The single life is still proving to be so hard.
I've lost ten pounds the first week and I'm still losing.
I'm trying to get past it, but it's the fact that my ex was FANTASTIC until the day it's like, "Oh hey, I've been unhappy on and off for a week." We did the sit down and they need more time, whatever. I think they just need loads of friend time and based on how much they enjoy video games and not having sex, that will determine where we'll stand. It sucks that after such intense love, they can be so cold to me. I wrote a huge letter and they'll text me every day to see how I am, but as soon as I'm like, "Thinking of you," I get back, "I know you are." I just feel like all their feelings are gone and they won't tell me. Just "I love and miss you, but I don't know."
I'm getting older every day and 23 is still so young, but I know what I want. I just want someone to be with me for the rest of my life and I'll compromise for more friend time, but this hurt just is too much. Just over a year of being together, not asking to be together all the time, but getting it, was so nice.
I've lost ten pounds the first week and I'm still losing.
I'm trying to get past it, but it's the fact that my ex was FANTASTIC until the day it's like, "Oh hey, I've been unhappy on and off for a week." We did the sit down and they need more time, whatever. I think they just need loads of friend time and based on how much they enjoy video games and not having sex, that will determine where we'll stand. It sucks that after such intense love, they can be so cold to me. I wrote a huge letter and they'll text me every day to see how I am, but as soon as I'm like, "Thinking of you," I get back, "I know you are." I just feel like all their feelings are gone and they won't tell me. Just "I love and miss you, but I don't know."
I'm getting older every day and 23 is still so young, but I know what I want. I just want someone to be with me for the rest of my life and I'll compromise for more friend time, but this hurt just is too much. Just over a year of being together, not asking to be together all the time, but getting it, was so nice.
I've enjoyed being single after two heartbreaks in a full year.
I knew the first relationship was destine to fail since we were doing a Vancouver, BC/Providence, RI long-ass distance relationship, but this last one has been SO HARD. Especially when you think a person is "the One," it really rocks you to the core. I've lost so much weight and become happy through it, found myself more centered, and found I have a lot of adoring people behind me.
I just wish I could find someone to keep me warm during this winter.
I'm freezing in my bedroom that's 50% window wall space and I leave my heater on at 80 F.
Brrrrr!
In the meantime, preregistering for Anime Boston and going back to school late January!
Yee!
I knew the first relationship was destine to fail since we were doing a Vancouver, BC/Providence, RI long-ass distance relationship, but this last one has been SO HARD. Especially when you think a person is "the One," it really rocks you to the core. I've lost so much weight and become happy through it, found myself more centered, and found I have a lot of adoring people behind me.
I just wish I could find someone to keep me warm during this winter.
I'm freezing in my bedroom that's 50% window wall space and I leave my heater on at 80 F.
Brrrrr!
In the meantime, preregistering for Anime Boston and going back to school late January!
Yee!
Thanks for the school support, guys!
I appreciate all the positive feedback and it assures me I'm doing the right thing.
This weekend, I worked 12:45 AM-9 AM, this Black Friday. I got my first ever food poisoning on some sushi, but it was short-lived at 12 hours and I slept it off. Saturday, which is now, I got to see my best friends in the whole world. Lily goes to Eugene Lang in New York and Missy works SO DAMNED MUCH, so I never get to see them. We basically made a Sex and the City scene of the Cheesecake Factory. Vulgarity, sex and non sex life talk, awkward advice and things about each other we didn't want to know. So much fun. Tomorrow, I work for three hours and you BET I am going to sleep after, all night.
Tonight's make-up and hair:
I appreciate all the positive feedback and it assures me I'm doing the right thing.
This weekend, I worked 12:45 AM-9 AM, this Black Friday. I got my first ever food poisoning on some sushi, but it was short-lived at 12 hours and I slept it off. Saturday, which is now, I got to see my best friends in the whole world. Lily goes to Eugene Lang in New York and Missy works SO DAMNED MUCH, so I never get to see them. We basically made a Sex and the City scene of the Cheesecake Factory. Vulgarity, sex and non sex life talk, awkward advice and things about each other we didn't want to know. So much fun. Tomorrow, I work for three hours and you BET I am going to sleep after, all night.
