4th of july, everything went awesome at dist0rtian house, we drank like hell, went into the pool, the first one getting in was sillyk, after that andi, lexanity, Boone and me. Once i grab one Andi in in one hand, lex in the other and everybody to the pool. And i threw lex several times
. kimkat left early, she had to go, and elr0d couldnt get into the pool because he recently had a surgery in his eyes. Dist was a good hostess
he got into the pool like at 5 when it was only a girl, andi and me. Lex and boone were sleeping because they had to take a long trip back home, i never saw them leaving cause i was dead in the couch
. We went to sleep at 7. I have been sleeping the whole day.
I had the time of my life, it was so cool and awesome, to meet the ppl that you chat everyday with, and share and drink, and discover that we are the same fucking shit xD, well, Lex is smaller than you can imagine
and Silly is taller xD.
I love you guys, i hope we can meet again soon.
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I got these 3 pics, later ill got the others i took, silly, lex and dist have more pics...






P.S: Love you guy, thanks for a wonderful night...
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXXO
I had the time of my life, it was so cool and awesome, to meet the ppl that you chat everyday with, and share and drink, and discover that we are the same fucking shit xD, well, Lex is smaller than you can imagine
I love you guys, i hope we can meet again soon.
<333344567890
I got these 3 pics, later ill got the others i took, silly, lex and dist have more pics...



P.S: Love you guy, thanks for a wonderful night...
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXXO
Have you ever?
Have you ever felt like you are losing the will to live?, like the whole world is falling over you and there is no salvation?.
Have you ever felt like you wanna run forever?, like you wanna be in another place, like you wanna leave all behind and start fresh again?.
Have you ever felt like you the love of your life just slipped out of your hands and you will be alone forever?, like you are too old to start over again, and trying to achieve happiness is just a waste of time.
Well my friend, you are not the only one, someday, somehow we all feel like that, is like an episode, a really hard episode that we need to pass over, is an obstacle, a load that we need to get rid of.
Love, is a very complicated thing, and many of us feel like we have found love (that always is a person), and now that is gone, all the hope is gone, all the happiness, and now you are wilting in front of the mirror while the tears burn your face making an averno in your soul. I know exactly how it feels, im one of those that live for the passion, and when im happy, the moon shines more and the stars guide every dream that lies in my soul; when im sad, the light of the sun can only burn my soul more, and the wings that make me fly are scabbed and weak.
But i remember that once i found something that i lost again, and is the love for everything, look, love as we all believe, is not a person, love is an infinite feeling that we use to make finite, we put boundaries, and moreover we attach it to our happiness, and is true!, but not when you relate it to a single person, love is happiness when we understand that is the harmony of the "everything", when we really learn to love that everything that surround us, the dawn, the moon, the twilight, the rain, the pain, the hate, our enemies and our friends, when we learn that revenge is only and stab back to our own soul, when you understand that hate is also good, but when you don't let it manipulate you, when you understand it and learn to forgive. Look, i don't wanna seem like a very wise guy, because i'm not, many of my words are very hard to assimilate for me, and is easier to say it than do it; but i have felt this!, i did it, and lost it cause i attached my happiness to a single person, by imprisoning that feeling to that single person, then i lost it, and i feel lost too, not because she is gone and is the hardest thing that have ever happened to me, i'm lost because i forgot how to love, i lost the spark of life, of love.
Yeah, we feel like we wanna run forever, change the people, the place, the weather, the life, the language, and we can run and do it, but then you'll realize that the problem wasn't the people, the place, the weather, the language or whatever excuse you came with to lie to yourself, the problem is you, or me, or us, you can change everything around you, but you will feel the same because the problem is inside you, in your soul, and your soul is a part of everything, then everything become the problem with you; everywhere you go, you will make everything grey, because you are grey, everywhere you go will be ugly, because you feel ugly.
