Don't know what to do. Isn't this familiar to you?? Can't seem to let go....

Going into the thought process tonight blighted by hiccups of fright,
seeing the moon pass over a hill, oh come to me come to me if you will,
can't stop it right now, have to keep going, keep going till the night gets done.
Alone.. dancing in the computer's light, asking for grace to give me delight....
it never comes.. it never comes.. just hanging on here till I get too wasted...then go to bed.
another day wasted in the pursuit of the illusion that gives my life meaning.. sorry to say... I will anyway.. got to hang on even if I know I am undone.... Bye Love you