My Nanna died on Tuesday.
She was the best Nanna anyone could ever hope for. I feel lucky to have had her in my life, for the times we spent together, for the conversations, for the meals we shared, the adventures we had, the things she taught me, for the love, the laughter and for every treasured moment spent in each others company.
I will always love my Nanna, she will live on in my memories.
May she rest in peace.
She was the best Nanna anyone could ever hope for. I feel lucky to have had her in my life, for the times we spent together, for the conversations, for the meals we shared, the adventures we had, the things she taught me, for the love, the laughter and for every treasured moment spent in each others company.
I will always love my Nanna, she will live on in my memories.
May she rest in peace.
I Am Darkness
I'm alone in the dark.
It’s cold and oh so painful.
My body aches to be free of this dark and terrible place.
Even in my dreams this darkness haunts me.
It’s always there.
Lurking.
Cold.
Wrapping its icy fingers around my throat.
I ache.
I shiver.
I'm lost and frightened.
I search and search but the darkness surrounds me.
Darkness and pain.
The pain never leaves me.
I wish with all my being that it would.
I don’t want it and I can't handle it anymore.
Occasionally I see a sliver of light.
My heart lurches.
Yet I always trip and fall further into darkness.
The light.
It always evades me.
Glimpsed but never found.
Teasing me.
Each time leaving me in crushing darkness.
Pushing in from every angle.
Its dark ache spreading through my body.
Weaving and clawing.
Its black murk clutches at my spine.
Its grip becomes tighter and tighter.
Wrapping itself into my every fibre and sinew.
It invades my body.
It takes what's mine.
It invades my every thought.
Until all thoughts cease.
The pain is all consuming.
Just pain and darkness.
I am pain.
I am darkness.
I am nothing.
I'm alone in the dark.
It’s cold and oh so painful.
My body aches to be free of this dark and terrible place.
Even in my dreams this darkness haunts me.
It’s always there.
Lurking.
Cold.
Wrapping its icy fingers around my throat.
I ache.
I shiver.
I'm lost and frightened.
I search and search but the darkness surrounds me.
Darkness and pain.
The pain never leaves me.
I wish with all my being that it would.
I don’t want it and I can't handle it anymore.
Occasionally I see a sliver of light.
My heart lurches.
Yet I always trip and fall further into darkness.
The light.
It always evades me.
Glimpsed but never found.
Teasing me.
Each time leaving me in crushing darkness.
Pushing in from every angle.
Its dark ache spreading through my body.
Weaving and clawing.
Its black murk clutches at my spine.
Its grip becomes tighter and tighter.
Wrapping itself into my every fibre and sinew.
It invades my body.
It takes what's mine.
It invades my every thought.
Until all thoughts cease.
The pain is all consuming.
Just pain and darkness.
I am pain.
I am darkness.
I am nothing.
I wonder how many car accidents have been caused by a driver sneazing?
I wonder this everytime I sneaze whilst driving
I wonder this everytime I sneaze whilst driving
So it's currently 2:50am, I've been snuggled up in bed for a couple of hours now, trying to sleep but I can't 
Hence why I'm on here, though Im not entirely ready to give up on sleep altogether yet.
How long do u persist? At what stage do u throw ur hands in the air in resignation and just bloody get up?
Hence why I'm on here, though Im not entirely ready to give up on sleep altogether yet.
How long do u persist? At what stage do u throw ur hands in the air in resignation and just bloody get up?
So I went for a long walk today around lake Tuggeranong, was beautiful weather for it.
I took some pics:
I've been enjoying being on holidays so much, It would be so nice not to have the reponsibility of work, then I could just do what ever I wanted, whenever I wanted....I guess I can always dream
I took some pics:
I've been enjoying being on holidays so much, It would be so nice not to have the reponsibility of work, then I could just do what ever I wanted, whenever I wanted....I guess I can always dream
First blog.....hmmmm....
So i'm on holidays atm, i've got another week off work and I'm loving being able to stay up all hours of the night and sleep in as much as i like. I've been watching movies, vegging out, listening to music whilst drawing and eating good food...does it get much better then that?!
So i'm on holidays atm, i've got another week off work and I'm loving being able to stay up all hours of the night and sleep in as much as i like. I've been watching movies, vegging out, listening to music whilst drawing and eating good food...does it get much better then that?!
