Ok heres yet another installment of my journal....
I've been spending WAAAAAAAY too much time on Dating Sucks and well I am getting jaded by it so I gotta vent......
If your fucking someone who you call "dirty" with no protection...YOUR AN IDIOT!
If your out with a buddy at a bar and he uses a psuedo-relationship (we just fuck and thats all relationship) and he tries to score with it...He's a fucking loser and you watched him do it your a fool for not calling him out on it friend or not.
If your really flirty with EVERYONE and that includes your best friends husband and he responds by making sexual innuendo and slaps your ass and you get offended......Your an idiot who led him on and he upped the ante on your ass testing the waters seeing if you'd ante up on the innuendo. Should the wife be pissed? HELL YEAH at both your sorry asses!
I came home tonight and I stared at my bed for a good 10 minutes and pined....yes pined,dreamt,sighed and pined some more wishing that one night I'd come home and I'd have someone in that bed with me to cuddle and fall asleep with (nothing sexual I am genuinely old school like that...you know love and sex hand in hand I gotta be inolved with someone to put out basically). Its been so long since I made an effort to even try to date or be in a relationship and that is entirely my fault and my self-esteems fault for letting a single moment in time determine my life.
I see couples everyday and I see people doing the simplest of things and it makes me heavy in the heart to see things like handholding and just simple embraces and knowing that I don't have that in my life and its just like watching the kids play outside and knowing you can't play too. I feel empty inside sometimes and I know that feeling is nowhere near being permanant I know that love finds us when we least expect it. I have so many things in me and I have so much to offer I just need the chance encounter to go with this.....
Its never truly hopeless.....
I've been spending WAAAAAAAY too much time on Dating Sucks and well I am getting jaded by it so I gotta vent......
If your fucking someone who you call "dirty" with no protection...YOUR AN IDIOT!
If your out with a buddy at a bar and he uses a psuedo-relationship (we just fuck and thats all relationship) and he tries to score with it...He's a fucking loser and you watched him do it your a fool for not calling him out on it friend or not.
If your really flirty with EVERYONE and that includes your best friends husband and he responds by making sexual innuendo and slaps your ass and you get offended......Your an idiot who led him on and he upped the ante on your ass testing the waters seeing if you'd ante up on the innuendo. Should the wife be pissed? HELL YEAH at both your sorry asses!
I came home tonight and I stared at my bed for a good 10 minutes and pined....yes pined,dreamt,sighed and pined some more wishing that one night I'd come home and I'd have someone in that bed with me to cuddle and fall asleep with (nothing sexual I am genuinely old school like that...you know love and sex hand in hand I gotta be inolved with someone to put out basically). Its been so long since I made an effort to even try to date or be in a relationship and that is entirely my fault and my self-esteems fault for letting a single moment in time determine my life.
I see couples everyday and I see people doing the simplest of things and it makes me heavy in the heart to see things like handholding and just simple embraces and knowing that I don't have that in my life and its just like watching the kids play outside and knowing you can't play too. I feel empty inside sometimes and I know that feeling is nowhere near being permanant I know that love finds us when we least expect it. I have so many things in me and I have so much to offer I just need the chance encounter to go with this.....
Its never truly hopeless.....
NOV 28, 2005 07:11 AM
Yeah, I know what you mean. I'm kinda old fashioned too. I love cuddling and stuff. For a guy, I'm a big fan of intimacy.
I recently broke up with my long distance girlfriend. And even though it hurt like hell, I did the noble thing and broke up with her before I found someone else nor did I just fall off the face of the earth on her.
I wish us both all the luck in the world in regards to finding our future soulmates. 
NOV 28, 2005 12:43 PM
NOV 28, 2005 01:23 PM
Just remember that with the cuddling comes morning breath and nagging. Then, you don't feel quite so bad... 
NOV 28, 2005 01:40 PM
NOV 28, 2005 04:49 PM
Haha, I love Hungrymans! "1 pound of food!" Makes it sound like you're a pig going to a trough, heh. Gotta love 'em.
NOV 29, 2005 11:05 AM
You rule.
NOV 29, 2005 11:34 AM
NOV 29, 2005 03:35 PM
i feel so sad for you but i have no doubt you will find that
