne man! blessed with the ability of a horny fourteen year old boy, this thirty eight year old carouses the disney land in search of the cure for his affliction. acne cream woman! and so ends our adventures... cause acne does like like cream at all.

Mind you he was older then me...

sigh

I still got it