JEEZZZZZZZZE US.. Seriously. I hate this.. I hate having to vent about things and having things to vent about.
I saw my mom earlier this month. She is progressing. But I think that she has some sort of depression (even before this happened due to a car wreck) and it's stuck in her head that she is going to be so dysfunctional that it's making her dysfunctional. She has a constant migraine which is normal after this kind of brain trauma but she doesn't seem to get that the migraine is causing double vision and all kinds of other things. No, it has to be something else. Something more severe. Which it isn't and I had to tell her that she has to get a grip on herself and have a better attitude. Because I now have no self esteem left. I am stuttering around new people and unable to speak up. And I am half way funny now.
AND because my brother was diagnosed with cancer on Wednesday. He has a non-hogdkins lymphoma in his abdomen. He starts chemo next week hopefully. He's 25... 25.. The growth has made him not eat (he's a big boy, 280) and tired. Chemo every 3 weeks for 6 hours at a time. Fingers crossed. He has a good outlook on this working and luckily he will get STD and LTD as well as the treatment only costing 750.
For some reason I feel like my family is cursed. It's so strange. My mom's half sister was kidnapped and killed in the 70's (at 5 years old). My uncle was murder in 2001. 4 out of the 5 kids that were living to teenage years are addicted to drugs of some sort. My mom is the only one that is not. She does have a serial outlook on marriage, like my grandma
. My father is MR. Fucking Craptaculor and is my mom's dad. . and then all this. And I guess because it's the web you wouldn't know it, but I walk around with a fucking grin on my face everywhere in public. To the point that people who think they know me think that I am so fucking adjusted. It's hard to be adjusted every fucking day.
And I hate my job. Firstly, I think that the HR person or the VP of the company told other people about why I left when my mom was sick. And I don't like that. Yes I cried the day I found out but I don't like to cry at work and I don't like to bring things up to people who don't really know me, world wide web excluded. They've gone through 3 payroll people in less than a year.... .hum?...
I think that I don't like HR. I think that I want to be a teacher. I love children and I'd have autonomy. I also believe that having an education can better anyone. Also, I want my own kids and don't want to ship them off every summer or have them being latch key kids. I dunno.
I still haven't touched the wedding. I did buy a brass basket for the flower girl but other than that... Nothing.
I know it will get better. And if it doesn't. Maybe I can move to Nevada and be part of the legalized prostitution... At least that way I'd be getting some sex.. more on that later i guess.
I saw my mom earlier this month. She is progressing. But I think that she has some sort of depression (even before this happened due to a car wreck) and it's stuck in her head that she is going to be so dysfunctional that it's making her dysfunctional. She has a constant migraine which is normal after this kind of brain trauma but she doesn't seem to get that the migraine is causing double vision and all kinds of other things. No, it has to be something else. Something more severe. Which it isn't and I had to tell her that she has to get a grip on herself and have a better attitude. Because I now have no self esteem left. I am stuttering around new people and unable to speak up. And I am half way funny now.
AND because my brother was diagnosed with cancer on Wednesday. He has a non-hogdkins lymphoma in his abdomen. He starts chemo next week hopefully. He's 25... 25.. The growth has made him not eat (he's a big boy, 280) and tired. Chemo every 3 weeks for 6 hours at a time. Fingers crossed. He has a good outlook on this working and luckily he will get STD and LTD as well as the treatment only costing 750.
For some reason I feel like my family is cursed. It's so strange. My mom's half sister was kidnapped and killed in the 70's (at 5 years old). My uncle was murder in 2001. 4 out of the 5 kids that were living to teenage years are addicted to drugs of some sort. My mom is the only one that is not. She does have a serial outlook on marriage, like my grandma
. My father is MR. Fucking Craptaculor and is my mom's dad. . and then all this. And I guess because it's the web you wouldn't know it, but I walk around with a fucking grin on my face everywhere in public. To the point that people who think they know me think that I am so fucking adjusted. It's hard to be adjusted every fucking day. And I hate my job. Firstly, I think that the HR person or the VP of the company told other people about why I left when my mom was sick. And I don't like that. Yes I cried the day I found out but I don't like to cry at work and I don't like to bring things up to people who don't really know me, world wide web excluded. They've gone through 3 payroll people in less than a year.... .hum?...
