Gooooood afternoon ghoulies. So I'm sitting here thinking and just wondering why my money goes so fast? I barely barely spend on myself. everything goes to my celli bill, groceries for where i'm staying at... cleaning products for here as well.. i now pay the internet bill and the light bill both over 100 bucks... i can't do this lol.. I want my own damn place! .. I sleep on a couch and have been for 7 months.. I clean and cook and i'm not happy.. I'm on and off dating an Ex-Marine guy who is still going through a DIVORCE!!!! .. Where did I go wrong? I mean why do things always happen when thing start to get good? do people really wanna see me fail because I'm doing a damn good job of it.. lol.. I want a place to finally call home. i want to be able to sleep in an actual bed.. I want to be able to put music on soooooo LOUD and just dance all over the place.. I want to play WoW in peace.. So many things I want and with the money I make (which is very close to nothing) I won't get anywhere.. Blah.. Well here's a poem I wrote out of the blue. Enjoy~

Seering winds cloud my lungs,
Falling deep within these bubbling waters.
Fighting for my life I hear "you're no longer of use."
I spread my arms wide
To find that these creatures hide
No where in sight " I think i'm blind"
They won't bother touching this fractured body.

"there you go forbidden one,
No longer will you live.
Too many of you fight for nothing,
I must never forgive!"

And down I went
in to the blue,
No more will I fret
to subdue.

If you read all of this then I applaud you <3