And then we try to drown the pain in alcohol, try to asphyxiate it with weed, to suffocate it with drugs, and guess what?, pain happens to be very tough shit, immortal i would say, but it has an achilles heel, wich is love, yes love, real love. When we learn to love for real, and understand that love is an infinite feeling, then one day that person will come, your soulmate, your other half or however you wanna call it. But first you gotta happy with yourself, with who you are. I remember that my aunt that is like another mom to me told me once, " you cannot love someone else when you dont even love yourself", and she was right!. You think you love that person, and you are only looking in that person the happiness you cant have for yourself, and we live that "love", that's why when is gone, then the whole world is gone, the dreams, the hopes, the wishes; i'm not saying that when you found the love i'm talking about, and the person you are with goes, you wont feel bad or feel pain, because is bullshit, but you will understand that if that person is meant to be with you, will be with you, if is not, then is not; it hurts? yeah it hurts, but you will find the purpose of that person in your life, why she/he was with you. You will hurt, will understand, will heal, and will move away, that's what is life about, live something, and when is gone, get over it, move on to the next step or next experience. Those who don't move on, will never grow up, will never be happy, and will never reach the goals that you putted to yourself before you were born.
My words are hard to swallow, even hard for me, but this i know, and i wanted to share it with all of you, and specially with some of you that are burning into ashes. Please read carefully my words, if you want ,do it over again. Because "we all have a phoenix inside us... let it rise"...
Thanks for reading and of course i have a song for this post, one of the most beautiful songs i ever heard, and is for your lovesick.
The band is Xandria and the song is Eversleeping. This is not the video of the song, once again i looked up for one with the lyric so you don't miss a word.
Thanks again for reading, i hope it makes you feel better and open your eyes to all the beauty that is outside.
Be free to share this post with those that are like you or that feel down.
Kisses to everyone and love...
Have you ever felt like you are losing the will to live?, like the whole world is falling over you and there is no salvation?.
Have you ever felt like you wanna run forever?, like you wanna be in another place, like you wanna leave all behind and start fresh again?.
Have you ever felt like you the love of your life just slipped out of your hands and you will be alone forever?, like you are too old to start over again, and trying to achieve happiness is just a waste of time.
Well my friend, you are not the only one, someday, somehow we all feel like that, is like an episode, a really hard episode that we need to pass over, is an obstacle, a load that we need to get rid of.
Love, is a very complicated thing, and many of us feel like we have found love (that always is a person), and now that is gone, all the hope is gone, all the happiness, and now you are wilting in front of the mirror while the tears burn your face making an averno in your soul. I know exactly how it feels, im one of those that live for the passion, and when im happy, the moon shines more and the stars guide every dream that lies in my soul; when im sad, the light of the sun can only burn my soul more, and the wings that make me fly are scabbed and weak.
But i remember that once i found something that i lost again, and is the love for everything, look, love as we all believe, is not a person, love is an infinite feeling that we use to make finite, we put boundaries, and moreover we attach it to our happiness, and is true!, but not when you relate it to a single person, love is happiness when we understand that is the harmony of the "everything", when we really learn to love that everything that surround us, the dawn, the moon, the twilight, the rain, the pain, the hate, our enemies and our friends, when we learn that revenge is only and stab back to our own soul, when you understand that hate is also good, but when you don't let it manipulate you, when you understand it and learn to forgive. Look, i don't wanna seem like a very wise guy, because i'm not, many of my words are very hard to assimilate for me, and is easier to say it than do it; but i have felt this!, i did it, and lost it cause i attached my happiness to a single person, by imprisoning that feeling to that single person, then i lost it, and i feel lost too, not because she is gone and is the hardest thing that have ever happened to me, i'm lost because i forgot how to love, i lost the spark of life, of love.
Yeah, we feel like we wanna run forever, change the people, the place, the weather, the life, the language, and we can run and do it, but then you'll realize that the problem wasn't the people, the place, the weather, the language or whatever excuse you came with to lie to yourself, the problem is you, or me, or us, you can change everything around you, but you will feel the same because the problem is inside you, in your soul, and your soul is a part of everything, then everything become the problem with you; everywhere you go, you will make everything grey, because you are grey, everywhere you go will be ugly, because you feel ugly.