I think that I don't like HR. I think that I want to be a teacher. I love children and I'd have autonomy. I also believe that having an education can better anyone. Also, I want my own kids and don't want to ship them off every summer or have them being latch key kids. I dunno.
I still haven't touched the wedding. I did buy a brass basket for the flower girl but other than that... Nothing.
I know it will get better. And if it doesn't. Maybe I can move to Nevada and be part of the legalized prostitution... At least that way I'd be getting some sex.. more on that later i guess.
It's been awhile since my last post.
So things as they stand have been a roller coaster of emotions. I went to NOLA for almost a week to deal with the emergency at hand. My mom stayed almost another week in the hospital after I left. And even though I pleaded with her 'friend' Pat not to let my mom go home and to encourage her to go to her dad's, her friend was super selfish and told my mom that she could help her. Now though that seems very helpful, this lady and my mom have been friends only about 8 months, and though they've known each other for years (running in same circles) they weren't close before this. And she is 'disabled' so how the hell is she suppose to help my mom if she falls on the floor?
That has been the greatest trouble I have had with this whole situation. My mom's dad owes her a lot in the taking care of department and I wouldn't feel guilty if she needed him and his wife to take care of her. And I tried to stress that to her friend. Also my step-grandma stays at home 24/7 with her mom, they are closer to NOLA (university hospital) and OWE my mom a lot of taking care of. No fucking kidding. My grandpa got remarried and basically turned his back on his former kids. (long fucking Story). And to top things off, Pat's family is fucked up and need her help with their own inability to take care of their own fucking kids. And her inability NOT to smoke inside my mom's house. My mom smokes but mostly outside, Pat lights up 8 cigerettes in a row inside. The fucking lady had the nerve to tell me that when i told her to get out of the house while my mom was in the hospital, that she smokes sometimes inside. I said, well, I here, don't smoke and you need to get out with that cigerette. Also, she cut my mom's hair the moment I was on the plane. Because it was full of blood, which it wasn't because my cousins, a nurse, and I washed all of the blood out. It just had one more knot. Pat also said that she had to respect my wishes until I got on the plane, to my best friend.. Stupid bitch.
Ok I am ranting here because I am stressed. I don't like the fact that this lady was selfish because no one was asking or responding to her say, "i can help renelle". So she was deceptive by saying she would not tell my mom that she could help... but did. She made a lot of headaches and heartbreaks for me. And I don't really appreciate it. And though I guess I should be 'grateful" I'm not. Because I don't think that everything was totally selfless. And she lets everyone know how much she is helping out too. OMG does she ever. but here's the thing, she knew her family was a bunch of meth heads yet told my mom that they needed a place to rent, so two months ago they just up and left. She comes from crap and doesn't want to do better for herself or or family. ARugh. she just gets under my skin.
As far as my mom's health is concerned. She is doing better. She doesn't have the short term together yet. She walking a bit better and she is almost getting her eyesight together. Tomorrow she goes to the neurologist and then the next day to the therapist. But who knows how that is going to go. If you don't know... NOLA is still crappy from Katrina and the healthcare system is close to freaking blowing up. Blach.
We also wound up not getting our house. Which I am sure I posted about last time.
I am on the verge of a break down. I have started to get anxiety flashes before I go to work. I am almost certain that it's me and not the job. But my heart starts to race and I don't want to leave the house. It actually made me want to stay inside on the weekend as well. I have always had a case of the weepies. But I have been trying to battle it with diet and exercise, two of which have fallen to the wayside a bit recently. I don't know what to do because I am not sure if i should go to the doctor or to a therapist. I have always been able to talk about my past and how I feel with friends and also have made efforts to try to do things differently, where I think that a therapist would help. Kicker, is that I am becoming more antisocial and don't want to meet this new person. And I am not sure about medication.
So I am stuck with my self evaluation and my craziness. BLAh.
