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Finally moved into my new apartment. Word. I'd say come hang out, but I have nothing there to really call it home yet. Speaking of which...
December is going to be hella busy for me. Alot of traveling is taking place, as I am going to see some friends, hopefully doing photoshoots with Scott in southern and southwest Florida, and I'm also getting the last of my things from where I used to live (Cape Coral / Ft. Myers area) and moving them 9 hours up to Pensacola. Whew...
December is going to be hella busy for me. Alot of traveling is taking place, as I am going to see some friends, hopefully doing photoshoots with Scott in southern and southwest Florida, and I'm also getting the last of my things from where I used to live (Cape Coral / Ft. Myers area) and moving them 9 hours up to Pensacola. Whew...
Things you need to check out:
* New song on my personal myspace profile (Shear Terror!). Listen to the whole thing, the ending is the best part. Funny shit. Not something I would listen to on a regular basis, but it's pure comedy so I had to put it up.
* New phone, same number 850-454-4899 (call me anytime after 7 p.m. and I can talk for free. Also, text me with a picture image to use for your caller ID)
Work-related news:
* I'm doing hair for a few local, non-SG related photoshoots coming up here in Pensacola next weekend! One is for a calendar, and the other may be published in some sort of magazine. I'm not sure of the specifics, as I just found out everything today from one of the models, so I will have more info and pictures soon...wish me luck!
* On ModelMayhem.com as a model, photographer, etc? Please add me! MM # 555155
And don't forget, any questions you have, please message me on here or you can contact me on AIM: ShearTerror or on Yahoo: where_angels_and_demons_rest
Thank you!
* New song on my personal myspace profile (Shear Terror!). Listen to the whole thing, the ending is the best part. Funny shit. Not something I would listen to on a regular basis, but it's pure comedy so I had to put it up.
* New phone, same number 850-454-4899 (call me anytime after 7 p.m. and I can talk for free. Also, text me with a picture image to use for your caller ID)
Work-related news:
* I'm doing hair for a few local, non-SG related photoshoots coming up here in Pensacola next weekend! One is for a calendar, and the other may be published in some sort of magazine. I'm not sure of the specifics, as I just found out everything today from one of the models, so I will have more info and pictures soon...wish me luck!
* On ModelMayhem.com as a model, photographer, etc? Please add me! MM # 555155
And don't forget, any questions you have, please message me on here or you can contact me on AIM: ShearTerror or on Yahoo: where_angels_and_demons_rest
Thank you!
So I finally have something worth while in a phone now (since my last phone bill with Sprint was $220, and I don't have credit, it's been a pain in my ass).
I got a better phone and I'm now on a Virgin Mobile monthly plan, so I have 600 anytime minutes, but at least now I can talk for FREE from 7 p.m. to 7 a.m., and I can also send and receive texts and picture texts for free now as well.
So...awesome. Call or text me! (850) 454-4899
I got a better phone and I'm now on a Virgin Mobile monthly plan, so I have 600 anytime minutes, but at least now I can talk for FREE from 7 p.m. to 7 a.m., and I can also send and receive texts and picture texts for free now as well.
So...awesome. Call or text me! (850) 454-4899
Ever get the feeling that you just don't know what is going on in your life anymore?
I'm patiently waiting for things to go in the right direction, for all of this hard work I've done to get to where I want to be to pay off...
I need something to look forward to.
I'm patiently waiting for things to go in the right direction, for all of this hard work I've done to get to where I want to be to pay off...
I need something to look forward to.
Well, everyone...I'm HOMELESS.
Life never ceases to amaze me with it's multitude of chaotic slurs forcibly aimed at me on a consecutive basis. I really don't know what else I can do. I've been on the right path, making positive choices, staying elusive to any sort of trouble, and yet, I am constantly beaten down to the earth without any insight of why I am not allowed to spread my wings and fly.
