Ladies and gentlemen, if I can have your attention right now I would like to take this moment And say a few words that are serious, and that are from the heart. Roughly an hour and a half ago, I posted a long ram and, I would actually would rather call it wants and heavily forceful blog about my upcoming birthday party this Saturday and, to a lesser extent about my reflection and outlook on life.
My comments were overzealous, immensely forceful, and one given much thought before they were blurted out of my mouth, and onto the aforementioned blog. I want to take this time and say, now that I have had a chance to sit and reflect and truly think about what I just put down, That I was wrong for doing what I did. I apologize if anybody was shocked, appalled, and or offended by what went down, and I have no excuses for it.
I feel extremely awful for my did, and I will keep the blog up to serve as a reminder that I myself, and everybody else in life really really needs to think hard before they put something down that they may reflect later down the line. I think it also doesn't help the fact that I've had a really really rough week, and that I been off of my anxiety medication for about two days now. But alas, this just further cements the fact that I'm human, after all. Once again I apologize, and I would like to take this time to say that I actually do look forward to turning 30. I also do look forward to my birthday party which will be going forward.
LOL, if you've actually taken the time now and have made it this far down the blog, number one I commend you for it because you have more patience than I do, and two I appreciate your dedication and your caring.
My comments were overzealous, immensely forceful, and one given much thought before they were blurted out of my mouth, and onto the aforementioned blog. I want to take this time and say, now that I have had a chance to sit and reflect and truly think about what I just put down, That I was wrong for doing what I did. I apologize if anybody was shocked, appalled, and or offended by what went down, and I have no excuses for it.
I feel extremely awful for my did, and I will keep the blog up to serve as a reminder that I myself, and everybody else in life really really needs to think hard before they put something down that they may reflect later down the line. I think it also doesn't help the fact that I've had a really really rough week, and that I been off of my anxiety medication for about two days now. But alas, this just further cements the fact that I'm human, after all. Once again I apologize, and I would like to take this time to say that I actually do look forward to turning 30. I also do look forward to my birthday party which will be going forward.
LOL, if you've actually taken the time now and have made it this far down the blog, number one I commend you for it because you have more patience than I do, and two I appreciate your dedication and your caring.
Oh dear....my birthday is looming ahead. Turning 30 has never been such a more reality-churning moment on so many levels. This "suprise" party(lol) that is being planned by people(me mostly) is becoming more of a nuisance than a fun filled, high hopes event. I'm picking things out on my own and I'm probably having to get my own cake lol. In the end, probably only four people will show up. So I ask myself, "what is the point of planning this?" People are coming just to hang out with each other; everyone, let's face it, we all have money issues. It's the way the world is right now. So, to set all of this up, to entertain guest(s), why?
I'm not getting younger, and while I do accept the fact that I will be thrust into an older gap of folk(by the way, thank you SG for forcing me to register as a geezer), what's the point of celebrating if everyone is too absorbed into their own problems/headspace? Ungrateful? No. I've fallen on my sword too many times in my past for the greater good(others) to be called that. Over-dramatic? No. I'm being realistic almost to the point of being painfully blunt here. The fact is, we live in an age where celebration is for the privleged, not the servant. We live in a society that is based on rewards, and I am not about to dangle a carrot in front of people just so that they can come to a party that they should have the common sense to flock to without a second thought! Think about it? Are you really turning down free food? Free drinks? Free dessert? A chance to meet people you otherwise wouldn't normally? As a side note, I've given up trying to merge the galaxies that are my new friends with my old friends. Too much work, too many excuses to have to hear.
So without further ado, I shall seek to bid adieu to my painful 20's and kick off my 30's, a decade filled with resentment from many(not from anyone here), victories for me, and success for myself and those that follow my example. And I will do this by enjoying my birthday on my own terms; by doing the things I love. I will feast on my favorite food alone. Eat my favorite cake alone. Drink beer alone, and then hop on over to a brothel or two to have my brains fucked out, for I especially enjoy that more than anything in this universe(why else would I have joined this site many many years ago?).
Self awareness.......it's happening.
I'm not getting younger, and while I do accept the fact that I will be thrust into an older gap of folk(by the way, thank you SG for forcing me to register as a geezer), what's the point of celebrating if everyone is too absorbed into their own problems/headspace? Ungrateful? No. I've fallen on my sword too many times in my past for the greater good(others) to be called that. Over-dramatic? No. I'm being realistic almost to the point of being painfully blunt here. The fact is, we live in an age where celebration is for the privleged, not the servant. We live in a society that is based on rewards, and I am not about to dangle a carrot in front of people just so that they can come to a party that they should have the common sense to flock to without a second thought! Think about it? Are you really turning down free food? Free drinks? Free dessert? A chance to meet people you otherwise wouldn't normally? As a side note, I've given up trying to merge the galaxies that are my new friends with my old friends. Too much work, too many excuses to have to hear.
So without further ado, I shall seek to bid adieu to my painful 20's and kick off my 30's, a decade filled with resentment from many(not from anyone here), victories for me, and success for myself and those that follow my example. And I will do this by enjoying my birthday on my own terms; by doing the things I love. I will feast on my favorite food alone. Eat my favorite cake alone. Drink beer alone, and then hop on over to a brothel or two to have my brains fucked out, for I especially enjoy that more than anything in this universe(why else would I have joined this site many many years ago?).
Self awareness.......it's happening.
Nothing new to post. However, I have this for you:
Halo 4 was astounding!
I've had the above happen to me! The funny thing was, I knew that it was going to happen, so I stuffed books down my pants, but that did not work!!!