Good news. Michael is still a good person and loves me anyway. And I got a haircut today and a Pediegg.. which is suppose to get rid of the roughness on my feet, gross huh?!
So things as they stand have been a roller coaster of emotions. I went to NOLA for almost a week to deal with the emergency at hand. My mom stayed almost another week in the hospital after I left. And even though I pleaded with her 'friend' Pat not to let my mom go home and to encourage her to go to her dad's, her friend was super selfish and told my mom that she could help her. Now though that seems very helpful, this lady and my mom have been friends only about 8 months, and though they've known each other for years (running in same circles) they weren't close before this. And she is 'disabled' so how the hell is she suppose to help my mom if she falls on the floor?
That has been the greatest trouble I have had with this whole situation. My mom's dad owes her a lot in the taking care of department and I wouldn't feel guilty if she needed him and his wife to take care of her. And I tried to stress that to her friend. Also my step-grandma stays at home 24/7 with her mom, they are closer to NOLA (university hospital) and OWE my mom a lot of taking care of. No fucking kidding. My grandpa got remarried and basically turned his back on his former kids. (long fucking Story). And to top things off, Pat's family is fucked up and need her help with their own inability to take care of their own fucking kids. And her inability NOT to smoke inside my mom's house. My mom smokes but mostly outside, Pat lights up 8 cigerettes in a row inside. The fucking lady had the nerve to tell me that when i told her to get out of the house while my mom was in the hospital, that she smokes sometimes inside. I said, well, I here, don't smoke and you need to get out with that cigerette. Also, she cut my mom's hair the moment I was on the plane. Because it was full of blood, which it wasn't because my cousins, a nurse, and I washed all of the blood out. It just had one more knot. Pat also said that she had to respect my wishes until I got on the plane, to my best friend.. Stupid bitch.
Ok I am ranting here because I am stressed. I don't like the fact that this lady was selfish because no one was asking or responding to her say, "i can help renelle". So she was deceptive by saying she would not tell my mom that she could help... but did. She made a lot of headaches and heartbreaks for me. And I don't really appreciate it. And though I guess I should be 'grateful" I'm not. Because I don't think that everything was totally selfless. And she lets everyone know how much she is helping out too. OMG does she ever. but here's the thing, she knew her family was a bunch of meth heads yet told my mom that they needed a place to rent, so two months ago they just up and left. She comes from crap and doesn't want to do better for herself or or family. ARugh. she just gets under my skin.
As far as my mom's health is concerned. She is doing better. She doesn't have the short term together yet. She walking a bit better and she is almost getting her eyesight together. Tomorrow she goes to the neurologist and then the next day to the therapist. But who knows how that is going to go. If you don't know... NOLA is still crappy from Katrina and the healthcare system is close to freaking blowing up. Blach.
We also wound up not getting our house. Which I am sure I posted about last time.
I am on the verge of a break down. I have started to get anxiety flashes before I go to work. I am almost certain that it's me and not the job. But my heart starts to race and I don't want to leave the house. It actually made me want to stay inside on the weekend as well. I have always had a case of the weepies. But I have been trying to battle it with diet and exercise, two of which have fallen to the wayside a bit recently. I don't know what to do because I am not sure if i should go to the doctor or to a therapist. I have always been able to talk about my past and how I feel with friends and also have made efforts to try to do things differently, where I think that a therapist would help. Kicker, is that I am becoming more antisocial and don't want to meet this new person. And I am not sure about medication.
So I am stuck with my self evaluation and my craziness. BLAh.
Good news. Michael is still a good person and loves me anyway. And I got a haircut today and a Pediegg.. which is suppose to get rid of the roughness on my feet, gross huh?!
Emails to friends while I was out
04/03/08
04/03/08
04/06/08
It will all get better.
So I thought my next post was going to be about how I got into my dream house and I was getting up to starting my life with my soon to be husband......
What it's going to be about is I'm flying to NOLA tomorrow to be with my mom. The guy that she was 'dating' aka letting live with her for free with his lazy ass somehow knocked her out and fled. She was unconscious for at least 40 minutes. I found out today from my stepgrandmother. It happened yesterday, no wonder why she didn't answer my calls.