Last night was hard enough. It would have been my grandfather's birthday had he not passed last December (and my dear grandmother a December before), so coping with that this year was trying. But I had moving into my new apartment to look forward to today, right?
Not so much...
I woke up early today to pack the few things I have up here so far in order to bring them to the new apartment. I went in, signed all the remaining papers, got everything in order, and then the lady informs me that I needed $575 for the first month's rent right then and there in order to complete everything. We just put a $400 security deposit down and had the electricity put into my name and turned on. I was never informed that I would also need this money today until everything was signed. Un-fucking-believable.
So now Derby and I are at a crossroads. I have been fighting off panic attacks all day, trying not to completely lose my mind, and she is trying so hard to figure everything out for the two of us to move in. Thankfully, her boyfriend found her a place to stay, and she's going to work nearly every night in order to make the money to move us in. I just began working when I moved up here about a month ago, so I don't really have the money to do anything yet. Thank fuck I have made a few friends around here, however, as I do have a place to stay and have rides to work until this can get figured out.
I'm just so confused with how my life is going. I did everything I could to make it up to Pensacola in the first place, to start fresh and be in a more choice location for Scott and I to work more together for SG. I had most of my finances taken care of, left most of my belongings with my ex and some friends down in Ft. Myers for me to retrieve later, put insurance back on my car, got the AC fixed in it (as well as prepared it for the road by topping off all the fluids and checking tires, as well as cleaning and detailing it), and took my final paycheck from the last salon I worked at to move up here.
But my car only made it to Tampa. Of all the things that could happen, the transmission started slipping two hours into my 9 hour drive, and I couldn't complete my journey. Thankfully, I know a ton of people in the Tampa area, and was able to not only have a place to stay for the evening that it happened, but they also gave me a ride the rest of the way up here. My car is still in Tampa, but they were also kind enough to park it in their complex and are going to look at it and fix it as soon as they have the time and I have the money.
Upon moving here, things have been alright. It's had it's ups and downs, and where I was living was just not what I had in mind, so this move into a new apartment, with Derby as my roommate, was the best thing for both of us, as we have both been incredibly stressed. And now that has fallen apart for the time being. So now I will just have to wait and see what my roommate and I can come up with in the next week or so, money-wise.
I just don't get it. I have done everything I possibly can to further my life, my career, and stay focused. But the further I get along, the harder it becomes for me not to go over the edge, as the constant bullshit life throws at me never lets up. Ever. In the past two and a half years, I have lost both of my beloved grandparents; had a close friend overdose and will be like a 5 year old now and for the rest of her life; was in a car accident that almost ruined me from doing hair ever again (wasn't my fault either); my mother, who is everything to me, moved back to Ohio; and I wrestled myself away from a drug addiction. I thought we were supposed to be rewarded in our trivial lives for changing ourselves for the better and overcoming the obstacles life throws at us, NOT have them cycle over and over until it withers away your happiness, security, and self-worth.
I have built myself into a pillar of strength, and have kept going through it all. But I am constantly asking myself when is it ever going to stop?
Someone tell me what I keep going for, because I'm losing faith in everything...
Life never ceases to amaze me with it's multitude of chaotic slurs forcibly aimed at me on a consecutive basis. I really don't know what else I can do. I've been on the right path, making positive choices, staying elusive to any sort of trouble, and yet, I am constantly beaten down to the earth without any insight of why I am not allowed to spread my wings and fly.
Last night was hard enough. It would have been my grandfather's birthday had he not passed last December (and my dear grandmother a December before), so coping with that this year was trying. But I had moving into my new apartment to look forward to today, right?
Not so much...
I woke up early today to pack the few things I have up here so far in order to bring them to the new apartment. I went in, signed all the remaining papers, got everything in order, and then the lady informs me that I needed $575 for the first month's rent right then and there in order to complete everything. We just put a $400 security deposit down and had the electricity put into my name and turned on. I was never informed that I would also need this money today until everything was signed. Un-fucking-believable.
