So what inspires you, or is this a mystery to be solved?

Yeah, bottom line is to me is that she knows I dig her. And in spite of all that she lets people call me creeper and deep down she feels it too. Which means my feelings or intent is not appreciated or reciprocated. That really hurt last night. But now I'm getting that, go fuck yourself attitude about it.

Like you I do find inspiration in female. Usually from here, I try to draw the SG friends I've made from their sets or just something they posted in attachments. Are you in the artist group here? You missed a lot of hoopla about the difference between SG art and hopeful art but it is a good place to show off your work. I am part of it and I post my sg drawings there.

Then I'd like to follow you on tumblr

Also, sounds like there's a story to how Tom talked you into being straight haha

It does sound kind of serious now that yo uput it that way. LIke you were brainwashed or something

Don't' worry about following me. It's just seemingly sexual explicit stuff. I don't often post on there. Unless it's my lego or a naked girl I thought was worth reposting haha

That's one of those stories you only ever see in the movies. Guy and girl fall in love in spite of one being gay. Well that's cool, that's how you know you fucking love a dude haha

Mine are much like a movie, guy falls for girl. He pursues her hardcore and finds many obstacles. Just to find the one biggest obstacle. You know the part in your story where you realize you love Tom. In my story it's call the leap of faith. It's the part that never happened.
And ever since it's been a comedy of errors trying to suit women. I've had more success with men than I have with women. And I don't want to be gay. I'm ok being bi, but not gay. i want a woman in my life.

But yeah, trying to suit, the one that got away. There are tons of stories. Fights with guys twice my size. Setting up the romantic dinner and the romantic weekend getaway. Declaring my love for her in front of a crowded room. Actually she married and I went to the wedding. The part in the movie where the guy objects tot he wedding cuz he's madly in love with her. That didn't happen, I honestly thought i should. But didn't. It was funny to my best friend was there. He looked at me at that part. Thinking I'm doing something. But it never happened. I wish i had a funny story to tell you, a great love story for the ages. Then again, the only comfort I find, is that my story isn't over. Although I'm pretty sure ours is

Yeah, I couldn't see the cruelty in her before. I see it now, in her defense. I made it the last two years like I wasn't interested anymore. Which was my lie. I shouldn't have done that. It hurt me so much to see her marry. So so fucking much.
We do have movie lives, ones a cute rom com and ones a very terrible dark comedy haha. i do know one thing. I'd win best actor
I'm flirtatious too, I was talking to my boss today about how I can be that way. He wants me to hit on this girl across the mall because I think she's cute. He's seen me strike out or not try while at work with some of the girls that come into our place. He gets a good laugh at me, but I say I can flirt with the best. Its' closing I clearly suck at haha. Sorry bout the pushy girl, I have a girl friend on here who wants me to help hook her up. Problem she's married. The girls I know don't want to mess with a married girl... Doh

First things first, i should introduce myself. He wants me to go over and get her number. i'm not that fucking smooth haha. I told him today I'm hung up about my weight. That's a big issue, he was nice. he said not to let that bother me. It's not gonna bother her and if it does. Fuck her.
Yeah, I'm not sure how that would work out. I mean I see poly people give it a go. Sometimes it works some times it doesn't but open relationships. That's tricky. Don't know what to tell her. Just let her know when I find a girl who might be interested

Big issue for me is that I've been aroud really shallow girls who want a particular shape and size. And they're not too open to anythong outside that. Big reason it's an issue for me. But good for him, he found someone who wasn't hung up on size

I just wanted to say hi.
Plus, I figured it might be nice to break up Padre's string of messages.
Hope you're hanging in there with work!

Lots of people also get really sick from the shot.. Why risk it? BUT.. I did hear on the news today about how bad this flu season has been. And it's not officially flu season yet! YIKES>>> Sometimes I let my "Conspiracy Theory Mindset" take over. That says it's all a scam by the drug companies for bigger profits!

I can't picture you as a class A bitch - you seem so sweet. Maybe you just grew up a bit more...

As for "The Girl", you'd think she would try to take advantage financially - like go to fancy restaurants or have me go shopping at the mall with her, but she doesn't do that. It really seems like she only texts to make sure I'm still willing to talk to her... she doesn't want me to buy her anything. Yes, my plan was to just say Happy BDay and let it go, unless she replies. Then we can chat via text or see what happens.

It's true, I am around a lot of really immature and silly people.
Today I spent time with my friends. And I remember how fun and easy it was to make people laugh. All I have to do is just stop th inking of my issues. And just be me & bam.

Thanks for the nice words. I need more good people around