It was already hard. We are trying to buy a house meanwhile rent the 1/2 of the duplex that my mom is in. We took over the house last year in order to make sure if she had to file bankruptcy that she'd have a roof over her head and if she was living in Mississippi some funds. So the house still isn't rented and I have to go home to deal with this stuff. My brother is at most times, useless. I asked him to let people know we have a place for rent b/c he knows people in the area or knows people who know people. Unlike me who just has Genevieve (member). He's like you should sell it. Um, fucking duh.. However, the market is low and can you just ask around and not butt in.
I am freaking stressed and guilty. I told my mom on Saturday that I did not trust those around her. I meant this David person. He didn't work, he was overly clingy, and I just didn't like him. And now this happened. I don't even know.
I just started my new job in Feb. I don't want to lose it but how do you juggle this kind of crap?
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My mom is alive. I'm happy about that. She's not making sense but she's in the ICU under guarded condition, for whatever that means. My dad called me to see if I knew, my grandmother somehow called him. My mom would be LIVID if she knew because my dad is a creep for the most part. My dad was like, your mom has a temper... My dad use to beat my mom.... So of course he can reason this guy. But my dad is also from Vietnam so... this guy, some latin country. He fled even faster because he's an undocumented worker.
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GTG. Maybe pack? I have a flight out tomorrow morning but I can't get to packing.
OH and now one of my other cats needs surgery to remove his Cyst on his back. WTF. does it have to pour when it rains? Can i please have some sort of peace.. somewhere?
I feel like Michael is going to get tired of all of this craziness and go. I trust he won't but I know I'm crazy enough to make him unhappy...
What it's going to be about is I'm flying to NOLA tomorrow to be with my mom. The guy that she was 'dating' aka letting live with her for free with his lazy ass somehow knocked her out and fled. She was unconscious for at least 40 minutes. I found out today from my stepgrandmother. It happened yesterday, no wonder why she didn't answer my calls.
It was already hard. We are trying to buy a house meanwhile rent the 1/2 of the duplex that my mom is in. We took over the house last year in order to make sure if she had to file bankruptcy that she'd have a roof over her head and if she was living in Mississippi some funds. So the house still isn't rented and I have to go home to deal with this stuff. My brother is at most times, useless. I asked him to let people know we have a place for rent b/c he knows people in the area or knows people who know people. Unlike me who just has Genevieve (member). He's like you should sell it. Um, fucking duh.. However, the market is low and can you just ask around and not butt in.
I am freaking stressed and guilty. I told my mom on Saturday that I did not trust those around her. I meant this David person. He didn't work, he was overly clingy, and I just didn't like him. And now this happened. I don't even know.
I just started my new job in Feb. I don't want to lose it but how do you juggle this kind of crap?
AROUIIIIIIIIIIIIIIFHoahgohahgorehafoiafoewijf.
My mom is alive. I'm happy about that. She's not making sense but she's in the ICU under guarded condition, for whatever that means. My dad called me to see if I knew, my grandmother somehow called him. My mom would be LIVID if she knew because my dad is a creep for the most part. My dad was like, your mom has a temper... My dad use to beat my mom.... So of course he can reason this guy. But my dad is also from Vietnam so... this guy, some latin country. He fled even faster because he's an undocumented worker.
BLSAHajdfakjdflajkf
GTG. Maybe pack? I have a flight out tomorrow morning but I can't get to packing.
OH and now one of my other cats needs surgery to remove his Cyst on his back. WTF. does it have to pour when it rains? Can i please have some sort of peace.. somewhere?
I feel like Michael is going to get tired of all of this craziness and go. I trust he won't but I know I'm crazy enough to make him unhappy...
So today is officially my second week at my new job. So far I really like it. It's still Human Resources but at a better company, though they don't do a 401k match, they at least offer it. I found out in the last month that when I cobra my insurance, I will only be paying an extra $6 a paycheck, because that is all I was worth to my last job, $12 a month, which is probably just the processing fee. And though i know that it's good to have insurance, I was paying $80 a paycheck with high copays.
