I can't believe this is happening again. My mother is back in the hospital, and this time it's much worse.

Friday night I got a late phone call from an unknown number, which I usually don't answer. Turns out it was my mother, calling me from the hospital again. By the time I got the voicemail, it was too late to call her back, so I got in touch with my sister and asked her if mom was back in the hospital...

Turns out, my mother's liver is severely damaged. It's not past the point of repair, but what has happened is that over the years, with all the meds she has taken and been a guinea pig on, her liver is starting to give out from it. What this means now is that if her liver recovers, she will be unable to take the proper medication for her bi-polar disorder/manic depression...ever!

Right now I am without words. I don't even know what to say about all of this. I just kept telling her "Mom, I can't lose you...I can't go through this again after Nan & Grandpa passing" and she promised me she is staying strong and will pull through this, so it's at least a good thing to see her looking at this in a positive manner. But seriously, it just seems like this is constantly taking a turn for the worst.

Well, today I got a frantic phone call from my sister, and then from my mother as well. After the hospital ran some tests on her over the weekend, apparently the only medicine they can put her on is Lithium. The last time my mother was on Lithium, which was many years ago, it only made her worse, both mentally and physically. To add to that, her doctor is not providing her with enough information about her liver or what other routes she can take, and the entire unit is treating her like she's lost her mind simply because she has been crying all day (I guess when you act like their little puppy dog, you're "stable") and she doesn't know what to do because no one will give her answers. So later today, whenever I get a break, I am going to call her doctor myself and demand some information. I've about had it. This is my mother we're talking here, not just some drone or guinea pig.

So I need your prayers or whatever it is you do, yet again. My mother is the strongest woman I know, but strength alone sometimes might not pull you through. I've seen it before, and I can't lose my mother.

Also, I start at Revolution Studio today. I need everyone who has been so loyal to me and showed themselves to be true friends as well to please come in and get your hair done. With all of this stuff going on with my mother, and being as to how I should be in Ohio right now as it is but couldn't afford to go even though I had a plane ticket ready, I don't need to be stressing out about if I am going to make my booth rental, rent, and pay my phone bill, all of which is due this week and I have hardly any money for right now because of everything that has been going on.

Please call me at 850-454-4899 to schedule, as this salon is by appointment only. Just showing up isn't going to work anymore, so I will need to know if you are coming in. I definitely appreciate it and will forever be in your debt for any of your help!

Thank you everyone for being so supportive and understanding, and especially for keeping up with me about how my mom is. You have no idea how important this is to me and my family!