sooo much bullshit going on. Sorry i neglect this, and you all as well. =/

i'm at the point in my life where SOMETHING has got to give. Something needs to happen that will change my life for the better, or i'm pretty much gonna succumb to the nothing that i have been so far. i do not want that. Lately i've gotten much grief for even wanting to be on this site, and actually thought i never would be for awhile. There's alot of inner turmoil going on about this, but i feel that i need to do things for ME, no matter how hard they are or who i displease

Lost someone i wanted to keep, who changed me for the better and got me to re-think alot of things about life and more importantly, myself. Shits bad right now so i just need to keep busy, keep taking that wellbutrin and even if it isn't for SG i need to shoot shoot shoot. I had all the motivation and drive that i needed to actually do the million things that i want/need to do. That person was that change for the better that i needed, and i had confidence and sooo much desire to actually get things done, but all that was suddenly pulled from underneath my feet. Whatever i do decide to pursue, i have to do it on my own now. And that is fine, as i wont be the first.

A close friend of mine told me that i'm drowning and that when she was in the same situation, getting out was the answer. Thought about that a great deal and i think it is actually time to hit the road and go wherever my size 6 feet want to go. just don't know where, and don't have the money for that yet haha. Not a permanent move yet, for my grandma is getting a much worse and i'm finding myself having to take up more and more of my time caring for her as of late. Can't abandon her like my sister wants to do. So just getting away for a short while might sort my head out a bit. Any lovely ladies that would take me in for a week or two, feel free to raise your hands haha

So sorry i don't have anything interesting or positive to talk about, if you don't like it then...don't read my shit?

FOLLOW ME ON TWIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITER @Shaniqua_nyc !

gogogogogogo because i spend half of my life tweeting anyway, and its usually describing graphic sexual acts (there won't be any of THAT going on anymore though), me eating alot of food, dork things, emo rants, shoes, etc

And with that, i'll close with informing you all that John Mayer completely ruins my hard. Shits happened more than once now hate that nigga

Are you one of those people who pretty much HATES their new tattoos untill they've healed? Next day? Tattoos are like a new haircut for some-never looks good until the next day

Well i've never hated any of my tattoos before, but the one i got today im NOT feeling. Reminds me of the queen of hearts. NOw dont get me wrong, i have nothing against the queen on hearts, but iddddkkkk

look at my fat arm pic http://twitpic.com/vhn2k

I WANT TO SHOOT A SET ASAP-anyone who knows any good photogs in nyc...or if you ARE a good photog in nyc...you should message me. Or chirp @ me on twitter lmao http://twitter.com/Shaniqua_nyc only because not a day goes by where im not on that shit. Im addicted.


but YES lovely ladies and gents, Shanni needs to shoot a new set...now. NOt now, but right now.

PS, i never knew how hard it was to extricate boogers from your nose when you have no nails. I've never clipped my nails fully off untill recently, and i dont think i can do it again. I dont enjoy bobby/safety pins etc up my fucking nose. Id much rather have the booger out than in. Anyone feel me on this?

YOU GUYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

i still fail at being on this haha. BUT good news
planning to shoot really really soon-been working out like crazy, but still not as much as id like to

im actually procrastinating working out right now, hence me coming on here to hit up some of the groups to get inspiration/motivation

I just wanna shoot another set really soon, but id like to be confident about it, ya know?
Any tips? my sister said i've shrunk my stomach (which i dont see at all), but now my thighs look kinda huge in comparison. I know spot reduction doesnt really work, so im jsut trying to do alot of cardio. GAH i dont know, usually i just do at least a half hour of free walk on the Wii fit if i feel lazy

well, you guys should follow me on twitter, its actually http://twitter.com/Shaniqua_nyc
and get on aim if you're bored.

Now feel free to yell at me to workout haha

i fucking missed bored to death last night and i cant wait untill my tv gets it on demand. =(



its ok, because i still have the mighty boosh and awesome fruit salads lol. Im obsessed with Pom seeds right now-i dont understand how i could have ever lived without them. THat and Noyu teas. Im actually out and i need to go to Fairway really soon geh

Alright guys, SO SORRY i've been away from here for soooo long! IDK, i didnt have any prozac lol, and i wasnt looking forward to shooting another set because i had gained abit of weight. I KNOW there are bigger girls on here, and they look so awesome lol but idk, im always struggling with body image issues. If you're a female you definitely understand this. And hats off to all the girls that have been shooting lol, you're a better bitch than me

I havent been up to much, havent been to good either, so dont ask these question. INSTEAD, get me up to date on the superb sets i've missed. Post your favorite sets or shots from them here. Any great hopefuls turn pink? I WANNA SEE

and feel free to toot your own horn if you're a girl with a great set!

im gonna shoot really really soon and i have afew cool ideas, but any you'd like to suggest are greatly appreciated!!

so talk talk guys, i missed you all and i wont dissapear again lol

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Because we only come out at night