Tonight's make-up and hair:
How you all had an amazing Thanksgiving, for those in the US and are all enjoying your weekends.
I'm going back to school.
I know I'm going to half regret my decision/half know I did the right thing.
I'm a Pharmacy Technician, now. But, it's just not my forever job, y'know. I can't be doing it forever, and I want to be extremely happy in my career, not just someone with a 6 figure salary's bitch.
Someone tell me I'm doing the right thing.
I know I'm going to half regret my decision/half know I did the right thing.
I'm a Pharmacy Technician, now. But, it's just not my forever job, y'know. I can't be doing it forever, and I want to be extremely happy in my career, not just someone with a 6 figure salary's bitch.
Someone tell me I'm doing the right thing.
I'm leaving SG, soon.
I've been becoming increasingly sad by the messages and friend requests of guys just wanting to see if my account has nudes and if not, will I send them nudes. And, furthermore, they question why I'm not a Hopeful or why I won't reply to their sexually harassing messages.
I'm my own person. That's cool some girls like to put themselves out there and showcase their beauty while they're still young, but it's not for me. I'm a one person girl and only my partner should see my body, because they actually like me for me and anything sexual based is just an amazing extra. Then, guys getting upset when I don't respond to their messages?! If I'm ignoring you it's kind of obvious that I don't want to conduct myself that way. It's just upsetting that if I were a guy, I would be ignored. There's a whole site of girls who have gone pink that you can see naked. HD naked and all. If its not enough, watch porn. I'm done with the messages and the bullshit. But, to my amazing friends on here that actually care about me and always ask about, you guys are the true gold on this site and the only reason I've stayed so long. I love my friends and I hope we still get to talk.
I've been becoming increasingly sad by the messages and friend requests of guys just wanting to see if my account has nudes and if not, will I send them nudes. And, furthermore, they question why I'm not a Hopeful or why I won't reply to their sexually harassing messages.
I'm my own person. That's cool some girls like to put themselves out there and showcase their beauty while they're still young, but it's not for me. I'm a one person girl and only my partner should see my body, because they actually like me for me and anything sexual based is just an amazing extra. Then, guys getting upset when I don't respond to their messages?! If I'm ignoring you it's kind of obvious that I don't want to conduct myself that way. It's just upsetting that if I were a guy, I would be ignored. There's a whole site of girls who have gone pink that you can see naked. HD naked and all. If its not enough, watch porn. I'm done with the messages and the bullshit. But, to my amazing friends on here that actually care about me and always ask about, you guys are the true gold on this site and the only reason I've stayed so long. I love my friends and I hope we still get to talk.
I've found my way back onto last.fm, again.
I forgot how much fun scrobbling is and watching your library change and build.
I'm weird like that, but if you guys have one, add me @ Nasenblutennn.
In other news, it's so windy as fuck and gorgeously dreary outside, I don't want to work.
We found our collection of Tony Hawk games and I want to play them all day and work on my NaNoWrimo novel.
I also had Title Fight on the 27th and PLEASE if you like ska music come to the Met on December 7th for Lemon Lime Tennis Shoes' final show. So sad to see them go, but I guess with Matt being a new husband and new dad, and everyone getting older, it's time.
I forgot how much fun scrobbling is and watching your library change and build.
I'm weird like that, but if you guys have one, add me @ Nasenblutennn.
In other news, it's so windy as fuck and gorgeously dreary outside, I don't want to work.
We found our collection of Tony Hawk games and I want to play them all day and work on my NaNoWrimo novel.
I also had Title Fight on the 27th and PLEASE if you like ska music come to the Met on December 7th for Lemon Lime Tennis Shoes' final show. So sad to see them go, but I guess with Matt being a new husband and new dad, and everyone getting older, it's time.
I don't know if it's because it's 1:30 AM or what, but I'm crying listening to John Frusciante play guitar.
His playing just evokes that from me.
Time to go to bed.
His playing just evokes that from me.
Time to go to bed.
I hope you all had a lovely Halloween.
It's National Novel Writing Month over at NaNoWrimo dot org and I've only managed 210 words on my first day.
Lovely.
It's National Novel Writing Month over at NaNoWrimo dot org and I've only managed 210 words on my first day.
Lovely.