And then we try to drown the pain in alcohol, try to asphyxiate it with weed, to suffocate it with drugs, and guess what?, pain happens to be very tough shit, immortal i would say, but it has an achilles heel, wich is love, yes love, real love. When we learn to love for real, and understand that love is an infinite feeling, then one day that person will come, your soulmate, your other half or however you wanna call it. But first you gotta happy with yourself, with who you are. I remember that my aunt that is like another mom to me told me once, " you cannot love someone else when you dont even love yourself", and she was right!. You think you love that person, and you are only looking in that person the happiness you cant have for yourself, and we live that "love", that's why when is gone, then the whole world is gone, the dreams, the hopes, the wishes; i'm not saying that when you found the love i'm talking about, and the person you are with goes, you wont feel bad or feel pain, because is bullshit, but you will understand that if that person is meant to be with you, will be with you, if is not, then is not; it hurts? yeah it hurts, but you will find the purpose of that person in your life, why she/he was with you. You will hurt, will understand, will heal, and will move away, that's what is life about, live something, and when is gone, get over it, move on to the next step or next experience. Those who don't move on, will never grow up, will never be happy, and will never reach the goals that you putted to yourself before you were born.
My words are hard to swallow, even hard for me, but this i know, and i wanted to share it with all of you, and specially with some of you that are burning into ashes. Please read carefully my words, if you want ,do it over again. Because "we all have a phoenix inside us... let it rise"...
Thanks for reading and of course i have a song for this post, one of the most beautiful songs i ever heard, and is for your lovesick.
The band is Xandria and the song is Eversleeping. This is not the video of the song, once again i looked up for one with the lyric so you don't miss a word.
Thanks again for reading, i hope it makes you feel better and open your eyes to all the beauty that is outside.
Be free to share this post with those that are like you or that feel down.
Kisses to everyone and love...
What is?
What is, the worst thing you ever done?, this is very cliche question, and many people will answer that the worst thing they have ever done, is to stay with someone, or something else. Sometimes we just get into this question so many times, "what i did this?", "why i didn't do that"... well, everything you did took where you are right now (reading this blog xD), into this page, into that city, made you stay with the person you are right now, gave you the children you have, made you cry, made you laugh; every little thing, is like a small portion of a decision you made to stay here, and many other things; so you should never be repented of anything you ever done.
Nevertheless, i am, and there's one thing that i think is the worst i ever done... grow up!, to lose the child, the innocence, some might says "you need to grow up", yeah we have to!, but it seems that when we grow up, we forget we were childs, and we lose all of it, we even complain to our children with things they do without remembering you did that too, and that meant something to you, is like the empathy and the memories are gone, so we smack them and yell at them, instead of talk to them and teach them what to do or not. Look, i'm not trying to tell anybody how to be a parent, because is not my point in here.
I've been in this site for almost 3 months, and i have found people like me, with the same tastes, with the same passion, with the same will to live, free. People that "haven't lost completely the child"; many of us get labeled because we have naked pics, or sets like any SG, i know girls that having problems because they are SG's, i know many people that get underrated because of having tattoos or piercings (including myself), because that's an "immature" behavior, i wonder were is that shit written?, because so far what I've seen is that here, we are gamers, chatters, exhibitionists, voyeurs, rockers, stoners, and so... Yeah, but you know what?, we are open to the world, we don't hide it!, we don't make people believe we are something we are not!, like a tattoo of an SG says, "better to be an open sinner than a false saint", I'm so agree with that. You know what?, we are also photographers, musicians, poets, models, dancers, designers, publicists, teachers, parents, brothers, sons and daughters, etc, we live the same life like anybody else, in the same world, with the same needs and with the same goals, but without trying to label anybody else.
The intolerance is killing this world and the racism, and the religions; but apparently almost nobody see that, i wonder when the people are going to open their eyes, and look at each others as family, without caring about their status, their appearance, without caring about their flaws and vices. I wonder when the people are going to start to believe in themselves, when are they going to realize that all the evil and all the good are inside of us, that we are the only ones that can save this world, that can change it; but they rather go to their churches, ask god for some guidance, for some help, and when they go out, they don't care about the people around, they discriminate, they label, they make hideous acts. I wanna tell to that people that your god is not here today nor tomorrow, that god that you are looking for is inside you, that power to change the world is inside you, we have the power to create life, and the power to vanish life, the power to love, the power to hate; is just about choosing, taking actions, not waiting for god to help us.