So another plus about my job, it's the HR manager, the payroll gal, and me. That's it. I can only depend on myself if things don't go right or to make them better. I have been handed a small task to get the Florida prepaid college funds an automatic debit from peoples checks. It's a small fun project, an extra benefit. I like that idea of helping others.
Today, Michael is irritating me. I don't know why. We were doing fine for about two months and then he just kept being annoying. This morning I went to grab something from the dishwasher and notice it didn't drain, which meant that the dirty water just slooshed around. I told him that I had to rewash all of the dishes because they were dirty. So tonight, he grabs a fork and almost started to stir the garlic butter with it. It just ticked me off. And it has started a snappy-ness in me that I am not liking but can't help it. So everything he did or didn't do with the cleaning and leaving lights on and etc.
Wedding stuff. Okay Okay. You guys have convinced me (for the better) to let someone else do my flowers. I probably will do the guys boutonniere since I am most likely making them out of peacock feathers without flowers so i can do that at any time. But I am thinking I just need a bridesmaid size bouquet, nosegay sized for the girls and two corsages for the mothers. That shouldn't be too bad. I may could do the mother's in silk with the peacock feathers somehow.
I am fearing the dress situation. I only went to Davids and Alfred Angelo but my taste ( I use to be a bridal consultant at two different salons, Formal's Etc a rental place, and Azarue's in Shreveport) is skewed. And I want something nice but not too expensive, put together well, and possibly a bit form fitting. I want a classic cut but fresh in the presentation. But again, not too expensive. I am going to go to the Brides for Breast Cancer on Saturday and if I don't find something there, in Miami there's a HUGE bridal shop, so... Who knows.
I am still working out heavily and am going to get on the eating well train, promise. I know I can take in the dress but that's an added expense. Do you think that if I find a dress soon, I can wait until July to order it? Just to double check the measurements?
*** Update 03/10/08***************
I got a dress. Yes I did! It's beautiful! I got it from the Brides Against Breast cancer event here in Fort Lauderdale, a deal and I'm helping out. Love it.
So another plus about my job, it's the HR manager, the payroll gal, and me. That's it. I can only depend on myself if things don't go right or to make them better. I have been handed a small task to get the Florida prepaid college funds an automatic debit from peoples checks. It's a small fun project, an extra benefit. I like that idea of helping others.
Today, Michael is irritating me. I don't know why. We were doing fine for about two months and then he just kept being annoying. This morning I went to grab something from the dishwasher and notice it didn't drain, which meant that the dirty water just slooshed around. I told him that I had to rewash all of the dishes because they were dirty. So tonight, he grabs a fork and almost started to stir the garlic butter with it. It just ticked me off. And it has started a snappy-ness in me that I am not liking but can't help it. So everything he did or didn't do with the cleaning and leaving lights on and etc.
Wedding stuff. Okay Okay. You guys have convinced me (for the better) to let someone else do my flowers. I probably will do the guys boutonniere since I am most likely making them out of peacock feathers without flowers so i can do that at any time. But I am thinking I just need a bridesmaid size bouquet, nosegay sized for the girls and two corsages for the mothers. That shouldn't be too bad. I may could do the mother's in silk with the peacock feathers somehow.
I am fearing the dress situation. I only went to Davids and Alfred Angelo but my taste ( I use to be a bridal consultant at two different salons, Formal's Etc a rental place, and Azarue's in Shreveport) is skewed. And I want something nice but not too expensive, put together well, and possibly a bit form fitting. I want a classic cut but fresh in the presentation. But again, not too expensive. I am going to go to the Brides for Breast Cancer on Saturday and if I don't find something there, in Miami there's a HUGE bridal shop, so... Who knows.
I am still working out heavily and am going to get on the eating well train, promise. I know I can take in the dress but that's an added expense. Do you think that if I find a dress soon, I can wait until July to order it? Just to double check the measurements?
