And where do we go with time lost

Do we look to the future
Or to what we forgot
The past holds secrets to what we are
and the Future..

Maybe it leads to can be,
Maybe it leads to what we hate,

Acceptance of what we resented
Acceptance of what we pretended we wouldn't become.

The future is unwritten, and we do what we must,

To avoid becoming that what we don't trust.

Unclear it may be,
Hope to avoid what lies ahead

Are we doomed to repeat the mistakes we already made?
Or can we avoid that which we dread?

Depression strikes in unusual ways..
Sometimes close, and often far away.
Close to the heart, or far from home.
Discontent, Stress, or overcome
The constant being

when it hit's you feel alone...

Weird being back here. It's been so long. To the mystery stranger who renewed my account for me, thank you kindly. Although I would love to know who it was <3.

Not much to talk about atm unfortunately, I feel I should have some grand story as my first blog back.. but really, I'm just tired.

Guess I need to go and find some new photo's or something since my kids going to be two shortly and in the one above she's two months. ... Certainly has been awhile.

One of the CT radio stations is throwing a cutest baby contest. So we entered Evie, seen via my photos, Vote for her or she'll kill you.

Just send an email to:
photos@q105.fm

Subject: 116

Your name,
address,
and phone number

check out her picture here:
http://q105.fm/photoWallPhoto.asp?wallID=31446&photoID=2087676

here's all the info posted on the site:
Vote for the baby that you think is the cutest by sending an email to: photos@q105.fm . (Please read directions below)
The email subject line should contain only the number of the photo from the photo gallery. A number sign or any other info in the subject line besides the number may cause your vote to not be counted.
In the body of the email please include your name, address and daytime phone number. The winner of the Q-Test Baby Contest will be announced on August 25 at the Q-105 Kids Expo at Crystal Mall of Waterford.

As of last Sunday I'm a Daddy.


Here we are.. Me looking very tired she is using her favorite pacifier.


And here she is crying while I read her a pamphlet of the "Dangers of Marijuana".

I threw another one of us napping into my profile pics.

Crazy, I'm a Daddy. I couldn't be happier.

The reason I don't think I've posted here much of late has been that I don't think this blog is personal anymore. I've never been one much to "share" my feelings and lately everything I write feels invaded upon. I have journales, don't get me wrong... but they are my own. And I can GARUNTEE that nobody else will ever see them (6 journal's). However, when I do .. choose.. to share my feelings I write my (ugh) Blogs... Like nobody else is listening (watching). But lately, I feel like I know they are. It's hard for me to contribute my personel effects when I think they might be judged. My personal feelings on certain things are my own and should remain as such. Thus, I keep all such affects to myself.

Honestly though, ... Whoever reads this is probally my friend... And I haven't been much of a friend lately. I'm truely sorry for that and hope that I can be around for ya'll more frequently.

Anywho.. I love ya'll like no-one else... You're my friend Til The End and I hope you the best. Stay Happy Everyone - E




PS. http://www.myspace.com/49733973 friend me foo's.

I can't sleep so I made a myspace..


http://www.myspace.com/49733973

Add me as your friend,


now.

What a week. I feel like I attended so so many party's last week, not to mention my own. Since none of you bastards made it to my New Years party I'll just let you know that it was awesome. A good 30 or so people showed up between the two apartments. Having it thrown in both places made the night pretty interesting. Downstairs was nothing but people drinking, loudly, with a fast paced atmoshere and all kinds of fun/drinking games. Whereas the upstairs apt was very quiet and people were just casually drinking while talking to eachother. Id explain more but Ill be damned if I remember most of it.

School is frustrating, I can't afford last semesters tuition yet and I cant enroll for classes until I do.

Thankfully I've got Carmen to keep me from getting to frustrated. She and I are doing well, but honestly we almost always are. She and I just fit like I've never fit with anyone else. Its just a great feeling.

Anywho, I hope everyone is doing splendidly and that you're holidays were also alot of fun.

I leave you with Best dog ever x 1000 for your enjoyment.

Don't blink, you might miss it.

So yea, I suck at updating. Which is amusing to me because SG is my homepage.

There really isn't much to report though, new(ish) girlfriend, whom most of you met at Ben's.
Schools out which is nice I guess. Im on my way to becomming a Bio-Medical Engineer which holds almost no interest to me. I would change majors but I have no idea what else to do with myself.

Its funny.. It just hit midnight and I'm drinking my fourth cup of coffee. Oh the holidays.

Weak update, I know.