Oh man, i wish i could live in neverland, be a child forever. I love that movie.
I'm not drunk, i'm not stoned xD, i just wanted to say something that i feel, something that consumes me everyday when i go out, when i interact with the world, when i live in this world, the same world for anyone, full of love, full of weapons, full of hopes, full of racism, full of greatness and full of shit.
I wanna also thank to every friend i have here, some of them i know it before this site and i love them, and the others i new it through comments in sets, through the chat (that is vice now xD), the thing is that almost all of you are very much like me, some other are almost the same (you know who you are), and we share so many things. I wanna thank everyone for the kindness, and for making me feel home in this site, a virtual home that we visit everyday, to watch naked-gorgeous girls
, to chat, etc.
Greetings to everyone, you are awesome people.
XOXO
I have a song for this blog (as usual), a very atypical song for me, but i love the song, and i wanna share it with all of you.
The song is called "Where is the love", from "Black eyed peas".
I'm putting here the song with the lyrics son you can read it...
P.S:I hope my post is not futile, and if you wanna share it with someone else, be my guests.
What is, the worst thing you ever done?, this is very cliche question, and many people will answer that the worst thing they have ever done, is to stay with someone, or something else. Sometimes we just get into this question so many times, "what i did this?", "why i didn't do that"... well, everything you did took where you are right now (reading this blog xD), into this page, into that city, made you stay with the person you are right now, gave you the children you have, made you cry, made you laugh; every little thing, is like a small portion of a decision you made to stay here, and many other things; so you should never be repented of anything you ever done.
Nevertheless, i am, and there's one thing that i think is the worst i ever done... grow up!, to lose the child, the innocence, some might says "you need to grow up", yeah we have to!, but it seems that when we grow up, we forget we were childs, and we lose all of it, we even complain to our children with things they do without remembering you did that too, and that meant something to you, is like the empathy and the memories are gone, so we smack them and yell at them, instead of talk to them and teach them what to do or not. Look, i'm not trying to tell anybody how to be a parent, because is not my point in here.
I've been in this site for almost 3 months, and i have found people like me, with the same tastes, with the same passion, with the same will to live, free. People that "haven't lost completely the child"; many of us get labeled because we have naked pics, or sets like any SG, i know girls that having problems because they are SG's, i know many people that get underrated because of having tattoos or piercings (including myself), because that's an "immature" behavior, i wonder were is that shit written?, because so far what I've seen is that here, we are gamers, chatters, exhibitionists, voyeurs, rockers, stoners, and so... Yeah, but you know what?, we are open to the world, we don't hide it!, we don't make people believe we are something we are not!, like a tattoo of an SG says, "better to be an open sinner than a false saint", I'm so agree with that. You know what?, we are also photographers, musicians, poets, models, dancers, designers, publicists, teachers, parents, brothers, sons and daughters, etc, we live the same life like anybody else, in the same world, with the same needs and with the same goals, but without trying to label anybody else.
The intolerance is killing this world and the racism, and the religions; but apparently almost nobody see that, i wonder when the people are going to open their eyes, and look at each others as family, without caring about their status, their appearance, without caring about their flaws and vices. I wonder when the people are going to start to believe in themselves, when are they going to realize that all the evil and all the good are inside of us, that we are the only ones that can save this world, that can change it; but they rather go to their churches, ask god for some guidance, for some help, and when they go out, they don't care about the people around, they discriminate, they label, they make hideous acts. I wanna tell to that people that your god is not here today nor tomorrow, that god that you are looking for is inside you, that power to change the world is inside you, we have the power to create life, and the power to vanish life, the power to love, the power to hate; is just about choosing, taking actions, not waiting for god to help us.
Oh man, i wish i could live in neverland, be a child forever. I love that movie.
I'm not drunk, i'm not stoned xD, i just wanted to say something that i feel, something that consumes me everyday when i go out, when i interact with the world, when i live in this world, the same world for anyone, full of love, full of weapons, full of hopes, full of racism, full of greatness and full of shit.