That's it for now. Till next time
Will you join me???
Halo 4 was astounding!
I've had the above happen to me! The funny thing was, I knew that it was going to happen, so I stuffed books down my pants, but that did not work!!!
That's it for now. Till next time
Will you join me???
Oh shit.
Hi. I'm actually bored right now. It's rare for me. I don't know what to do. So I just finished watching the incest-filled episode that is Borgias. It's gotten pretty intense so far. Good show.
I had the sudden urge for Pina Coladas. I don't know why. So I went to my bar, got rum and got the rest of the materials from the fridge and got to work. But now I have all this fuckin' drink to drink! I think I'm going to get drunk tonight. Nice lol.
Hi. I'm actually bored right now. It's rare for me. I don't know what to do. So I just finished watching the incest-filled episode that is Borgias. It's gotten pretty intense so far. Good show.
I had the sudden urge for Pina Coladas. I don't know why. So I went to my bar, got rum and got the rest of the materials from the fridge and got to work. But now I have all this fuckin' drink to drink! I think I'm going to get drunk tonight. Nice lol.
Hi. Tell me, how are you feeling today? Tell me everything.
I feel a lot better since my last post. The sutures have almost healed up, and I no longer feel any pain. Unfortunately, I can't have sex until my doctor gives me the green light. This is the second longest period that I've gone not fucking (abstinence is not the longest time I don't count it).
I will turn 30 in a month and a day from now. I don't dread it, I can still do the same things....actually more things in legal terms now then when I was 18. Fortunately for me I'm in great health, just insane.
I have the new Ghost album, Infestissumam. It is really good, even though it's more 70's rock sounding than metal. So that's it. Till next time.
I feel a lot better since my last post. The sutures have almost healed up, and I no longer feel any pain. Unfortunately, I can't have sex until my doctor gives me the green light. This is the second longest period that I've gone not fucking (abstinence is not the longest time I don't count it).
I will turn 30 in a month and a day from now. I don't dread it, I can still do the same things....actually more things in legal terms now then when I was 18. Fortunately for me I'm in great health, just insane.
I have the new Ghost album, Infestissumam. It is really good, even though it's more 70's rock sounding than metal. So that's it. Till next time.
Hi. I'm in a lot of pain right now, so I'll get to the point.
I had my vasectomy on Tuesday. It was a success, however it comes with a cost. I have blue balls (the pun is intended ha ha) they're swollen, and I can't life anything or do anything remotely strenuous for at least a week, depending on how my recovery goes. That, and I won't be getting laid for a month at least. Go figure. So here I sit with a bag of frozen peas on my crotch, popping Vicodins, hoping that the swelling goes down, and a month quickly goes by, because my normally insatiable urge to fuck is on overdrive with no satisfaction in sight! Exitus Acta Probat I guess.
I had my vasectomy on Tuesday. It was a success, however it comes with a cost. I have blue balls (the pun is intended ha ha) they're swollen, and I can't life anything or do anything remotely strenuous for at least a week, depending on how my recovery goes. That, and I won't be getting laid for a month at least. Go figure. So here I sit with a bag of frozen peas on my crotch, popping Vicodins, hoping that the swelling goes down, and a month quickly goes by, because my normally insatiable urge to fuck is on overdrive with no satisfaction in sight! Exitus Acta Probat I guess.
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I'm sorry, I had to open up with that pic, I laughed like crazy when I first saw it. So! Down to business. How is everyone doing lately? And please bear in mind that I read everything on this site. The blogs, the comments. I like to read these things because it gives me insight/knowledge on the lives of everyone worldwide that I have the privilege of being friends with on here. I may not respond, but I still do read your comments.
Spring is finally coming. The wind today gave a hint of warm air and an aroma of grass and sunscreen. A sign of things to come??? I sure hope so! I am prepping my place for a big gathering on Sunday. Now I'm not religious, however I do think that Easter still calls for a perfect moment to gather friends/family and enjoy the good times. Nothing fancy, just simple relaxing and getting together, catching up, that sort of thing. I've been so wrapped up in band practices and doctors appointments that I have no time to relax.
The doctor stuff is nothing serious. I decided that I am getting a vasectomy. I like kids; I have nephews and nieces and stuff from my siblings, but it's just too expensive and the world is already overpopulated.
It's not confirmed, but my band may be heading to Germany to do a festival or two this summer. We'll see what happens with scheduling!!
Till next time.
Oh boy.....good morning everyone. Actually good afternoon, as it's 3:47pm over here as I'm writing this. I went to see Garbage last night. I must say, that band still has it! It was a sweatbox at the venue, but I loved the show. And also a round of congrats to their bassist for joining Nine Inch Nails at the conclusion of this tour. Gotta wrap this up. Band rehersals coming up.
I saw Soilwork, and I met the band in person! I also met Jeff Loomis in person as well! Pictures to come soon. I will be seeing Garbage play this Friday over at Terminal 5 in NYC. I'm stoked for that!
Overall this has been a very tiring yet productive week for my band and I, as practices have been very encouraging (the results). I can't wait to take S.A. Adams on the road for some shows! As of right now, the first confirmed show will be at Mulchay's of Wantagh, NY on June 9.
Overall this has been a very tiring yet productive week for my band and I, as practices have been very encouraging (the results). I can't wait to take S.A. Adams on the road for some shows! As of right now, the first confirmed show will be at Mulchay's of Wantagh, NY on June 9.
Not only am I going to see Soilwork tonight at Gramecy in NYC, I will be meeting them for a second time!!!