So now Derby and I are at a crossroads. I have been fighting off panic attacks all day, trying not to completely lose my mind, and she is trying so hard to figure everything out for the two of us to move in. Thankfully, her boyfriend found her a place to stay, and she's going to work nearly every night in order to make the money to move us in. I just began working when I moved up here about a month ago, so I don't really have the money to do anything yet. Thank fuck I have made a few friends around here, however, as I do have a place to stay and have rides to work until this can get figured out.
I'm just so confused with how my life is going. I did everything I could to make it up to Pensacola in the first place, to start fresh and be in a more choice location for Scott and I to work more together for SG. I had most of my finances taken care of, left most of my belongings with my ex and some friends down in Ft. Myers for me to retrieve later, put insurance back on my car, got the AC fixed in it (as well as prepared it for the road by topping off all the fluids and checking tires, as well as cleaning and detailing it), and took my final paycheck from the last salon I worked at to move up here.
But my car only made it to Tampa. Of all the things that could happen, the transmission started slipping two hours into my 9 hour drive, and I couldn't complete my journey. Thankfully, I know a ton of people in the Tampa area, and was able to not only have a place to stay for the evening that it happened, but they also gave me a ride the rest of the way up here. My car is still in Tampa, but they were also kind enough to park it in their complex and are going to look at it and fix it as soon as they have the time and I have the money.
Upon moving here, things have been alright. It's had it's ups and downs, and where I was living was just not what I had in mind, so this move into a new apartment, with Derby as my roommate, was the best thing for both of us, as we have both been incredibly stressed. And now that has fallen apart for the time being. So now I will just have to wait and see what my roommate and I can come up with in the next week or so, money-wise.
I just don't get it. I have done everything I possibly can to further my life, my career, and stay focused. But the further I get along, the harder it becomes for me not to go over the edge, as the constant bullshit life throws at me never lets up. Ever. In the past two and a half years, I have lost both of my beloved grandparents; had a close friend overdose and will be like a 5 year old now and for the rest of her life; was in a car accident that almost ruined me from doing hair ever again (wasn't my fault either); my mother, who is everything to me, moved back to Ohio; and I wrestled myself away from a drug addiction. I thought we were supposed to be rewarded in our trivial lives for changing ourselves for the better and overcoming the obstacles life throws at us, NOT have them cycle over and over until it withers away your happiness, security, and self-worth.
I have built myself into a pillar of strength, and have kept going through it all. But I am constantly asking myself when is it ever going to stop?
Someone tell me what I keep going for, because I'm losing faith in everything...
Happy Halloween everyone! Hope all of you have enjoyed it thus far.
I have been terribly busy, and as many of you know, I will be moving into my own apartment tomorrow here in Pensacola, so wish me luck with everything! I miss everyone, and I'm sorry I haven't been in touch with all of you as much lately. I'm a working man now, and without a computer most of the time, so I apologize.
Also, today would have been my Grandfather's birthday, whom passed away last December. I love and miss you, G-pa! My thoughts are with you and Nan today.
Anyways, hope everyone enjoys their evening! Have some fun for me!
I have been terribly busy, and as many of you know, I will be moving into my own apartment tomorrow here in Pensacola, so wish me luck with everything! I miss everyone, and I'm sorry I haven't been in touch with all of you as much lately. I'm a working man now, and without a computer most of the time, so I apologize.
Also, today would have been my Grandfather's birthday, whom passed away last December. I love and miss you, G-pa! My thoughts are with you and Nan today.
Anyways, hope everyone enjoys their evening! Have some fun for me!
So I am officially getting my own apartment as of November 1st. The place I've been staying since I moved here to Pensacola just isn't worth the time, money, or hassle of trying to live there. As I have been under immense amounts of stress and working constantly, I'm thankful that I am finally getting a place to call "home". Maybe now all these panic attacks and my ulcer constantly giving me problems has paid off.