*** Update 03/10/08***************
I got a dress. Yes I did! It's beautiful! I got it from the Brides Against Breast cancer event here in Fort Lauderdale, a deal and I'm helping out. Love it.
I am suppose to be planning a wedding for Feb 2009. But I am stuck. Creatively stuck. Which is the weirdest thing since I would fancy myself a creative person.
The only thing that I have concrete is our location and date. The deposit has been put down. I also have made save the dates to send to my friends and family that don't live near me.
What I have left to accomplish?:
1. Videographer
2. Photographer
3. Firm Color Choices, Currently I am all over the jewel toned spectrum
4. Centerpieces I like these I want the tree centerpieces to be family trees at each persons table. We may have our family tree at the entrance where people normally sign. The tree will have pictures of us and our family.
5. Bridesmaid color, dress designer, and fabric.. They will be picking their own dress
6. My dress. I've tried a few on so far but eh. I'm also waiting to see if I lose another 20 pounds by May 2008
7. Flowers, what kind, where from, am I going to make them?
8. Our "song"... I thought you are my sunshine, since he always said it but then I listened to ALL of the lyrics, it makes me want to slit my wrist. But my Eeyore that sings it is incredibly cute.
9. Invitations, we want something recycled/recyclable or plant-able.
10. Favors. I was thinking single serve Christmas puddings. Homemade mix for people to make at home.
11. Honeymoon... Um. I don't even know if we are having one.
12. DJ or live band
13. Theme. So far it's moroccan. I thought that an Asian theme would feel a little contrived. And although a perfect pair would be another cute overly used theme, Michael hates pears and apples. Maybe we can be the slippery bananas?
14. Bridesmaid, Groomsmen, Kids, and Parents gifts
15. Hair and Makeup, I may do my own, both.
See it's the whole damn thing.
I do hope that all of my attendants get along or are at least civil. That's my one true wish.
So that's it. It seems a bit less daunting writing it down. I need more spray paint for the trees and some pots to see how it will look. Michael will be out of town for most of the week, so perhaps I will go look around.
Ahh..
*edited on 02/12/08 to say that I got a new job. I start on the 25th. I'm extra excited to leave the shit hole I've been working in. BTW I'm sure that's why i haven't done my wedding things.
The only thing that I have concrete is our location and date. The deposit has been put down. I also have made save the dates to send to my friends and family that don't live near me.
What I have left to accomplish?:
1. Videographer
2. Photographer
3. Firm Color Choices, Currently I am all over the jewel toned spectrum
4. Centerpieces I like these I want the tree centerpieces to be family trees at each persons table. We may have our family tree at the entrance where people normally sign. The tree will have pictures of us and our family.
5. Bridesmaid color, dress designer, and fabric.. They will be picking their own dress
6. My dress. I've tried a few on so far but eh. I'm also waiting to see if I lose another 20 pounds by May 2008
7. Flowers, what kind, where from, am I going to make them?
8. Our "song"... I thought you are my sunshine, since he always said it but then I listened to ALL of the lyrics, it makes me want to slit my wrist. But my Eeyore that sings it is incredibly cute.
9. Invitations, we want something recycled/recyclable or plant-able.
10. Favors. I was thinking single serve Christmas puddings. Homemade mix for people to make at home.
11. Honeymoon... Um. I don't even know if we are having one.
12. DJ or live band
13. Theme. So far it's moroccan. I thought that an Asian theme would feel a little contrived. And although a perfect pair would be another cute overly used theme, Michael hates pears and apples. Maybe we can be the slippery bananas?
14. Bridesmaid, Groomsmen, Kids, and Parents gifts
15. Hair and Makeup, I may do my own, both.
See it's the whole damn thing.
I do hope that all of my attendants get along or are at least civil. That's my one true wish.
So that's it. It seems a bit less daunting writing it down. I need more spray paint for the trees and some pots to see how it will look. Michael will be out of town for most of the week, so perhaps I will go look around.
Ahh..
*edited on 02/12/08 to say that I got a new job. I start on the 25th. I'm extra excited to leave the shit hole I've been working in. BTW I'm sure that's why i haven't done my wedding things.