I wanna also thank to every friend i have here, some of them i know it before this site and i love them, and the others i new it through comments in sets, through the chat (that is vice now xD), the thing is that almost all of you are very much like me, some other are almost the same (you know who you are), and we share so many things. I wanna thank everyone for the kindness, and for making me feel home in this site, a virtual home that we visit everyday, to watch naked-gorgeous girls
Greetings to everyone, you are awesome people.
XOXO
I have a song for this blog (as usual), a very atypical song for me, but i love the song, and i wanna share it with all of you.
The song is called "Where is the love", from "Black eyed peas".
I'm putting here the song with the lyrics son you can read it...
P.S:I hope my post is not futile, and if you wanna share it with someone else, be my guests.
Can someone tell me, how you move on?, for real... Please don't say the same that everyone say, i really wanna read something that get me, if you ever felt like you lost "your arm", and you can do anything because you don't have that part of you that helped you to do so many things, if you ever felt like the world is just as cold as an iceberg, and the warmth that should be your shelter is just an utopia.
I really cannot find the comfort in this world, i feel like a zombie again, i have lost the will to live, that's why i say that i'm not afraid of the swine flu. I feel like i'm just walking aimlessly.
I don't have that many friends here, and just a little bit of them read my blogs and even less write.
If you don't wanna say anything is ok, i already feel alone, that feeling can grow further.
Maybe this song can explain how i feel, this is one of my favorite bands.
The song is "Closure", the band is "Evergrey"...
There is just one part of the song that i'm not agree with, but i believe that he say that just for saying it, because be feels impotent, but he doesn't really mean that. Anyway, and just in case, don't pay attention to that part, the "i hate you part", is only two lines of the song... (and i cannot hate her, i love her, omg that i do).
Here is the song: (just hear the song, that's not the video
)
And here are the lyrics, he sings very clear but just in case:
I really cannot find the comfort in this world, i feel like a zombie again, i have lost the will to live, that's why i say that i'm not afraid of the swine flu. I feel like i'm just walking aimlessly.
I don't have that many friends here, and just a little bit of them read my blogs and even less write.
If you don't wanna say anything is ok, i already feel alone, that feeling can grow further.
Maybe this song can explain how i feel, this is one of my favorite bands.
The song is "Closure", the band is "Evergrey"...
There is just one part of the song that i'm not agree with, but i believe that he say that just for saying it, because be feels impotent, but he doesn't really mean that. Anyway, and just in case, don't pay attention to that part, the "i hate you part", is only two lines of the song... (and i cannot hate her, i love her, omg that i do).
Here is the song: (just hear the song, that's not the video
And here are the lyrics, he sings very clear but just in case:
Thanks beforehand, and if you just can't say anything is ok...
XOXO to everyone...
Its been a while since the last post, so here is the update.
Like three weeks ago, i bruised my ankle a little bit again, so i had 2 weeks of healing (no soccer :S), but last week i played, and i played so good, that i was happy like hell
. We played 11 vs 11, and we won 4 - 1, i made 3 goals out of those 4
... The first one was the best one, i shoot perfectly to the other side of the net, the other one was just opportunism, i was in the right place and moment, and the third one was a header. We celebrated the goals as if we were playing the final game of the worldcup xD, because it was hard to score, in fact the first goal came like a half an hour after the game started, so i ran like hell so exited, and all my team-mates came to me to hug me and celebrate, it exited me even more
... I was so happy that im still happy xD, i cant wait for this friday and play again
...
Tomorrow im gonna go to a job training, that will be good because i will have more rank, more responsibility and of course, more payment.
Everything else is just the same, i still need my car, and im saving some money for that.
I feel like "we are but falling leaves in the air hovering down".
This is my mood right now, "we are but falling leaves", the band is Sentenced...
Here is the song in case you wanna hear it:
And here is the lyrics in case you wanna read it, or both
Like three weeks ago, i bruised my ankle a little bit again, so i had 2 weeks of healing (no soccer :S), but last week i played, and i played so good, that i was happy like hell
Tomorrow im gonna go to a job training, that will be good because i will have more rank, more responsibility and of course, more payment.
Everything else is just the same, i still need my car, and im saving some money for that.
I feel like "we are but falling leaves in the air hovering down".
This is my mood right now, "we are but falling leaves", the band is Sentenced...