Derby Suicide and I put the bullshit we've been going trough aside and got money together to put down for the security deposit and got everything else we needed in my name, so we finally got this to work out, as it was kind of the purpose of me moving up here in the first place...to get back on my own two feet, to start fresh in an area I know nothing about, and to get things going finacially also.
I know she's needed this for herself as well, and I'm very thankful she's been so helpful. Although I hardly ever see her since our work schedules are so different from one another, I'm just glad to know that she can be such a good person in times of need.
As it is, the guy she's dating is working on getting her laptop fixed by one of his computer genius friends, so hopefully after her and I get everything moved in this week, we can get that up and running soon so I can keep up to date with everyone (and eventually, once I have some of my debt paid off, then I can go purchase a laptop of my own). In the meantime, just text me if you need to get in touch with me.
Derby Suicide and I put the bullshit we've been going trough aside and got money together to put down for the security deposit and got everything else we needed in my name, so we finally got this to work out, as it was kind of the purpose of me moving up here in the first place...to get back on my own two feet, to start fresh in an area I know nothing about, and to get things going finacially also.
I know she's needed this for herself as well, and I'm very thankful she's been so helpful. Although I hardly ever see her since our work schedules are so different from one another, I'm just glad to know that she can be such a good person in times of need.
As it is, the guy she's dating is working on getting her laptop fixed by one of his computer genius friends, so hopefully after her and I get everything moved in this week, we can get that up and running soon so I can keep up to date with everyone (and eventually, once I have some of my debt paid off, then I can go purchase a laptop of my own). In the meantime, just text me if you need to get in touch with me.
Well, my roommate's computer I have been using recently has decided to die out on us. I think the battery may have fizzed out and until it can be replaced, we're without a computer.
So in the meantime, I have a prepay Virgin phone I have been using (Had to...owe Sprint too much right now). If you need to get in touch with me, please call or text at 850-454-4899.
Also, please call 850-475-2585 to schedule with me at work!
Thanks everyone! I'll be able to check my mail and such from time to time whenever I can, so just stick with me and keep in touch until we can get the laptop fixed!
So in the meantime, I have a prepay Virgin phone I have been using (Had to...owe Sprint too much right now). If you need to get in touch with me, please call or text at 850-454-4899.
Also, please call 850-475-2585 to schedule with me at work!
Thanks everyone! I'll be able to check my mail and such from time to time whenever I can, so just stick with me and keep in touch until we can get the laptop fixed!
So I am having some animated and non-animated banners made to use to promote myself as a hairstylist and as a hairstylist for SG photoshoots with Scott. Once they're finished, I will be posting them along with codes on my business profile on Myspace (Travis SG Stylist). If you'd like to use one, please let me know in advance so I can make sure to get one over to you as soon as I have them in my possession! I appreciate any of the support, and will return the favor by using one of your banners in return, and who knows, maybe you can even score some free hair stuff or whatever else out of me for helping out!
Anyways, today is one of my rare days off, and since it has been relatively stress free (for once), so I am going to go and continue to enjoy it...ciao!
Anyways, today is one of my rare days off, and since it has been relatively stress free (for once), so I am going to go and continue to enjoy it...ciao!
Work has been great lately. EVery client I have had walk in has been enthusiastic about returning to me. Had a client today that accidentally elbowed me in my no-no region, though. She felt kind of bad, but after the pain subsided, she tipped me nicely. Guess she felt bad, haha.
Getting great responses here on SG as well with my line of work, and everyone seems pretty excited for me to play with their hair. I'm looking forward to it and hoping Scott and I can get everything figured out soon. We're both just extremely busy people.
I have something else to be excited about too. But it's a secret...
Getting great responses here on SG as well with my line of work, and everyone seems pretty excited for me to play with their hair. I'm looking forward to it and hoping Scott and I can get everything figured out soon. We're both just extremely busy people.
I have something else to be excited about too. But it's a secret...