Ok. So here's to a great New Year! Seriously.
Michael asked me to Marry him on New Years Day while our friends were over to play a game of poker.
He didn't have the ring. Unfortunately he actually went to have it made last Saturday and it wasn't going to be ready in time. He slipped a sour peach ring on my finger. But that's fine, I think it's cute anyway.
I must have been extra good last year.
I got a Kitchen Aid blender.
I am estatic about getting married and being able to be a crazy person bride. However, my real desire is to get married on a yacht but I think that it's not going to happen. Mostly because the rental of the boat starts at $3500 plus $600 gas/docking fee. I have to make a decision ASAP on the location because my family from NOLA is going to come, if they can afford to and knowing sooner than later may help them make a decision.
The only bummer thing is my dad. I called to tell him but had to wait 15 minutes to get thru questions about my brother. Then when I told him, he said he'd be there, though he didn't officially say Congrats. Though I blame on some words are not in Vietnamese as in English. Shortly after, he asked me how much money I make and told me that I could make more if I went to college... I've already graduated college by the way. That kind of made me a pouty face. But I'm not going to let it affect me any more.
Michael asked me to Marry him on New Years Day while our friends were over to play a game of poker.
He didn't have the ring. Unfortunately he actually went to have it made last Saturday and it wasn't going to be ready in time. He slipped a sour peach ring on my finger. But that's fine, I think it's cute anyway
. I must have been extra good last year.
I got a Kitchen Aid blender
. I am estatic about getting married and being able to be a crazy person bride. However, my real desire is to get married on a yacht but I think that it's not going to happen. Mostly because the rental of the boat starts at $3500 plus $600 gas/docking fee. I have to make a decision ASAP on the location because my family from NOLA is going to come, if they can afford to and knowing sooner than later may help them make a decision.
The only bummer thing is my dad. I called to tell him but had to wait 15 minutes to get thru questions about my brother. Then when I told him, he said he'd be there, though he didn't officially say Congrats. Though I blame on some words are not in Vietnamese as in English. Shortly after, he asked me how much money I make and told me that I could make more if I went to college... I've already graduated college by the way. That kind of made me a pouty face. But I'm not going to let it affect me any more.
So i have been busy these last couple of weeks. I took my mom and lyric to disney world. We had a good time, despite the little one not believing in magic.
The last two weeks have been spent with Michael's parents, eating out, going to things like sawgrass boat tours, and just spending time together. I heard a couple of hints from his mother about having grandkids, which I want, but is totally up to Michael actually making an effort to commit. They got on the plane today, back to the UK.
I'm busy refinancing the house we purchased from my mom. it's been a terrible time to do so. The first appraisal guy backed out after paying him through paypal, which the refund is less the processing fee, sucker. And now i am waiting for the next appraisal and hopefully by next week we will be done.
I am really tired now. Tired of just waiting here in Florida for a job opportunity in Louisiana.. We are going to have to make some changes really soon.
So Shhhhhhhhh!! I got michael a bunch of things for brew making for Xmas. I'm super excited. I wrapped each thing individually.. Almost totally individually. .
The last two weeks have been spent with Michael's parents, eating out, going to things like sawgrass boat tours, and just spending time together. I heard a couple of hints from his mother about having grandkids, which I want, but is totally up to Michael actually making an effort to commit. They got on the plane today, back to the UK.
I'm busy refinancing the house we purchased from my mom. it's been a terrible time to do so. The first appraisal guy backed out after paying him through paypal, which the refund is less the processing fee, sucker. And now i am waiting for the next appraisal and hopefully by next week we will be done.
I am really tired now. Tired of just waiting here in Florida for a job opportunity in Louisiana.. We are going to have to make some changes really soon.
So Shhhhhhhhh!! I got michael a bunch of things for brew making for Xmas
. I'm super excited. I wrapped each thing individually.. Almost totally individually. . So we are back in the real world. I will post more pictures later but here are a few from the cruise:
So here are my pictures Cruise 2007
So here are my pictures Cruise 2007
