I feel sick. I look sick. I look like i'm gonna die. My lips are sore, I'm tired as fuck!
But i'm not sick. Wtf?
So yeah, i dont have any new pictures and you probably wouldnt want to see my face right now ahah.
Anyways, i've bought 2 books about spiritism. I just think it's fascinating and no matter what people think, no matter if they call me a "freak", i just love it.
Does that make me weird? no, just open-minded

Alright, i'm going to make myself a cup of tea and i'm going back to my bed to read "The Mediums' book" because I LOVE IT and i fuck you


&because a blog is always sad without pictures, i'm gonna upload some of my fav pix of the love of my life, still looks better than my actual face


&My Brit on the set of her new music video "3" <3

Alright that's enough.
I'm done, SO done with being all miserable and stupid.
I need a girlfriend NOW.

.

The weather's shit, i'm runing out of cigs, i'm in love with a GUY who doesnt give a shit about me, and i've got an headache.
Please, say something cool so i dont kill myself before i go to bed.

This is what I call LUNCH!
Even though it's never gonna be as good as the ones i eat at my fav restaurant, even though it hasnt been prepared by my favourite cook/waiter, it's still gonna be good
And yeat, it's pretty cute, but in real, they look so fake i'm scared to eat 'em ahah.
Anyways, have a good day yall. <3



Oh yeah, also i just realized that Halloween is coming soooon.
I dont really know what i'll be doing this year, probably nothing but still, i love halloween.
Any plans for halloween?

Felling something I havent felt in ages.... scary.
Anyways.

(im on the right)

(I'm on the left)
Miss the long hair, not the face. lol
Here are some non-artistic pictures i took from my window. This is the view from my room, I can watch live soccer



And here's the view from my living room for you Parisloversfreaks:

You can see a bit of the Eiffel Tower on the left and that high tower on the right is La Tour Montparnasse and that white spot next to it is the Sacr� Coeur.
Interesting right? -_- lol
Geez, someone please shoot me.

Alright i'm going to bed guys, need to stop thinking for a bit. It's messing with my head.
<3

Update (oct.6th)
I just woke up and i think i've had the longest dream ever. In it I made out with 3 girls, 1 guy . I argued with 2 people at the same time. I met an old teacher of mine. REALLY scary considering that i havent been in a school in nearly 4 years ahah. I had a baby, and it seemed to be pretty normal to me. yuuuk!
And so many things i cant really remmember.
Anyways, i'm drinking coffee right now, trying to wake up with the new Britney's song "3". Huhu.
Really .... intresting lyrics i must say. ahah
anyways, have a great day guys
<3

Best day of my life. I still cry everytime i watch the videos. Someday it'll be me in the center of the stage muahaha!
(it's not me filming.)




(My favouriiiite <3)

(This video was taped the 6th but i couldnt find the whole song from the 5th and I actually havent seen her perform "boys", i was too busy trying to pass between the security bars to get closer to the stage. And when "If you seek amy" started, I was trying to get my phone to call my friend who asked me to call her when Britney was doing that "hahahihihahaho" shit. ahah anyways. Enjoy the vids)
"Give me ten, REAL ONES!"

And the big final:

And after that amazing, incredible, unbelievable, magic moment, we went out and ended up deaf and mute. ahah
Ahhhh. Now i'm crying ahah.
Alright, enough with the nostalgic mood.

Have a great day, y'all. <3

Iron Maiden - Phantom Of The Opera


I NEED SOME ACTION MOTHERFUCKER!
I'm so desperate I'm gonna end up going out with a dog!! Or with a guy! (oooor not )
Fucking hell, love sucks.
I'm fucked up. I cant even find a NORMAL girl. I always find weirdos. "God" ( -_-' ) Help me!



I know my sweater is dorky (it was my brother's u_u' &no i dont wear that shit outside) and i've got a vagina face but hey, it's the only one I got so enjoy or fuck off : ]


I need to meet new people, see new faces, see new things. I repeat: I need some action in my life. Thank god i'm leaving soon. Who wants to see me when i'm in London?

I've just finished watching Boys Dont Cry and yeah, I've cried. I'm such a pussy. Well... lol
I'm meeting a very SPECIAL duuude tomorow Can't wait.
alright, make me shut up otherwise i never will.

loveeee
<333

Listening to: Bon Jovi - Dirty Little Secret

Ok, let's be funny again.
I just had my sad moment and that was rather anoying and weird since it's been a long time since i havent cried like that. A long time since i havent cried at all, actually. But A-NY-WAY!
I'm going to the doctor tomorow and then i'll probably go at my mom's store to buy some CDs. i really want some albums of The Runaways and of Bon Jovi. I NEED them so i can leave Paris with a free conscience. hehe
I got a reply from that producer who works in Walthamstow (where i'll be staying), he's ok to meet me. Exciteddddd!
I've written 4 songs that i'm not ashamed of at all. Which is good because I usualy HATE writting and everything. It always ends up sounding really cheesy and stuff but yeah.
Alright, i'm going to bed, maybe i'll find some inspiration to write a 5th song muahaha!

'Night loves. <3


Oh, btw.. Meet my wife [=



Update: october 5th
i just had lunch at that Japanese restaurant, the same we always go to. And there's this waiter, he's like really cute and always starring at me, kinda shy and really sweet. He asked me my phone number. I didnt know what to say, my mom was sitting next to me. And anyways, i'm not into that kind of thing ahah.
And I had the weirdest dreams ever last night. But yeah, useless update.
Going to buy some tobacco.
I'm bored, talk to me or fuck off.


Ps: I will marry Jon Bon Jovi someday.

YES, i know i'm anoying. I post blogs every 2minutes but i dont care if it's getting on your nerves, just dont read it. I keeps me busy.
Alright, so it's like 1:30 am and my friend Insomnia is back. Didnt miss "her" so much. (yes, she's a girl.)
I've been writing a song, well it's not done yet but it's on the way.
I'm not telling you what it's about, you wouldnt even care and it's probably better off that way.
I'm freezing in my bed, the window is on the wall right above my bed, right above my head! Yeah yeah, french windows are weird, i still can feel the wind blowing through it. Well, in the corner of it. WOAH, i dont even know what i'm saying right now. I'll probably laught at myself tomorow when i read this miserable post.
I want to smoke but I would have to get out of the bed and i'm pretty lazy.
Earlier tonight i was bored (for a change) and watching videos on youtube. And there was this woman i wanted to slap really bad because she made me think of a teacher. She was teaching people how to speak with a british accent which is completely stupid if you want my opinion. so yeah, either british accents are weird, or it's just.
I really want to shoot a seeeeet but i dont understand how i went from "hopeful" to "member" (???)
So yeah, pretty weird.
Ok, i'll stop talking (writting) and i'll let you see my ugly no-make up face on the pictures I took like 10 mins ago as i was bored
xxx

I.WANT.A.GIRLFRIEND






When i'm bored, I get nostalgic.


Grandpa'


Roxane


Yaelle


Cindy, Tiss, Helene & I




Why are my cheeks cut whenever I smile ?



D-58 'til i'm moving to London.
cheers.

It's already freezing here in Paris. I guess i'll just die when i'm in London.


Someone doesnt want me to go ahah

andrew says :
i'm nervous
Sheley says :
why?
andrew says :
what if they kill you