Alright so here is what the dr said. Basically the infection spread into my jaw. It is a really bad infection and is also the reason why I have been so sick lately. He said it is too dangerous to operate with the infection the way it is. Im on meds to try to get rid of as much of the infection possibe. I go back monday for them to look. Then we will set up for surgery. Because I let this go so long the surgery is no longer just pulling of teeth. I know have to get part of my bone removed and this make it more expensive. So now I need to figure out how I am going to pay for what I waas planning on paying. Only a couple more hundred dollars though so ill figure somthing out.

Looks like im going to be going on a liquid diet! My mouth has gotten so bad that I can barely open in. Im hoping the surgeon can get me in for emergency surgery. I wouldnt have put it off for so long if I had med insurance but I dont and 1500 is alot for me to drop on surgery at the moment but I now have no choice. FUCK.

When im a bitch more things seem to go my way. Maybe I should stop being so nice to everyone?

Im excited! My life has really turned around and everything is finally progressing!! My future is looking really bright and that makes me happy. There is a lot going on at the moment and it has me stressed out at times but its all worth it. I have set alot of goals for myself that im trying to accomplish. I am really motivated and trying hard to get things better. Yay for that. I want to join a gym but they are so damn expensive! I went into one today that wanted $150 down. Lol they are idiots if they think im paying that. I used to work at Bally Total Fitness when I lived in Cleveland and I know the initiation fees are bull. Im going to a few other places tomorrow to look around for somthing better.
I went to target and they had booberry cereal!! I bought 3 boxes! Yay me!
xx

.... There is somone who I really wish was here with me right now, you know who you are.

blahhh.. that is all

Hello
I am drunk
That makes me happy
I may go sleep soon
Im eating cheetos
Go leave love on this Celiah Suicides Set
Thats my baby girl and her set needs to be up on the front page
That is all

g'night

hello

i wish people would pay me my money damn it

with everything that is happening i wasnt able to make it to NYC tonite