I haven't put up many pictures of myself lately.


Honestly, it's because during the time i had to go back to oklahoma i was very depressed and gained a lot of weight. I'm just now starting to go back down to my normal pre-baby size. :/

Anyway. I'm still hot. Lets just get that out in the open right now.

I am experiencing a difficult time in parenting. Hendrix is 10 months old now and he's mobile, but doesn't yet understand the world. He hits me and pinches. He doesn't mean to hurt but when he gets excited the only way he knows how to express it is to hit things (often my face). When i'm sitting on the bed, he uses my arms to pull himself up to stand by digging his little fingers into my flesh. I have little fingerprint bruises all over them. He also throws things. That's how he wants to play. He doesn't want to stack his stacker toy, or put together his puzzles. He wants to just throw the shit off the bed and watch me pick it up. Then throw it again. And i think it's about to get even harder because i think he will walk soon. He is starting to realize he can reach stuff better by standing and that it sucks to be on his knees all the time. Fuck. I'm going insane and I could use a break once in a while.

There's all kinds of books on pregnancy, and early infant-hood, and how to discipline a toddler, but none of them mention what to do during this period. When the baby is mobile, but still not understanding anything. If any of you know any PLEASE recommend them. I don't know what to do. I feel like i spend all day telling him, "NO! and 'STOP! You'll fall!" and "No no, put that down", "Don't touch that!" "Don't eat that!" "Don't hit mommy!" *sigh* I feel like i should be helping him develop his little brain and instead i'm just yelling at him all the time.

My little man can stand up



And he likes chicken



I took him to the Warf to see the sea lions. He thought they smelled.





lots more pictures to come.

I got an iPod touch! I'm using it to type this. Sweeeeeet.

I will be back in my mecca tuesday!!!!!!! YAY!!!!

That's San Francisco for those of you who don't know...


I can't wait to get out of oklahoma. I can't wait to breastfeed my baby without worrying about being kicked out of places. oh.... and i got a new camera

I don't like the way old people say the word "program". They say it like this, "PRO-grm". Annoying.

Google Earth has a "Sky" feature now that allows you to view galaxies and constellations and shit!!! sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

*google earth dork*

So Hendrix finally went to sleep at like 4 a.m.
We are visiting my brother for the 4th and he gets so excited here he doesn't want to sleep.

Anyway,

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Hednrix is on sleep strike.