Here is the song in case you wanna hear it:
And here is the lyrics in case you wanna read it, or both
Kisses to everyone and hugs...
Hi everyone, i hope you all are good.
This is the update of the week, finally i went to play soccer on friday after 3 weeks, i played very good, scored 5 out of 8 goals, we won 6 to 8
I almost get involved into a fight playing, because one guy fouled me bad, i was running with the ball (and i run very fast), and the guy was trying to get it, he was running with me, but i was faster and i was leaving him behind, so he fouled me bad and i felt, that pissed me off, because we are playing to have fun, nobody is getting paid and nobody is winning anything, so we try to be fair with the fouls; so when i felt i got up fast and start running after him (he was after the ball like 5 yards away from me), when i reached him just push him very hard, he felt, then he got up asking why, i was so pissed off, i wanted to destroy him, but i controled myself, i just yelled at him, he was very scared of my face and my rage, so he step back. We took a brake and started again, he apologized at me, and i did it too...
Yesterday i got my ticket to Iron Maiden


Im so exited, the concert is gonna be this thursday, i can't wait...
My last concert was Nightwish, so im gonna see another big band, i love Iron Maiden, they are so good and their show is awesome.
See you later people, greetings to everyone...
XOXO
This is the update of the week, finally i went to play soccer on friday after 3 weeks, i played very good, scored 5 out of 8 goals, we won 6 to 8
I almost get involved into a fight playing, because one guy fouled me bad, i was running with the ball (and i run very fast), and the guy was trying to get it, he was running with me, but i was faster and i was leaving him behind, so he fouled me bad and i felt, that pissed me off, because we are playing to have fun, nobody is getting paid and nobody is winning anything, so we try to be fair with the fouls; so when i felt i got up fast and start running after him (he was after the ball like 5 yards away from me), when i reached him just push him very hard, he felt, then he got up asking why, i was so pissed off, i wanted to destroy him, but i controled myself, i just yelled at him, he was very scared of my face and my rage, so he step back. We took a brake and started again, he apologized at me, and i did it too...
Yesterday i got my ticket to Iron Maiden

Im so exited, the concert is gonna be this thursday, i can't wait...
My last concert was Nightwish, so im gonna see another big band, i love Iron Maiden, they are so good and their show is awesome.
See you later people, greetings to everyone...
XOXO
Another friday, and i'm not sure if i should go and play, my ankle is still bothering me a bit, i don't wanna bruise it more, but i sooooo wanna go and play!. I have a real dilemma here, don't know what to do.
Last week when i went out, i had a great time with my cousin, we went to Hard Rock till 11.30 then we went to south beach, that was a sick party, i danced like hell that day, and drank sooo much. I got home at 5.40 am, took a shower, and straight to work, i drank like two redbulls to stay awake at work. Then slept the whole day xD.
This week was kinda messy, almost everyday raining and now is so hot, but is not hot enough to go to a pool or the beach, the water es too cold -.-
That's the update of this week.
Kisses to everyone...
Last week when i went out, i had a great time with my cousin, we went to Hard Rock till 11.30 then we went to south beach, that was a sick party, i danced like hell that day, and drank sooo much. I got home at 5.40 am, took a shower, and straight to work, i drank like two redbulls to stay awake at work. Then slept the whole day xD.
This week was kinda messy, almost everyday raining and now is so hot, but is not hot enough to go to a pool or the beach, the water es too cold -.-
That's the update of this week.
Kisses to everyone...
Today is a weird day, you know, with mixed feelings, because in one hand i can't go and play soccer because i still need to rest from the injury i got last friday in my ankle, so it is very sad for me, because i love soccer. And in the other hand, a cousin from New Jersey is here, and we gonna meet later and go to Hard Rock, so i'm happy for that because is been like 3 years since the last time i saw him. Is like a sentimental dilemma, but at the end ill be just happy, not only because i'll be with him, but because i always enjoy at max the moments i live.
Kisses and hugs to everyone...
Kisses and hugs to everyone...
Well, this is my first time here, nevertheless i've been aware of this page long time ago..
So, i decided to subscribe.
Greetings to everybody...
So, i decided to subscribe.
Greetings to everybody...