So Jake got ran over by a taxi =( He's in the hospital, and apparently they had to replace his knee with some titanium shit
the day before he had that surgery was when he told me, but he fell asleep before i could ask what hospital he was at, so i have no idea

i really need to find out

i miss him so much. He's in all my dreams. At least then i get to kiss him =/

i have a really bad tooth ache, and its really distracting

i loved seeing Van Atta High yesterday, even though i had to go to FLC to see them, It was ok i guess. At least i got to talk to Steve. Dear lord, when i walked by him he gave me this look that went straight to the very core of my insides-and of course i ran lol, But eventually we talked, and he recognized me cuzza my band and wwhatnot. He was sooo nice and cute. Some of the lyrics he penned for Roderick are the sweetest words i think i've ever heard

Idk if you can tell but im totally smitten lol. Im waiting for his text right now

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ive been on a serious hiatus but dear lord-im on fucking model mayhem, and im reading all these threads cuz im bored as shit, right? So i search for SG-and you know what i find? thousands of threads about how SG is evil blah blah

they're all really old and i dont want to get yelled at for bumping them, so i dont say anything, but guess what? i can say my opinion here

NOW I DONT CLAIM TO KNOW EEEEVERYTHING, these are just my personal opinions on the matter:

opinion #1-half of those people bashing SG are "alt" looking girls who probly applied athousand times and just couldnt get one set purchased-being bitter is human nature but seriously people, get a LIFE-taking the time to bash and bash, threadd after thread will NOT make you feel any better about being rejected. Move on

opinion#2- see opinion #1

opinion#3- people DO fail to see that so many girls are on this site and loooove it-if i want to show my boobs and twat, who gives a fuck? its not wrong

opinion #4- people are throwing GG left and right, but honestly, the quality of images on there SUCK and many of those girls look like shiiit-i mean come on-EDIT THE IMAGES! Id rather stare at pretty blondes with just a lower back tattoo (thats not even a reason to complain, i mean come on) then stare at them murky ass, makeup artists' hand in the 1000 pic long set pictures. There are standards here. If im gonna show my twat on the internet, wouldnt i rather want the image to be crisp and clear? shit, am i WRONG for this?

there are claims that the standards, image quality wise are going down, but WTF? as a hopeful i can tell you-i can name at least 4 dozen girls whos sets get REJECTED for this very reason-poor image quality! That shit pisses me off more than anything, because its SUCH a huge factor as to whether a set gets purchased or not- as it should be!

i think SG is the superior "alt" site-no other site offers this type of exposure or opportunities-people are sitting there arguing over semantics and whatnot when they need to get over it. If you think ppl are being screwed over, be happy that it isnt you. Mind your own business. Anything you say isnt gonna change the opinion of someone who really wants to do this

i dont mean to revert back to gangsta terms, but DO YOU! it doesnt hurt-whether its just tits and twats to you or a method of art, if it makes you happy, be apart of it and if it doesnt, then go about your own-niggas are HATERRRRRRRRRS, and the thing about haters is that they omit an unmistakable stench-and thats what it comes down tooooo

So the moral of the story is please, smell fresh =)

ok, now that we're done with that rant-i HAD to get it out
i have a shoot at like 10am and i should be asleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep
i dont even knwo what im gonna wear really bwahaha, im such a sorry excuse for a model. Oh well, at least i did my nails lol

i miss Jake so0o much so im trying to busy myself so i can have other things on my mind. So far its working, but not before i fall asleep and not when i wake up. Its true-you really dont know what you have until its gone.

im just tired of guys dipping because "they dont want to have a girlfriend right now", then they wifed a bitch up like 2 weeks later. if that happens with him, im really fucking done. Its happened like 4 times in a row now =(
Speaking of which, that happened with our drummer-i actually had to walk out of practice the other day because this nigga dead ass told me to "blow" him. I shoulda just kept it real and been like "YEAH i would, if i thought you wouldnt cum in 2 seconds like last time", BUT instead, i just walked out. Now we have practice manana and i may or may not go-but we have a show in LI friday and i'll show up for that, even though noone is going because warped is the next day-how lame

i miss jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaake ugh-thats why i have so many shoots in the next few days. Being productive is fun! Checkout some shiznits from last week


mad funny


my eyes are type closed in this one-but i can pass it off as the "sexy look", right? bwahaha

fucking wii fit said i gained ten pounds in 6 days-if that were true, i would notice, right?/

and i wouldnt be able to fit in any of my clothes, right??


RIGHT???

Reassurance, people?

I know i do like my burger and fries, but damn 10 pounds in 6 days? Im gonna go run some more ugh

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It was our first show-i think it was ood for a first one

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Theres us playing "Act Appallled" by circa survive floating around youtube-one from the show and one practice
THIS is the one from the show-just WATCH it-i gets hyphy

oh yeah, dont forget my set!
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and this is us just practicing it
hit me up and tell me what you think
and go look at my set lol MY SET <3

OH and i'll be in South Carolina May 8th to the 11th so photogs get at me
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